My Anxiety.

Abbiegirl7 · Post by **Abbiegirl7** » Thu Jan 28, 2010 10:57 am

I'm 15 & I've been struggling with anxiety since 3rd grade, and I'm in 9th right now. It went away for a while, after 3rd. I'm not going to school FULLY, because of it. I got out of school in 7th grade, when my anxiety came back. It's taken over my life, and it's very hard to control. Last Friday I started going to a school run out of my church, I know pretty much everyone there. & I was very very verrrry nervous, cause I didn't want to have an anxiety attack, because only about 2 weeks ago, I had one at the movies.. For absolutely NO reason. & Most of yall can understand, it's scary stuff. So I know it's all in my head, I know I have it. But hopefully this Attacking Anxiety & Depression package will help. I started it just today, Jan 28th, 2010, And it seems to be PRETTY amazing. It just explains everything I'm going through. And I'm glad to know there's more people out there that understand. Because at school I had two anxiety attacks, and luckily no one thought I was "weird", Cause everyone's very caring at a Christian school. Most of my friends from church who go there, saw how bad it is, & they've never EVER seen me like that. I'm usually that happy go go girl that is funny & super outgoing, & I still am, they just didn't know I'm struggling with Anxiety. And no one there really understands, except for one girl in my class who's actually gone through exactly what I have, except she threw up every single day, so you could say she had it worse. I've always felt I could puke, but NEVER have. Hopefully everything gets better

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 28, 2010 12:43 pm

Way to go Abbie!! I wish I had the program at 15. It would have saved me years of pain and anxiety for nothing. I will be 45 soon and I missed alot growing up. You are so strong for facing your fears and taking charge of them. This program will help. Come here with your questions and someone will try to help best they can, or sometimes you may just want to vent and want someone to listen. Come often in any case.
Take care,
Jill~

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 29, 2010 2:04 pm

Hi this message is coming to you from a 51 year old kid at heart. Yes I too had anxiety when I attended school and the bullies back then preyed upon me and thought that I was an easy target for them to bully me around. But then one day this really bossy kid pushed me too far and I told him that me and him were going to have it out on the school grounds at noon. And like a wildfire the whole school turned out for our big fight. Well sure all I remember telling myself is go for his FACE! And so when the battle began I think that he thought I was going to fold like a house of cards so he as well as everyone else there were sure surprised when I came at him with both barrles! I just had enough and he was the one who was sorry that day let me tell you. Because once he tried to break away the other kids were pushing him back into the ring and I was still going for his face! The battle probably lasted some 10 to 15 minutes but his statis of being a bully was seriously damaged that day 'cause after I clobbered him all the other kids started to bully the bully and well to this day I hear he wants a rematch. But get this he's now got a body like The Terminator but I'm not giving him the chance to even the score because it was he who started to whole mess and I can live knowing that I took down a great pain in the neck who was bothering everybody so that day I was the whole schools victor. Now you may ask why did I tell this story. Well one I wanted for you to know that even though I felt like something people would scrap off the bottom of their shoes I am doing all right with my life as I've never stopped reaching for my star to become a professional cartoonist. And if you bother to check out my first letters I wrote about my life when I got on the the program program you'll see that since my graduation I am Manic Depressive Free. And if you don't believe me there are a number of staff personnel at the clinic I've been going to that can tell you that they're not giving me any med for MD anymore. So hows that for a testimony. So my advice to you all who just started working the program is DO IT! STOP WASTING THE DAYS BY COMING UP WITH EXCUSES TO STAY THE WAY YOU ARE!
BECAUSE THE FREEDOM YOU'LL FIND AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL IS WORTH IT ALL. Enough said.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 29, 2010 3:05 pm

Hey girl, WAY TO GO on going through this program, you are definitely doing all the right things by going through this!

I started getting anxiety right after leaving my small elementary school and going to a big Jr. High school with hundreds of kids! Wow if I had this program it would have been great! I did go to counselling but there were no "tools" and explanations like this program has - you are waaay ahead of the game here!

And the great thing is that you are nipping this in the bud early, and you will always have these tools handy for later in life, and guess what, you will be able to help your friend with the throwing up. You are buddying up, that is fantastic.

Funny thing, nobody knew I had anxiety, it was embarrassing to me so I hid it and I think that made things hundreds of times worse for me, but people didn't talk about their feeling as much back then.

Good for you - YOU GO GIRL!!!!

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Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Jan 29, 2010 4:21 pm

Abbie:
I'm just so proud of you!!! WOW

I, too, had anxiety and depression as a teen ager in school.
As far as I know there was no program such as this anywhere in those days.
To tell you the truth back in those days it was safer to keep such problems hidden. I think there might have been a stigma attached to it.
You see , I started school in the '30's.

I just feel so happy for you that you've found this jprogram.
Wishing you a full recovery!
God bless you!! You are one smart girl!!!
MJ