Had a super rough night

melissaannb · Post by **melissaannb** » Mon Sep 21, 2009 3:01 am

So I've been doing so well for months now. I slacked off on the program a bit, and then last night out of nowhere an attack. I was laying in bed trying to get some sleep and I dozed off. I'd been fine all day long and then all of the sudden I woke out of a dead sleep with a pulse that was racing fast enough that it felt like I was running a marathon. I wasn't anxious about anything, but I still couldn't make it stop, which did eventually result in me being anxious. I've been dealing with a lot of IRS stress here lately but thought I was handling it pretty well. Maybe not. I didn't feel any stress. Today is just as bad. After about 3 hours of sleep I woke up with nausea and vomiting. After last night I can't calm down. My pulse is racing, I'm dizzy, I"m tired, I'm short of breath. I know that the program tells us to continually tell ourselves that it's only panic and it will pass. But that's not working. It's a day later and I still feel crumy. I don't know what to do. then of course my husband worries about me and asks this morning if I need to go to the hospital which only makes it worse because then I think something is REALLY wrong with me if he's worried. I am so sick of this roller coatser!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 21, 2009 3:50 am

melissaannb,

I had the same thing happen Saturday. I was fine all day at work and then got home. My two young kids kept getting into trouble for things they shouldn't be doing and I got upset with them a few times. You would think they'd listen instead of getting into trouble, but that's what kids do. Well, from there my heart rate became elevated and rapid and had some slight chest pains. I tried to calm down but just couldn't do it. We then went to a outdoor party and that helped a bit, but off and on I had the rapid heartbeats. We then went on a hayrack ride that was great and as I looked up at the stars, I felt a lot of peace. See, we live in town and don't see too many stars, and seeing them that night was like being a kid again when I lived in the country. It was very soothing. We left around 9:30 to get the kids to bed and when I got home, the rapid heartrate was there waiting for me. I kept checking my pulse and even had my wife do it as well. She asked me if I wanted to go to the ER, but I knew it was just my nerves. I tried to listen to one of the CD's from the program and it didn't seem to help. After a while I fell asleep somehow and was fine the next morning and day. I know I was overly tired from Friday night as I didn't get much sleep and the stress of the kids misbehaving were big factors in my episode. I just wish I had more control over my stress and anxiety. Someday I'll be back to normal and enjoy everything. I think I need to get back to the country, as I can't stand living in town. Hard to believe that a house or situation can influence me so much and control my life. I need to regain control. Hope is all I have.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 21, 2009 6:12 am

melissaannb....don't be so hard on yourself. You're obviously under quite a bit of stress and it manifest's itself in different ways. We all know the feeling. The racing at 1000 miles and hour and can't stop and relax. Just know that noting is wrong with you and that you feel this way because of the stress and anxiety. Not getting much sleep puts you further in the cycle because your body will then not feel so good. Do you have a hobby or something that can take your mind away from the anxiety? Believe me, I know how tough it can feel but hang in there. It'll pass. It always does!!! You're not alone in this...