Sick and tired of this

Kodiak44 · Post by **Kodiak44** » Wed Jul 15, 2009 7:53 am

I am so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. It seems like it's one thing after another. My mind is going non stop, worrying about having this or that and trying to get my mind to move on from the negative thoughts. I'll have a symptom that hangs around for a while then gone for a bit and then back again. Do I have something seriously wrong with me or is it the stress and anxiety that's doing this to me??? It's so hard to enjoy the simpliest things without a negative thought showing up. I have fun playing with my kids and then the next thing I know I'm worried that I'll die before they grow up. Crazy, Crazy, Crazy!!! It's gotta stop at some point, right? I've gotten through part of the program, but have a hard time sticking to it. I work 10-11 hours a day and want to enjoy my family and other activities and have a hard time finding the time for other things(the program, exercise, alone time, etc...). I've always been a worry wort, but the stress and anxiety started about 2 or so years ago. I'm on meds for high blood pressure and anxiety, plus I take vitamins and have cut back on caffeine, alcohol and as much bad food as possible without ruining everything I did before. I'm just sick and tired of all of this and wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Thankfully my wife and young kids try and understand what I'm going through, but it's not fair to them to suffer with me. Not sure what I'm looking for other than a cure to this (not sure what to call this).

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jul 15, 2009 12:17 pm

Kodiak44 hang in there! I can completely relate to what you are going through! I have a very hard time finding time for the program with a 1 yr old at home but it IS what works! Its the answer! I began the program and got about half way through maybe a little more and I quit cuz I felt so much better. I should have finished it so I am at it the second time around. (or trying) but the skills I have learned from even getting half way have helped me so much. I understand where you are coming from when you say you can be playing with the kids and then think about dying! I do it! I can look at my son and then imagine him and his dad living without me and I get terrifed! Like what if I did die and couldn't be here to watch my son grow up! Just know that this will all go away with the use of the program! TRY to find that impossible time to use it, that is what I am doing. Good luck and if you need anything you can always message me!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Jul 18, 2009 4:13 am

Thanks Ethans Mommy! I know it's mostly in my head and I need to clear that junk out of there. I hope to get back on track with the program and my life. Way too much more life to live. Thanks again.