I have been SCARED, PANICKY- like my chest is going to implode, my energy level is shot, my digestive is knotted with fear, my eyes feel sunken and are circled darkly, apparently I can't keep this fearful look off my face- this look that accompanies this pit of a feeling in my stomach- INSECURITY.
Some may be thinking: well- do you really want this job then?
And I have to answers to that:
YES if I can overcome this experience
NO if this sensation is never gonna go away until I literally have a heart attack...
Now I am also haunted by the idea that I could suddenly feel like this again at any moment- panic-stricken and frozen with fear!
It's embarassing, but it also makes me feel inferior...
OFCOURSE: anyone who has ever started a new job can attest to the stresses and anxiety a new job comes with, no matter how small the job.
Well, this job is known for high-burnout rates, but is a highly rewarding job. I am starting at this company which provides community rehabilitation and reintegration services to wonderful (but often difficult) people who deal with Mental Health or MR challenges. I am going to school for this too...
Long story summed up- I started studying Mental Health and pursuing a degree in it because I struggle with depression and anxiety on an ongoing basis, and I have known many great people in my life time who struggle with similar difficulties: if not everyone does.
After a lull in my work history I decided to finally pursue this area in my career, knowing it is challenging.
Well, here I am with very little supports- my family is pretty well burnt and stressed right now anyway, so I am feeling alone, but further- my anxiety has gone THROUGH THE ROOF!
I have been experiencing breakouts like I've never seen- my face is so bad. But that is certainly not the worst of it. I am experiencing such a lapse in confidence and feeling really insecure about whether or not I can handle this job- the reason being my anxiety and depression. ON THE OTHER HAND: the reason I really want to stick with it is exactly those two things: anxiety and depression.
I see this as a perfect opportunity to overcome those, but I also feel like I am on the rickety-edge of a slippery slope!!!!
HELP! I don't want to fall off into the deep end, but I feel like all the world is working against me!!!
I am owning up to my fear, now if only I could get it under control!!!
New Job... Enormous Anxiety
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ownup2it,
Sounds like you could use a little help. First of all, it's not about the job, it's about what's going on inside you. That is, your scary thoughts are causing this condition.
Here are some things that will help; cut out as much caffene and sugar as possible. Both fuel anxiety. Then, make sure you get plenty of regular (daily) exercise. Expending physical energy disolves anxiety.
Eat healthy foods like fruit and veggies while avoiding hard to digest foods like meat/fat & dairy.
I'd also recommend you speak to a counsler just to help you 'talk it out' so you can remain calm.
You are going to be fine, just focus on the positive and work constantly on keeping a positive atitude.
God Bless and peace be with you.
Sounds like you could use a little help. First of all, it's not about the job, it's about what's going on inside you. That is, your scary thoughts are causing this condition.
Here are some things that will help; cut out as much caffene and sugar as possible. Both fuel anxiety. Then, make sure you get plenty of regular (daily) exercise. Expending physical energy disolves anxiety.
Eat healthy foods like fruit and veggies while avoiding hard to digest foods like meat/fat & dairy.
I'd also recommend you speak to a counsler just to help you 'talk it out' so you can remain calm.
You are going to be fine, just focus on the positive and work constantly on keeping a positive atitude.
God Bless and peace be with you.