NEED SOME HELP!!!!

[Manley]

hey guys i am doing better but today is a one off. but everyday if feels like im constantly battling my own thoughts on a daily basis its almost like im worrying about worrying and always monitoring my thoughts. then when i chase down the thought i get even more scared and ask myself why did i think that. i get so obsessed and always have to research my symptom on the internet, for example last week i thought i had bipolar, now this week its hypertension, and today was psychosis. can anyone relate. if so plz respond. anyways its brings me back to why im asking for help. today i was checking my blood pressure sitting their in the chair obsessing in my own mind where everything around me didn't seem real almost dream like. i got even more obsessed asking myself whats this new sensation im experiencing and got really scared, i know that's called derealization or depersonalization but this was way out of bounds for me where i felt separate from my body and thoughts. i thought i was going crazy and was soooooo convinced i was and at any point i was going to start to see things or hear things and got more scared and thats when i looked up this thing on the internet about this really nice family guy killing his whole family and really wanted to know why he did and eventually found out he was mentally sick cuz he was hearing voices, so immidiately i thought i was going to do the same and this feeling of panic was so strong where i had to run, my body didn't panic tho it was my mind? is that weird? anyways my wife took me to the emergency room where they have mental health nurses. so i told them right away i think im loosing my mind cuz if this one guy can kill his family just like that then what makes me any different. i was so scared. now im home here asking for help. guys whats going on with me? does this sound like anxiety? and through the week im great where i have my anxiety at a manageable level. is this a bad day? i don't know i just feel more scared than ever that maybe im loosing my mind or a grip of reality. cuz i don't feel like me and my mind is always spinning. and i'm just being open about this it sounds bad when reading but i think its just the honest way of getting help

[Guest]

Sounds to me like you have anxiety...I think that all of us, or most of us get some crazy thoughts race through our heads and it scares us! You went and spoke with nurses? And they said?? Sometimes we have some thoughts that are just not like us, I know I do at times...and I talk to my husband about them and he helps me to realize that it is anxiety playing that little game of 'Try and get Jeannie into a panic attack'..
..my only advice...Stop self-diagnosing yourself online! THAT has got to be the worse thing for someone who suffers from anxiety. Do not allow yourself to do that. If you have a problem, go to a doctor. Most of my panic attacks were from self-diagnosing myself online and I have since realized that if I am going to get myself better, I cannot do that.
Enjoy your family, enjoy your life and remember to live in the 'now'..for 'what if' is not the reality of here and now!
Sending you wishes for a wonderful day!