numb????

DMP720 · Post by **DMP720** » Wed Feb 18, 2009 2:17 am

Does anyone ever feel like emotionally numb?? Ive had a few really stressful few weeks.
I lost a job...got a new one....planning a huge wedding...etc..

Well last week..I just said forget everything..and started venturing out on my own..I went EVERYWHERE...I drove far..I went into stores..I was doing everything. I was just so sick and tired of feeling like this...and putting myself through feeling miserable...and these negative feelings!! I literaly looked in the mirror and said...well "forget" this!!!!!

I stayed all day everyday at my new job..i pushed myself to walk around my new jobs building(which is really really big).

Well this week..i feel REALLY really numb. (im not on medication so thats not it)
I dont want ot laugh...I dont want to cry..I just feel BLAH. I didnt even want to have sex with my fiance..I was just like...ehh no thanks. I use to be able to cry at the drop of a hat...like with ANYTHING lol

Has anyone else ever experience this? Is this part of the healing process?? Am I really starting to finally be emotioanlly stable?lol
Or am I reading into this??

Thanks everyone for listening!!@

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Feb 18, 2009 4:15 am

Sounds to me like you are making BIG progress!! The numbness is probably from just being so focused on being stable in your own shoes! Good for you to be able to go and do all of that! GOOD for you! That in itself is a BIG step..one that many cannot do. Keep it up...sounds to me like you are well on your way!!

tisha · Post by **tisha** » Wed Feb 18, 2009 4:19 am

Oh yes I feel like that everytime my period rolls around. It will pass just dont focus on it. That is really awesome progress you made giving the anxiety the middle finger. Sometimes the frustration leads you to do that

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Feb 18, 2009 5:17 am

Thanks guys!!
Yeah I have been really really pushing myself.
Its real hard some days but I know I NEED to do it for my own sanity
I honestly think it was my therapist telling me a few weeks ago..that her words are just repetative and she can no longer help me I can only help myself.
It was ahuge slap in the face..that I NEEDED..