Disturbing sexual thoughts

crazy cakes · Post by **crazy cakes** » Fri Jul 24, 2009 9:35 am

Hello All,

I haven't been on her for quite a long time now as my thoughts had really subsided. My little girl is now 2 and i have now been on prozac for 2 yrs. I hadn't had a thought of distressing image for around 4 months. Then i had to take my daughter to the toilet the other day and i had a thought whilst she was sitting on the toilet. For some reason i really can't shake this thought off and it keeps going around in my head. I know how to deal with the thoughts i have tackled them before but for some reason this thought has sort of made me take a step back. the same questions are spinning round in my head me doubting myself if i am a sick person and if anything did happen. I really don't want to go down on a downward spiral. I look at my daughter and i love her so much it just doesn't make sense why i would think such disgusting things about her. I hope this doesn't sound stupid but this thought happened a week ago and its still racking my brain. I keep looking at my daughter thinking wouldn't never hurt her but then i always worry what if i lose control and i'm the only one who knows whats happened but then i never feel 100% sure please help

Happy319 · Post by **Happy319** » Fri Jul 24, 2009 3:53 pm

Sexual thoughts about who?

Nanaof4 · Post by **Nanaof4** » Sat Jul 25, 2009 1:48 am

I think he means his daughter. If you are having these kinds of thoughts you should seek out professional help. Even if they are stress induced there is an underlying cause for them.

fredcz · Post by **fredcz** » Sat Jul 25, 2009 2:29 am

Dear Crazy Cakes,

You have these thoghts because you have OCD!I do not thnk you have anything to worry about. The content of your thoughts is repulsive to you. You won'tdo it. Not for love nor $. Try to be at peace.

Nanaof4 · Post by **Nanaof4** » Sat Jul 25, 2009 6:06 am

Perhaps it is just OCD but since you do love your baby so much talking to someone from the mental health care proffesion would bring you peace of mind. Maybe even a counselor from this website would be helpful.

crazy cakes · Post by **crazy cakes** » Sat Jul 25, 2009 10:40 am

thanks for your replies i am the little girls mother sorry i didn't make it clear. But yes i have been diagnosed with OCD and i've had this all my life i was just after some reassurance thats all. I have seen a pysiotherpist and i had felt better but was just worried incase i was having a relapse i'm not a monster wouldn't want anyone to think that

seadog · Post by **seadog** » Sat Jul 25, 2009 1:30 pm

Hi Crazy Cakes, I'm Seadog and I know what you’re talking about. Our minds are Thinking Machines and that is what they do, they think! And often the Thoughts are not True!!! We must not let these thoughts overwhelm us. We need to put these thoughts in the Past and find better things to occupy our minds and time! Use every moment to better your life and that of your child! Keep moving forward and don't allow your mind to dwell on the Past. Keep working the program and figure out how you can help others by helping Yourself!
I’m with you, Seadog...

Shifrah · Post by **Shifrah** » Wed Jul 29, 2009 5:41 pm

It's good that you are recognizing these thoughts and doing something about them.

What happens to a lot of parents is they distance themselves from their children because of those thoughts and the children end up with issues wondering why they were never close with their parent.

Just knowing that you are sickened by the thoughts should tell you that you will never act on them. You are scared of the thoughts. The ones who entertain those thoughts are the ones society worries about.

You are okay, but you do need to work on getting through them. Are you not spending enough time with your child? This might be it. If it makes you more comfortable spend more time with her in public and around people.

Also don't be afraid to seek counsel for this, professional counselors know how to deal with this all the time.

lovebug · Post by **lovebug** » Thu Jul 30, 2009 6:51 am

Hi Crazy Cakes:

Wow, you must be a really smart, creative person. I also have a daughter that just turned two and I have been experiencing scary thoughts ever since she was 6 months old or so. I have not yet conquered them and they are a daily battle. I know your thoughts feel so real, but try your hardest not to "trust" them (one of my major problems). I get so twisted that I convince myself that if I have these thoughts, they must be true. I just remind myself of earlier times in my life that I didn't have these thoughts and that seems to bring me peace. I would be very interested in hearing how you conquered the thoughts before and what seems to trigger them for you. Just know that you are not alone and definitely not "crazy cakes"! We just seem to have a very creative imagination and that's all. Much luck and take care, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

-Lovebug

Charlie Brown · Post by **Charlie Brown** » Thu Jul 30, 2009 7:52 am

Here is an excellent link on sexual obsessions for OCD sufferers.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sexual_obsessions