I'm scared. Ia there anyone out there like me? Can I be cured?
I have suffered from severe anxiety for years now and it has progressivly gotten worse. I am constantly going to the doctor and being checked for everything you could possibly imagine! I am only 25 and I've already had a colonoscopy, lung cancer screenng, throat cancer screening, ultra sound of my heart, wore a heart monitor for 24 hours, I go in and make the doctors do an EKG at least once every couple weeks, I have constant blood tests. I've been convinced I've had HIV, a blood clot, skin cancer...just to name a few! I am obcessed with researching various diseases and then I convince myself I have them. It's a vicious cycle and somehow I can't stop myself. My anxiety isn't always about my health, but the health of my loved ones as well. If someone is 10 minutes late I worry that they've been in a seriouse accident and are dead. I have panic attacks and I think I'm dying. I drink daily in an attempt to relieve my symptoms. My drinking causes problems in my relationship eventhough I'm not a sloppy drunk at all. It is just the only way I know how to cope right now and it doean't help when people nag me about it. I just feel like no one understands me, hell, I don't even understand me. I'm always very aggitated and I just feel like my anxiety disorders are keeping me from being the person I know I am deep down. I'm so depressed over all of this. The doctor's want to put me on meds. but I'm reluctant because I've gone that route years ago to no avail and with many side affects. Maybe I didn't give it a fair shot, who knows... I'm at a loss, I don't know what else to do and I feel so alone.
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Britt,
First of all - you are NOT alone! Everyone on these boards is suffering from the same or similar symptoms/problems that you are describing.
Are you in the program? The sessions on Obsessive/Scary Thoughts (#10) and Medication and Alcohol (#11) would be really helpful to you. PLUS the relaxation methods on that CD/tape could do wonders for you if you give them a fair shake.
People with anxiety are also often hypochondriacs (speaking for myself here as well!). When we start recognizing that is is actually ANXIETY that is affecting us and not some dreaded, unknown fatal disease that we have created in our minds - we can begin to heal, grow, and recover.
Just remember - you are not alone. And from your test results - you are otherwise healthy! Your mind is telling you otherwise, so taking control of your mind and living your life is an excellent solution. Why not give this a shot?
You deserve a better life. Truly, you do.
Blessings,
Dawn
First of all - you are NOT alone! Everyone on these boards is suffering from the same or similar symptoms/problems that you are describing.
Are you in the program? The sessions on Obsessive/Scary Thoughts (#10) and Medication and Alcohol (#11) would be really helpful to you. PLUS the relaxation methods on that CD/tape could do wonders for you if you give them a fair shake.
People with anxiety are also often hypochondriacs (speaking for myself here as well!). When we start recognizing that is is actually ANXIETY that is affecting us and not some dreaded, unknown fatal disease that we have created in our minds - we can begin to heal, grow, and recover.
Just remember - you are not alone. And from your test results - you are otherwise healthy! Your mind is telling you otherwise, so taking control of your mind and living your life is an excellent solution. Why not give this a shot?
You deserve a better life. Truly, you do.
Blessings,
Dawn
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Thank you! I do have the program. I did the "risk free 30 day trial" when I saw it on TV, I'm always a little apprehensive about ordering things off TV but I figure what the heck. I have watched one and a half of the DVD's and I want to give it a shot, however, I am stressing out about the cost of it. I wish they could bill it in cycles instead of charging the whole amount at once. It's just a lot of money for me, but if it works, then it's totally worth it! So you think I should buy it and work the program to the full extent? Will it work? I sure hope so! Thank you so much for responding to me! I felt so alone before!
Dear Britt, I ditto Dawn's post. There is strength in #s too and believe me you are not alone! It took me sev yrs. to finally be dx'd with Fibromyalgia. There are scans and blood tests for everything else. So when I finally got to the right Dr. and he started pushing on these tender spots all over me and dx'd FMS I was so happy! Not that I was sick but that there was name to what was wrong with me and that it wasn't going to kill me! I am telling you this because I know how it is to have something wrong and not know what! It does sound like you are in good health physically-except the symptoms of anxiety and PD maybe.
For yrs. I self-medicated for anxiety-it was so easy to have a glass of good/or bad! wine. Or to mix a drink. At the time I didn't know it but the drinks were making me sicker and that if I ever intended to get well again I would have to stop everything!
I suggest one thing tho-before you maybe add to your anxiety by spending alot of $ you don't have-try Lucinda's Free Program. I am sure even she would tell you that. That is the beauty of Lucinda-she knows there are many who need her steps that cannot afford to pay for them! I promise you once you read her 1st step and watch the video on the Free Prog you will begin to feel some relief! I am on step 5 of the 21 day mini program. this is also giving me the chance to save up and purchase the rest of the program. I have already been using the tools she gives us and it does work.
Can you stop the meds and alcohol-I mean if you have been on some of the meds it can be dangerous to just stop them-and also stopping the alcohol if you are dependant on it can be very dangerous too. So, you know what your body needs and if getting help to stop meds or drinking-sloppy or not- is it-I will tell you the 1st 30 days coming off of anything is the hardest-so get ready and come back here-there are some really special people here.
I will add you to my prayers today.
Always,
Deb^J^
The Lord is upright
He is my Rock
Psalm 92
For yrs. I self-medicated for anxiety-it was so easy to have a glass of good/or bad! wine. Or to mix a drink. At the time I didn't know it but the drinks were making me sicker and that if I ever intended to get well again I would have to stop everything!
I suggest one thing tho-before you maybe add to your anxiety by spending alot of $ you don't have-try Lucinda's Free Program. I am sure even she would tell you that. That is the beauty of Lucinda-she knows there are many who need her steps that cannot afford to pay for them! I promise you once you read her 1st step and watch the video on the Free Prog you will begin to feel some relief! I am on step 5 of the 21 day mini program. this is also giving me the chance to save up and purchase the rest of the program. I have already been using the tools she gives us and it does work.
Can you stop the meds and alcohol-I mean if you have been on some of the meds it can be dangerous to just stop them-and also stopping the alcohol if you are dependant on it can be very dangerous too. So, you know what your body needs and if getting help to stop meds or drinking-sloppy or not- is it-I will tell you the 1st 30 days coming off of anything is the hardest-so get ready and come back here-there are some really special people here.
I will add you to my prayers today.
Always,
Deb^J^
The Lord is upright
He is my Rock
Psalm 92
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What is the "Mini program"? When I ordered the free trial, I thought they were just going to send me an "introduction" DVD, but they sent this HUGE box, it's the entire program and I have to send it back in about 2 weeks if I'm not going to buy it.
I am not on meds. right now, except for Klonapin (or however you spell it). I just take it to sleep and if I'm having a panic attack). I often break the pills in half. I have an appointment with a Psychiatrist this Friday and he is suppose to start me on meds. but I really don't want to take them! My sister had a horrible experience with them about 2 and a half years ago. She tried to commit suicide and seriously almost died. They told us she would not live and she was in ICU for two and a half weeks. That was the most horrible time in my life and I think my anxiety really went down hill after that. I still think about it a lot and even have flash backs.
I am not on meds. right now, except for Klonapin (or however you spell it). I just take it to sleep and if I'm having a panic attack). I often break the pills in half. I have an appointment with a Psychiatrist this Friday and he is suppose to start me on meds. but I really don't want to take them! My sister had a horrible experience with them about 2 and a half years ago. She tried to commit suicide and seriously almost died. They told us she would not live and she was in ICU for two and a half weeks. That was the most horrible time in my life and I think my anxiety really went down hill after that. I still think about it a lot and even have flash backs.
Yes Brit we have all been there including myself. The price of the program didn't help my anxiety eithr. But I was able to call the customer service number and they worked out a GREAT monthly payment and worked the price of the program for me. I will say drinking causes depression when dealing with anxiety....its a downer....If klonopin isn't working for you there are other anti anxiety meds that do not have ssri's in them. ALot of people including myself can not take SSRI's they do reverse in us. I take xanax as a tool in my life but this program is one the best tools. yes the box is huge and overwhelming and confusing when you fist look at it....then you get familiar with it and then comfortable with it.....then it becomes your friend. Things will get better but you have to keep taking small steps forward.
Blessings always
Blessings always
ANGELS CAN FLY BECAUSE THEY TAKE THEMSELVES LIGHTLY
Thank you for the great advise! I will call the service center and hopefully they will work with me as well. I really would like to give this program a shot. I just don't want to keep living everyday in a state of panic like I am now! I am so glad I came to this site and I appreciate everyone's kind encouraging words. God bless you all! I am feeling more hopeful already! It sucks to feel like you're the only one out there with these issues.
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I didn't ask for the free/mini prog. I took the test and then saw how much the prog cost and closed that web page wondering what to do next as I had scored way high on sev issues and knew in my heart I needed some help. And 'low and behold' I got an email the next day with the free prog offer. I have been really pleased with it too. I get an email once a wk-I read what it says and then go online to see the relating video. the "why" exercise really helped me alot. Since I have IBS-extreme-diverticulitis and now a colostomy too-I have to eat what the nutritionist tell me to eat-and there are alot of things I absolutley cannot have-of I course I love those foods-but I am saying the nutrition part of the prog is this weeks study-but I already know what I can't have or else! I almost left this world during the surgery to remove part of my colon-so I have to watch what I eat.
Anyway, on the free prog you get a weekly email from Lucinda + an online video. It is a 7 session course.
I know at the end of it I will want to keep going but I am a disabled widow raing a teenage son on my H's SS. We don't do w/out but I have to watch every penny I spend! I hate that too-but I just so thankful we have what we do have! I mean when I take a shower I thank God for the hot water-soap and shampoo-LOL-but those are all things I have always taken for granted-until my H died and my life as I knew it-not many money worries-new car every yr. etc.changed dramatically! I have just over 55,000 miles on my car now-that was when my husband always traded cars-just after the 60,000th mile! hahahaha I have a panic attack when I think about hitting 80,000 miles on this car-which if I live to do it-am sure I will see it for the 1st time in 15 yrs.!
So, spending right at $500.00 on something we can't eat-wear-or drive is a no brainer for me.I make just enough SS to be turned down for any assistance I might otherwise qualify for.Not old enough yet for medicare-so my Dr. bills for the FMS/osteo and colon issues are cash payments from my budget! go fig.
So, you know what you can afford to do.
I now add thankful for Lucinda's good heart to my list of stuff I thank God for when I am in the shower!
I put the emails from the program in a folder and save them.
Good Luck to you,
Always, Deb^J^
Anyway, on the free prog you get a weekly email from Lucinda + an online video. It is a 7 session course.
I know at the end of it I will want to keep going but I am a disabled widow raing a teenage son on my H's SS. We don't do w/out but I have to watch every penny I spend! I hate that too-but I just so thankful we have what we do have! I mean when I take a shower I thank God for the hot water-soap and shampoo-LOL-but those are all things I have always taken for granted-until my H died and my life as I knew it-not many money worries-new car every yr. etc.changed dramatically! I have just over 55,000 miles on my car now-that was when my husband always traded cars-just after the 60,000th mile! hahahaha I have a panic attack when I think about hitting 80,000 miles on this car-which if I live to do it-am sure I will see it for the 1st time in 15 yrs.!
So, spending right at $500.00 on something we can't eat-wear-or drive is a no brainer for me.I make just enough SS to be turned down for any assistance I might otherwise qualify for.Not old enough yet for medicare-so my Dr. bills for the FMS/osteo and colon issues are cash payments from my budget! go fig.
So, you know what you can afford to do.
I now add thankful for Lucinda's good heart to my list of stuff I thank God for when I am in the shower!
I put the emails from the program in a folder and save them.
Good Luck to you,
Always, Deb^J^
I am SO SORRY to hear about your husband! Your positive attitude however is an inspiration!
If you look up 2 posts prior to yours, "Believer08" told me how she (or he...) contacted the service center and was able to make monthly payment arrangements. I was glad to hear about that and I too am going to see if they would be willing to work with me. Maybe you should give it a try as well.
Best of luck to you! I will keep you and your Son in my prayers.
If you look up 2 posts prior to yours, "Believer08" told me how she (or he...) contacted the service center and was able to make monthly payment arrangements. I was glad to hear about that and I too am going to see if they would be willing to work with me. Maybe you should give it a try as well.
Best of luck to you! I will keep you and your Son in my prayers.
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Britt - I also told them on the phone that I coulnd't do the whole cost at once and I have a great payment plan for 8 months. I am currently on session 11 and I have it say honestly - it has truly, truly helped me on my path to recovery from depression (primarily) and anxiety...and all of the associated garbage that I was carrying along with them!!! 
I am one of those heistant consumers too when it comes to shopping off TV! I had reached an all time low though and on a drive home from work, by myself in the car, I found mytself SCREAMING at the top of my lungs (until my throat was raw!)...just primal screaming! And then it turned into, "God help me - I can't do this anymore!"
The next morning when I turned my car on to go to work, Lucinda's commercial was on the radio and it stopped me in my tracks. To tell you the truth -I have never heard it on the radio before or again (I've seen it on TV since though). I wrote the number down and when I called the woman on the other end was so empathetic that I just couldn't get over that someone understood me...and that I wasn't the ONLY ONE who felt this way!
The companionship of these boards alone is a huge factor to me in healing! It is awesome to realize - just like you were saying - that we are NOT alone!
Blessings to you!
Dawn
I am one of those heistant consumers too when it comes to shopping off TV! I had reached an all time low though and on a drive home from work, by myself in the car, I found mytself SCREAMING at the top of my lungs (until my throat was raw!)...just primal screaming! And then it turned into, "God help me - I can't do this anymore!"
The next morning when I turned my car on to go to work, Lucinda's commercial was on the radio and it stopped me in my tracks. To tell you the truth -I have never heard it on the radio before or again (I've seen it on TV since though). I wrote the number down and when I called the woman on the other end was so empathetic that I just couldn't get over that someone understood me...and that I wasn't the ONLY ONE who felt this way!
The companionship of these boards alone is a huge factor to me in healing! It is awesome to realize - just like you were saying - that we are NOT alone!
Blessings to you!
Dawn