write it down
The journaling is a very important part of this program. For me it was crucial in seeing what negative thoughts needed to be changed, how they were effecting my moods, how much I was scaring myself with some of these thoughts, and how untrue most of them really were. It shows us what our themes or patterns are in our thinking. The restructuring of the negative thoughts into believable positive alternatives will change how you view yourself and your life. A few weeks of journaling will also give you immense insight when you get to the later sessions on making changes and figuring out what your secondary gains are. I wouldn't have recovered to the level I did without the journaling, and forcing myself to take a look at the good, the bad, and the ugly of my thinking.
Jai...I am so sorry if I would of known that you did the burning before and it was negative in your mind I would not have posted that. I did this thing at a Bible retreat that whe wrote down our worse sin ever then burnt it and they said that was what God does with our sin makes it no more...it helped me.
Again, I am sorry. I hope you find a way to write I think it helps so much. Michelle
Again, I am sorry. I hope you find a way to write I think it helps so much. Michelle
Would it really be so bad if someone knew what you thought/felt? Maybe they could relate to you? Maybe it would give them understanding of your struggles? I too used to be paranoid about writing stuff down. I would always pictures cops reading my journal trying to figure me out, putting pieces together, etc, Yes, way too much Law and Order and CSI. I still have my worries but I don't let that stop me from doing what I need to do to help myself. I also feel like most people have a level of respect and they wouldn't pick up your journal and read it. keep trying different things and you'll find one that suits you.
Jai, you really should just start writing, you probably won't be able to stop once you start. I had the same problem about worrying if someone would read what I write, but then I thought well, maybe if certain people read it, I won't have to actually say these things to that person. I have a hard time expressing my feelings, but writing them is easy. Hope you can start writing soon, and I would also like to change my screen name, but don't know how. I put my whole name there. 
