Help please

kelly stewart · Post by **kelly stewart** » Sun Mar 15, 2009 9:49 pm

I have so many things that I need to change in my life-addictions, behaviors, thinking patterns,,,,etc. that I don't know where to start!! I am so frustrated at myself because I keep making the same mistakes over and over and over and I keep telling myself, "Well, I won't do that tomorrow"-but I keep doing self-destructive things!!! Why??? Can anyone relate to this never-ending cycle of self-destruction???? My guilt is almost unbearable!! I can't keep living my life like this!!!

E-Lo · Post by **E-Lo** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 3:09 am

Follow the program and you will be just fine... You will understand why you are thinking and doing the things you are and you will learn how to control the situation and urself... It won't happen overnight but it will happen... Rememeber it took us a long time to become like this so its going to take a little while for us to be back to normal... but we will.... We all will... and thats something great to look forward to... It's a process but think of the benefits in the end... Ahhhhh...

Hally · Post by **Hally** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 3:31 am

Hi Kelly, This is Hally. I've PM'd you. I'm bipolar too. We can talk about all of this.
Hugs,
Hally

Gman5256 · Post by **Gman5256** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 3:37 am

Hi Kelly,

I guess I am following you around. I have been where you are. First it is good that you recognize that what you have been doing over and over keeps giving you poor results and you are looking for answers.

Your first step was the recognition that there is a problem, and the second positive step you made was getting into this forum where you have many people that have been where you are. That are here to incline their ear, listen and support and encourage you.

Next, thing we need to know, is if you are working with a medical professional, hopeful a therapist or councilor. If not that might be a good step. If not and cannot afford one, have you discussed this with someone in the clergy that could give you some guidance.

Perhaps you are lost and confused, and are coming to the realization that there is something much bigger and greater that is standing, willing and waiting for you to call for His help.

Next, remember that you are in control of your own thoughts, and thoughts can not hurt you, it is the urges that you may or may not get to act on the urges that you have to be more concerned about.

I had invited you to contact me, and I encouraged you to think that I would be available to help in whatever way I could; however, you probably just don't believe it or don't want my help.

I can't get into your mind with out knowing more about your situation and if you have biases about talking to me about it perhaps you can find someone else that will make themselves available to help. There are a lot of people here, that may do just that. Whatever you decide to do, do not give up.

If you don't have a therapist and can't bring yourself to open yourself up to be helped, I might suggest that you try a local help line or perhaps you might get some help and comfort by calling this number: 1-800-525-LOVE

I am still here at the ready to help you renew your mind, when you are ready.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 4:01 am

Dearest Kelly,
I suggest you take one step at a time....Try not to overwhelm yourself with doing so many things at once...Make sure to do your positive self talk, and do the program...If you need spiritual guidance in your life, then, I strongly advise that you seek Jesus...As far as the guilt thing...Say guilt trip, I refuse to buy the ticket...Remember to begin comforting that inner child...Place a rubber band on your wrist and snap to catch those negative thoughts and replace them with more positive ones....Do really nice things for yourself...Try your best to become the positive human being that God intended for you to be...Let Go and Let God is my motto....If you need any further help...know that I will always be here for you...You will succeed...It just takes a little work...
God Bless...

Mary Wargo · Post by **Mary Wargo** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 4:06 am

I would recommend working on one thing at a time-otherwise it gets overwhelming and frustrating trying to change several things all at once. Start with something that may be the easiest habit to break, use a daily goal journal like the program suggests. Write down one habit you would like to change and figure out the steps you need to accomplish this in a goal journal for each day. Once you start seeing progress, no matter how small it will help you get motivated and increase your self confidence to go on to other ones.

kelly stewart · Post by **kelly stewart** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 5:24 pm

Thank you all so much for replying to my posting. I was really having a rotten night lastnight and felt I would go crazy if I didn't let it out. I can't talk to my husband about any of this because he has told me he's ready to throw in the towel after 17 years and I don't want that to happen. He thinks I am all better now, because I am "acting" better, but inside of me I feel there is a raging battle going on. Thank God for this website and for supportive people like you all. I used to be so positive, outgoing, and had many friends before I found out I had bipolar-now I tend to isolate, I have no real "good" friends, and now I no longer have my husband to talk to. I get very lonely sometimes! Sometimes all I can do is say "PLEASE HELP ME GOD!" I hope this program will work for me-tonight I start on cd 2 and I'm looking forward to it. Without the support on here-I really don't know what I'd do. Blessings to you all, Kelly

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 16, 2009 6:02 pm

Dear Kelly..
I can remember a time when I had the same concerns about my husband. I know that he was getting fed up with my depression, panic attacks, and agoraphobia...He especially hated it when I had to take a nap...He would become so frustrated, and that made it even harder for me...
I needed his support, not his criticism and anger..Now, that I look back, he probably just got angry out of concern...He didn't understand my condition, and he felt helpless...I can remember me "acting better" also...This all brings back memories...I totally sympathize with you...Doing the program was the best thing that I could have done for myself...So...Keep up the good work...God Bless...

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Mar 18, 2009 6:52 pm

Kelly..I just got on the computer and was reading the post, and was just wandering how things are going, since, I haven't heard from you in a while...I pray that you are feeling much better, and that things are less stressful at home...
I will keep you in my prayers...God Bless...

Gman5256 · Post by **Gman5256** » Wed Mar 18, 2009 9:07 pm

Hi Ms T,

I just saw your posting, and I can tell you that Kelly has been in contact with me. If he is doing what I suggested He is in a very good place. Try to think of it as his stop over in Antioch, and the Lord is ministering to him.

Please see at verses 25-30:

http://www.holybible.com/resou...itle=Acts&Chapter=11

I am not sure about this, because i left in God's hands, and just patiently waiting and being still, with great anticipatory Expectations, to get that good report to hit us all as a huge suddenly

I hope you understand and this gives you a sense of peace.