I don't know how to make it stop

xlostgirlx · Post by **xlostgirlx** » Sun Sep 20, 2009 10:11 am

Today i lost it. All this week i've been angry. Sometimes i calm down and i'm fine then i explode. I've been blaming my freinds for the past things they've done to me that hurt me or tell them how much i hate them how angry they make me. I've screamed at my father and knocked over things off the table. I hate the neighbors and those dogs next door i wanted to kill the dogs because they were barking so much last tiem i kicked a huge hole in the wall because of it.
Everything and anyone is irritating me i just hate everything. I do little things to calm me like video games or the computer i sit back and try to relax and breathe doing EFT. but i have so much anger that everything is overwhelming. I wonder if xanax calms down angry fits as much as it does panic attacks. I hate taking pills .. but its hard for me to calm down sometimes. I'm angry at everything and hate the world.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Sep 20, 2009 11:46 am

Hey Hugs Girl!
Sorry you are having a bad time. When I was going thru my divorce I was very very very angry and the pain my husband was putting me thru was causing me to do poorly at work so my boss said to "make a plan of action" to stop this cycle of defeat and lies and get my life back. She sat me down and I made a list of TO DO things that I had control over and let the things that were out of my hands go. I felt so amazing when I focused on what I could control. It was like the happiest I had been in so long. Taking charge of my life and not letting him call the shots at how I was going to act or respond to him gave me the strength to move on and get divorced and not let the haters and manipulators in my life again. You sound really overwhelmed and I think if you make a list of things you can do you will feel better. Just a suggestion.
Take care and I will pray you find Peace soon.

Jill~

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Sep 20, 2009 11:59 am

Oftentimes outbursts like that are suppressed anger coming out..That is great that you know video games can distract that thinking. However, kicking in your wall is taking the anger and directing in a violent manner - This is where it becomes problematic. I would definitely share this with your doctor. You may need something to stabilize this for a period of time...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 21, 2009 12:48 pm

Yeah i have an appointment next week i wanted to get in as soon as possible i guess for now i will have to do my best.
Jill, what kind of a list are you talking about? can you give me an example please?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 21, 2009 4:03 pm

Hi Girl
Well my list of things I could do and let go of was based on my circumstances but it was things like
Change my living situation
Change my negative and harmful associations
changed my phone and who I received calls from
Was not open to any arguing with Ex, referred him to my legal counsel
No fighting with anyone about my changes they were allowed to express concerns for me but I was not open to debates I thanked them for their concern and let them know i'd take their concerns to heart and changed the subject
I was commited to keeping my dignity since my soon to be ex was telling people horrific lies about me I did not return insult with insult but let the gossip go and left my complaints to my Pastor and my Best friend of 30 plus years.
And I prayed like crazy for peace and clarity in what was really bugging me the most when I was angry and asked God to show me a constructive way to let it go.
Again these are not the same situation you are on but that is what I did.Its been 12 years so I cannot recall all of it. I am getting to be an
old fart now haha.
Take care and take some time to get away and do something fun for yourself like artistic or something. Don't give up

Jill~

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Sep 21, 2009 4:04 pm

Dear lostgirl,
You have been given some excellent advice!!! I also suggest that you begin journalizing!!!

You need to figure out who/what that who are soooo angry at/about!!!

I suggest that you begin keeping a journal and just do a little free flow writing!!! Just write whatever pops into your mind!!! Do not concern yourself with how neat it is, since, you are getting your feelings out on paper!!!

Please begin working on getting that anger and try to get it under control, since, anger sows weed seeds in every part of our bodies and is not healthy for you or anyone else!!!

Feel free to read throughout my postings, which, I reposted tonight to help others who are suffering in this manner!!!

We must take action to overcome these things lostgirl!!! These things will not just leave on their own!!!

You can do it!!! I know you can!!! I am rooting for you 100%!!!

You are much stronger than you give yourself credit for!!!

God Bless You lostgirl!!! Have a great night's rest!!!