how do I forgive myself?

Big Reader · Post by **Big Reader** » Fri Sep 04, 2009 3:07 am

I'm in week 9 of the course and it has helped me very much. Then Wed. my old thought patterns and behaviors returned and I embarassed myself in front of my department members at work. I know depression is "anger turned inward", and I am so angry at myself right now that I'm afraid I'll sink into a depression I'll never get out of. Anyone have any similar experiences with a good outcome they'd like to share? Thanks

crnlillie · Post by **crnlillie** » Fri Sep 04, 2009 7:28 am

I fight with it everyday...I finished in 2007..and I'm starting all over again, because once I feel I have contol of it and it goes away it comes back..so I get my tapes out and sometimes it makes me feel better...I know what I have itsn't going to hurt me but, it just frustrating cause it feel like its not going away. U r not alone in this.. Just the other day at work I had an panic attack.. I was embarassed too..I work in a hospital..I take care of people, and to have it in front of them and co-workers is like a horrible feeling..

Liz* · Post by Liz* » Fri Sep 04, 2009 2:21 pm

HI,
IF EITHER OF YOU NEED ANY EXTRA HELP WITH THOSE PANIC ATTACKS, THEN, I SUGGEST YOU READ MY POSTING UNDER THE "GENERAL COMMENTS" SECTION OF THIS FORUM!!!

THIS EXTRA WOULD BE BENEFICIAL FOR ANYONE!!! GOD BLESS BOTH OF YOU IS MY PRAYER!!!

aunavoz · Post by **aunavoz** » Sun Sep 06, 2009 4:06 am

I just wanted to let everyone in here who suffers from anxiety and depression know that you can overcome anything you set your mind to. I used to suffer from anxiety and I have been cured from it 6 years now, yes there will be times when you will have some growth spurts and you will get scared and think oh no not again but I say do not fight the feeling it will only make things worse accept it and tell yourself I am not afraid and it will pass. I know from my experience that the reason I was getting so much anxiety was because I was either angry all the time or worrying about things out of my control. This causes you to think negative and then you become afraid of life. Now your adrenalin is pumping and your hands are getting sweaty and your mind is running wild with all these scary thoughts and now your thinking oh man am I going crazy but your not. It's called your nerves being put through a lot of stress. This is when you learn to try and relax and accept the feelings and say it will pass and I am not going to be afraid anymore. You have no control over me. I also started working out, walking everyday during my lunch time at work and eating good nutritional foods and looking at life in a positive way. Not seeing the bad things but seeing that there a lot of beautiful things we have to offer others and know that you are loved and especially the most important that You Love Yourself no matter what. All of these symptoms were caused by my nerves being on edge all the time once I learned to teach my nerves to relax again I was able to also. That's all it is NERVES. Put them to rest so your mind can too....