I hope everyone has had a wonderful start at this new year! My pastor asked our congregation on Sunday morning if things were going to "change" this year..I questioned myself and came up with my answer. "Robin, Of course things are going to change, it's inevitable!!! All things change" & I will embraced whatever God has in store for me.However, as you all know, I didn't always "think" like that..Like myself, Some people go through life with the mindset that "things NEVER change", "I was born a loser and I will die a loser", "I get no breaks", "why do bad things always happen to me???" It feels good to have let those "feelings" of low self worth and insecurity just float on by, almost non existant. Just as Lucinda says, "we will not change overnight". Therefore, I still have an occasional set back but I'm "back on top in May" as Old blue eyes would say
God has revealed to me that my anxiety is produced from the lack of "Self Control". I've read about this numerous time throughout the bible, and it just never dawned on me. My racing thoughts, fear, paranoia, etc. is all a product of no "self control". WOW!!! Thank you Lord for bringing that to my attention! I think some of that comes from no real discipline as a youngster, no bounderies, etc. However, I WILL NOT blame anyone for this in my adult life..I've got to "get a grip" and teach myself "self Control"...by the SPIRIT that is
When I look at the big picture of my life I can see where this "deficiency"(if you will) has been a big issue. I could go on and on how this has affected my life, but I will spare you the long drawn out stories 
But as an example(the little things are like, I eat fast, drink fast, clean fast, ect...It's been like that for most of my life..I can never just relax and enjoy things..take my time, slow down, ...I am beginning to understand that this is a "lack of self control"...when I get racing thoughts, fearful thoughts, it's lack of "self control"...do you get my point??? anyways, I thought I would share this will you all, perhaps this could be a useful thread for others??? I don't know, I just know that I am being led by the spirit and I need to share these things that he reveals to me..that's what our "walk" is all about, right? Sharing Gods word!!! Oh and by the way, Sunday was the FIRST time in 13 years that I felt "worthy" enough with taking communion
What a WONDERFUL, AMAZING God we serve!!Thank you all for listening, and most of all for your friendship.
God bless all of you this new year! Don't EVER give up!!! There is light and that's JESUS! I used to say there's light at the end of the tunnel, now I say Let Jesus light your way THROUGH the tunnel!!! he's right beside you!!