Checking In - A little out of sorts!

Engine2 · Post by **Engine2** » Sun Aug 24, 2008 2:32 am

Hey All,

It has been awhile since I checked in and I do apologize. For all the help I have received I should be at least checking in.

Over the past few months things have been going really well, I know I have had my moments, but overall things have been great, so I am not sure exactly what is up.

Since I have been "recovered" I have gotten really back into my volunteer firefighting action, even getting some interior firefighting going for me which was awesome, operated an engine at a working fire recently too w/o a hitch and I felt I had my stride fully back.

Then came this week....I am not sure what happen, but I just feel tense. My wife said it could be that with September she goes back to work (teacher) and the hustle bustle style of life comes back. She could be right.

Though what seems to trigger it could be some of my old symptoms, chest pain, which had always been from costochondritis and perhaps a little acid reflex. Funny thing is I had gone from PrevAcid to Nexium and did not think Nexium was doing the job due to the loud hiccups I was getting again, however, the burning was totally gone on Nexium while it may be re-appearing with PrevAcid. I am not sure yet, my wife thinks it could just be the cold going around our house. I guess I'll know more over the course of a few days.

Anyway, it sucks to be going through this a little bit again, feeling like the guy from May and not the guy from July. I had a great summer. Maybe it is the wife, the costochondritis, or reflux, in any event, it stinks!

So, I had to post, I know with the good will always come some bad, that is just the way it is, but it is a little disappointing because I was really feeling as if I was getting back to normal.

Any thoughts? Opinions? For those of you who read this and feel your issues never will go away, have faith, they do, but a struggle remains at times to keep it at bay. I am hoping this is a short period. When I first started to rebound I had good day, bad day, good week, bad day or 2, so I had a good two months, guess I was due!

Thanks for listening and have a great day.

CJ

Craw · Post by **Craw** » Sun Aug 24, 2008 3:35 am

Hi CJ, glad to see that you have been helped by this program and that everyone has little set backs here and there. I sometimes try to pinpoint why I'm feeling down or stressed. Like yesterday, I laid on the couch all afternoon while it was gorgeous outside. Just had no energy. And I feel I'm stressing about something but can't pinpoint it. Maybe it's my birthday coming up in late September? Or the election? Or a lot of stress at work? Or some physical pain I'm experiencing that I think is a pulled muscle in my rib cage from yoga, but could it be something more? Ugh! I'm planning a day at the beach today with two friends so hopefully I'll snap out of this by getting some sunshine and enjoying a hot summer day. I feel summer slipping away, and that's another reason I may be down.

Anyway, this stressful time will pass. They always do! Take care of yourself.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 24, 2008 5:55 am

I am relatively new to the program only in my second week. However, I think I know what you mean. There were a couple hours the other day that I felt completely normal, I was soooo happy to feel this way. And then it started all again,,,,,I got sooo disappointed. As if, I think I will just snap out of it and never have to deal with this anxiety again. Yikes, probably not the best thinking. I am trying to think positively and do all the things that I am hearing to do. I am tired today as well and was questioning that....but, decided to just float with that as well. I wish the best of luck and know that tomorrow will bring brighter days again. Just keep going on and the tide will change....

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Aug 25, 2008 4:38 am

Thanks for the replies. Had a good day yesterday. My oldest son, the Mrs. and I went to a baseball game.

Home team lost

but we had a lot of fun anyway.

I am doing better today, but to your point Music Fan my stuff centers around physical ailments especially near and around my chest. Ugh!!

I have this one little pain to the left of my chest, probably a pulled muscle from my first softball game in a month, but it gets my head spinning in circles. Gotta love it!

formyboys, keep your head up....I've been making great strides, but yesterday was one of those days. I basically started healing on this forum and from the Free Seven E-Mails I got when I signed up, either on the forum or maybe an inquity, I don't remember, but those first few e-mails were dead on!