Well, I am currently on medication but am trying to wean myself off of my antidepressant. I'm was on Cymbalta 60mg and am now to 30mg and planning to continue weaning myself down til I quit altogether. I'm also taking Buspar 10mg twice a day if needed for my panic attacks and anxiety.
I'm having horrible withdrawls from the antidepressant, and all of this i'm going through has really brought me lower than low. I'm terribly unmotivated and feel as though there's no return from this.
I've been suffering from depression for 7 years, and anxiety/panic for 3 years.
I've lost friends due to not wanting to be sociable and being scared of social events and even just leaving the house. I cry constantly because of having no friends, but I know it's my fault, or shall I say the anxiety.
I ache all over and I just feel alot older than I am. I worry constantly about even the littlest things and I always think something new is wrong with me. I suffer from migrains and insomnia, and have no energy hardly whatsoever. My sexy drive is minimum to none and I just don't know what to do anymore.
I'm not living how I want, I'm barely living my life at all!
I wanna go to school and finish college and do something with myself but I just can't find the motivation and I just DON'T FEEL GOOD!
I'm scared to drive alone, be alone, get up and do normal activities, excersise, just about anything... I'm at my wits ends..
I desperately want to try the program but I have no money and honestly don't know if I should believe that it might work for me. I want to be optomistic and try, but once again I don't have the financial means to do so. So what now?
I don't know what to do. I need help.