Struggling

Angel79 · Post by **Angel79** » Wed Jan 14, 2009 12:03 pm

I don't know what is wrong today but I'm stuggling terribly with the 6 steps and negative talk turning to positive. I've been doing everything..journaling,keeping track of negative thoughts and rewriting them into positive ones, exercising, cutting out the caffeine, watching the tapes, relaxation. I am so frustrated I'm battling tears. I felt so empowers a few days ago and now i can't get beyond the negative self talk that I'm anxiety prone again. I feel edgy, the rush is surging through my body and I'm trying to work with it. This disorder is so upsetting.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jan 14, 2009 1:19 pm

Angel, You need to take a deep breath and remember that what you are freakin out about is exactly what you need to get ahold of. If you feel like you are flipping put in the relaxation session and relax. This is a very hard part of any program. Getting all the negatives out of your head and replacing them with the love for yourself and keep reminding yourself that you are a very special person and you are worth evry minute that is applied. God speed.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jan 14, 2009 1:37 pm

Hi Angel,

I could not have said what you said any better. I am in session two and yesterday and today I am struggling. I was able to get it together last night by listening to the relaxation. Before I did that, I was about to drive myself to the ER so they could tell me I had anxiety. Tonight, I am going to make a written list of all the positive things I need to say to myself to combat the negative and carry it around every day. Then I am going to take a bath and put my relaxation cd on. If that doesn't work then I don't know what else will.

Mom of 6 · Post by **Mom of 6** » Wed Jan 14, 2009 3:36 pm

It sounds like you all are doing all the things you should be doing. Try to look at the good, at least your trying something healthier. It didn't take 2 weeks to get this way so there is going to be some set backs. I'm on session 3 and I too have struggled the last couple of days. I've read where several start struggling now and I believe it's even mentioned on the tape. WE GOTTA KEEP PUSHIN' ON

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jan 14, 2009 3:59 pm

If I may say so you guys sound like you are on the right road. I just loged on tonight for the first time. What a GREAT thing it was to read your notes. I am on my 3 rd cd and WOW !! I am feeling a little week still somedays.After I read your notes. I began to smile. The next though in my head was. I am not alone.. It is going to be fine.By the way I can not type so as soon as I set down to my pc I began to feel a little nervice.I guess I will have to work on that to..LOL.LOL..Thanks for sharing.

XoXo Lil Nurse..

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 15, 2009 6:22 am

This is one of my most difficult parts of the program. I have always thought of myself as not good enough for good things. The few times that I did have confidence and thought I was in control I was let down by everyone I knew. My husband, other members of my family,and my coworkers. My husband and I separated, my family turned against me, and my coworkers of 12 years agreed that my job needed to be eliminated due to budget cuts. This happened within 2 months! That was almost 2 years ago now. I have healed some but still have a long way to go. I have been trying to talk to myself positively, but sometimes its really hard. All I can say is hang in there and let it become a new habit. It is very difficult but well worth it to be so much happier. After all as Lucinda says "be the one you run to".

Good luck and I'll be praying for you.
Vicky

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 15, 2009 9:32 am

Thanks for all of your support and advice. I will make a list of positive things to say to myself. Today was a much better day. Still some tingly adrenaline surging through the body but nothing I couldn't flow with and be o.k. I am heading toward the relaxation CD soon. It seems to help at night to relax me for sleep.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Jan 28, 2009 10:37 am

Angel I've been going through the same thing--especially this week. I'm not sure if I should do week 3 over again, or move on to week 4. I'm just a wreck this week, I don't know what to do.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 29, 2009 6:16 am

Session three has been very tough for me. I should have started the next one on Tuesday, but just couldn't move on. I tried keeping a notebook of my negative thoughts, but I didn't get a lot of them down. Then two days ago I just boiled over with negative talk to my wife about how I can't do anything. I almost got physically sick and I still haven't recovered. I felt like I should go to the emergency room before I collapse.

And then we have a house guest for several days, and the quiet place I usually listen to the CD's is taken by her, and I have to be on my best behavior acting like I'm feeling good. I feel like my blood pressure is soring. So I should go the the fitness center and have it checked there.

Is it better to move on the the next session even if I feel I've made no progress on this one?

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jan 29, 2009 3:46 pm

Dave, you should do what you feel is right. If you need to stay on the same week, then that is ok. You probably are making progress. I had all these same thoughts over the last three days. I got laid off 4 times in the past year because of the economy. Today I called myself a failure and cried for hours. Reading your post made me feel I was not alone. As far as the physical symptoms, they are only symptoms. They will pass. No need to go to the ER. I used to do that. Paying all those bills sucked! Take a deep breath, listen to the relaxation cd, or take a bath (kind of girlie but helpful). I hope this was a little helpful.
Heather