Just got home from ER

SeeBee · Post by **SeeBee** » Mon Mar 09, 2009 7:40 am

So, for three days, I have had the chest pain, palpitations, electric shocks going thru my body... woke up at 4am this morning to my heart fluttering and thumping... about 10am, I decided it was time to go to the ER...
EKG, being on the monitor for 2 hours, blood work, and chest x-ray... all is normal, thank God. Why is it WE JUST CANNOT BELIEVE WHAT THE DOCS TELL US? I am so sick and tired of the anxiety and panic, sometimes I just want to call it quits. I am an RN and should realize, but I just cannot accept the fact THAT NOTHING IS WRONG WITH ME! THIS SUCKS!

Hoping you are all having a better day than I.

Unicorn1524 · Post by **Unicorn1524** » Mon Mar 09, 2009 8:58 am

The fact that you received a clean bill of health doesn't suck. The fact that you don't trust yourself is what sucks ! I can only imagine that being an RN means that you know more symptoms and what COULD be wrong than many of us. Learn to trust yourself and take it all one day at a time. Relax .......

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 09, 2009 9:22 am

Hi SeeBee,

Sorry that that happened, and I'm glad you are O.K. Are you doing this program? There are a lot of causes for anxiety, but I have found that usually anxiety and a fixation on physical problems for myself is usually a distraction from something emotional that I need to deal with or am having trouble facing, etc.

For example, my son has severe autism, and after he was diagnosed, I kept thinking that something was wrong with my heart. Now, I can clearly see that it was my "emotional" heart that was really broken. However, there was this part of me that would have rather had something wrong with me than to face the fact that my son had an incurable brain disorder. I've just
found similar examples of that so many times in my life.

When I take care of myself properly with exercise, sleep, etc., and when I learn how to deal with my emotions healthily, I have less of a need to fixate on possible health problems. This program really will help with that.

I know it doesn't seem possible right now, but with the right help, there will be a time when you will fixate much less on your symptoms, when your panic symptoms will disappear and you won't have to wonder about whether it's a heart problem or not, etc. It can and will happen. It's hard to know that right after a setback, but you can be cured, and life can be very different:).

I agree with ManofMusic about trusting yourself, but the truth of the matter is that trust is a complicated issue. It depends on your experiences, what you've been through in life with yourself and other people, etc. I've seen that a main key to my healing is trusting God and myself, but I found that God worked with me very gently and slowly in that area.

Take care,
luvpiggy

rose_thorn98 · Post by **rose_thorn98** » Mon Mar 09, 2009 10:42 am

Originally posted by manofmusic:
The fact that you received a clean bill of health doesn't suck. The fact that you don't trust yourself is what sucks ! I can only imagine that being an RN means that you know more symptoms and what COULD be wrong than many of us. Learn to trust yourself and take it all one day at a time. Relax .......

Sorry if I came across wrong! I AM HAPPY nothing is wrong! What I meant was, IT SUCKS that we don't always trust what the doctor's tell us. I know I am not the only one, as I read it all of the time. I just WISH I COULD TRUST THE FINE PHYSICIANS and put my medical knowledge on the side burner.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Mar 09, 2009 10:45 am

Thank you, luvpiggy! Very wise words, and I am trying very hard to live the program. Yes, I do have some pressing personal issues, and you are probably correct. As my therapist says, "we neglect problem solving by creating more problems for ourselves." And yes, I do have 23 years of medical knowledge, and I always take my personal issues out on my own health.

I long for the day that I can say to these feelings, "you're not going to get me today, or EVER AGAIN!"

Thanks for your luving words... greatly appreciated, and best of luck in your situation.

h.beth · Post by **h.beth** » Mon Mar 09, 2009 10:50 am

i kinda wish i was you and had everything checked out. when i do that and everything is fine i always feel so much better. you should say that to your self now that you are fine youve been checked out.

God Bless