What is the use of posting this?

xlostgirlx · Post by **xlostgirlx** » Wed Jul 01, 2009 8:54 pm

I am .. at the point where i am trapt and i'm scared that nothing can help me. I have had Depression, Panic attacks, Anxiety, Self Hatred, and Anger. All of it.. since 06 when the Panic started. Eversince then it has been a long story of pain that i have been typing over and over and over to people who cannot help me. I don't want to be on medication. But,.. I don't see any hope left in me.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jul 02, 2009 3:19 am

It helps to write your feelings out.Either here or in a personal journal. My words cannot make you better.....they CAN let you know that your aren't alone. I been where you are....I am back at a crossroads also. i am trying to keep an open mind and keep telling muself positive things instead of allowing my mind to keep rewinding through the past. No one can tell you to take or not take medication...but I raelly would like you to atleast talk to a therapist and get a professional prospective. Things can and will get better....you, just like me, have to be willing to go through it to get to the other side. Please don't give up on yourself...there is always hope and that takes courage...which I know you have.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Jul 05, 2009 12:40 pm

I don't see any hope left in me.

You do see hope in you, otherwise you wouldn't be searching on this site. You are here, aren't you? That is saying that you have hope for yourself. Don't give up.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jul 06, 2009 4:29 am

Hi, XlostgirlX I've had the problem of anxiety and panic attacks since I was as young as a child and did fairly well after I left home, but it eventually came back at me because I wasn't in touch with the triggers and how it first developed. When I saw you said you've had it since '06 I immediately thought you've got a GREAT chance to get through this. I felt like nothing anybody said to me ever helped and just started to accept the fact in my mind that "well I just have to accept that no one will ever really understand me anyway so it left me in despair. I agree with Silvana66 that it WILL get better. One great thing about life is it ALWAYS changes and never stays the same. You may really surprise yourself and be able to do something to help others who felt exactly this way.. I know right now nothing anyone says really takes the pain away because it was that way for me.

I was wondering have you talked to a therapist about whether anxiety started first and gave you depression or was it the other way around. Either way, you have to attack the roots of what caused it..maybe something in the past? And if the anxiety caused depression, once you conquer the anxiety the depression should fade. It works for me to carry a note pad and write the negative unrealistic/perfectionistic critical internal dialogue, and start being my own best friend like I would treat other people kind..
Try to be good to yourself like you would others and give yourself a break and credit for being here and doing this.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Aug 01, 2009 1:19 am

Yes i have talked to a therapist. She helps me out alot though sometimes its hard to actually find out what is bothering me when EVERYTHING does and i am trying to get over those traumas. Basically everything oi said about above is true.