This is all new to me...

dederj96 · Post by **dederj96** » Fri Jul 17, 2009 8:56 am

A year ago I was not bothered by the many fears and anxieties that bother me today. Sometimes I get so mad because I almost feel like I was robbed of such a beautiful life and in return was given a life that sometimes I simply can't handle. I have a fear of EVERYTHING! I fear I may just stop breathing, I live in fear of having another panic attack, I fear situations that I'm not in control, such as driving, and the list goes on... I'm not real sure what triggered these fears nor do I know what the first step in overcoming them is. I feel alone and I'm miserable. I'm only 23 years old and I will NOT live like this forever. I have so much ahead of me and so many things to experience and I am willing to do whatever it takes to get these awful fears that are constricting my life out of my head!! I just don't know how... I don't know where to begin... What I do know is they are not real because when I drink, I'm fine...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jul 20, 2009 7:59 pm

Hi dederj96, Im angela, first know ur not alone.. i too myself got hit unexpected with anxiety.. fears of the worst. every "what if's" u can think... this is my second time around.. only cause i didnt finish the program the first time. and u mentioned u dont know where to begin. welll actually admitting u have a disorder and willing to take charge is the first step. and seeking help is another step closer. this website will be a safe place to go and seek attention. i too dont know where it started for me.. what i do know is that i dont deal well with stress. thats majority of my anxiety.. which turns into other phobias.. if u have the program, i suggest u get started, if not, get the program.. there is hope,, and a very big possability u will not only have ur old fun self back, but ull be new and improved, so that any obstacle that comes ur way, ur ready to take it head on. these symptoms will pass, this will be another chapter in ur life. trust me, once u focus on ur anxiety/depression etc..and learn to turn negatives into positives and not beat ur self up.. ull be fine. ur on the right track tho. however, drinking is a depressant try eliminating it, remember drinking numbs the pain, but it doesnt take it away, its still there the next day..
good luck to u my friend..
ull be fine
angela

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 22, 2009 8:38 am

I have yet to purchase the program. I guess I'm skeptical.... why was the reason you didn't complete is the first time? And is it going better for you the second time around? I'm just real afraid one day this is going to take over my life. Right now, I can control my surroundings but in the future I know it's impossible to control every aspect of your life... is the program worth buying?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 22, 2009 8:38 am

Also, thank you, for taking the time to write back.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 29, 2009 10:20 am

I have tried so many things-temporary solutions. I hope I have found something that will work and I pray that God will give me the endurance to work the program and see this journey through.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 19, 2009 3:51 pm

"YOUR HISTORY DOES NOT HAVE TO BE YOUR FUTURE!'

Originally posted by Michelle A.:
HI ALL MY NAME IS MICHELLE AND I STARTED THIS PROGRAM ON AUGUST 17 .. IAM ON DAY 3..IF MY SISTER HAD NOT ORDERED IT FOR ME... I WOULD STILL BE LOOKING AT THE COMMERICIAL AND WISHING I HAD THE GUTTS TO ORDER IT!! IT HAS BEEN SLOW.. AND EVERYDAY.. ISAY I AM GOING TO WAKE UP EARLY AND GET OUT OF BED BEFORE 12NOON(NOT) I GET UP OUT OF BED AROUND 1PM OR 2PM AND MOPE AROUND.. FEELING LOST AND ALONE...I TRY TO LISTEN TO THE RELAXION CD B4 I GET OUT OF BED.. THEN I REMEMBER I LEFT IT BY MY DESK..IN ANOTHER ROOM(ON PURPOSE).. SESSION1 IS THE REALIZATION AND THE ADMITTANCE THAT 'YOU' HAVE A PROBLEM.. THEN COMES THE TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING THAT DAY..JUST MADE MY BDAY AUG.10-39YRS OLD AND HAVE NOT LEFT MY HOUSE EXCEPT FOR BASIC SHOPPING IN A MONTH..IT IS HARD BUT WE ALL HAVE SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO AND THAT IS ' ACHANCE TO CHANGE'NOT BY FORCE BUT BY WILL!! LOVE AND GRACES ALL.. GL IN YOUR JOURNEY TOO..

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 30, 2009 4:57 am

I'm new, starting lesson one. I was doing the breathing, relaxing thing, and at a dr appt, my bld presr was LOW. I guess that is good. I am usually low. But I am noticing the not wanting to be embarrased part. It's not bosty, but childish. I drove off yesterday morning, then realized my mail was left on my car by me. So I picked up one paper, not realizing there was more on the car. I felt stupid and embarrassed as if the whole nieghborhood was watching. But realized, they probably arent watching, and also, they probably think, now nice, she's picking up litter. LOL! I'm having awareness of needed to take myself lighter, and not DEEP!.
Laurie in WA.
I dont get these message boards yet, but will sometime. :p