A phone call from God...why don't things ever change?

Glowbug57 · Post by **Glowbug57** » Sun Jan 18, 2009 3:19 pm

I contribute to a certain charity and they ask what you would like them to pray for you. One of my biggest struggles is suffering from lonliness and isolation. I am married and have children, but sometimes my husband is quiet and withdrawn and I feel alone. We have no family close or friends. I have tried joining women's groups (very cliquey), volunteering and even visiting a shut-in. My whole married life, nothing has changed.

One day the phone wrang. It was a kind, sweet man with a Jamaican accent. He had read my prayer request and called me. He had told me that God knows my lonliness and that He is with me. I'll never forget that call. I even wrote it down on my calendar. I know it was God speaking through that blessed man. I always have known that God is with me, but what's hard is I have been praying, praying and praying and nothing has ever changed for me.

I watch life pass me by as I see familys and friends getting together, laughing and enjoying being with each other. I always wonder what it would be like to have a sister or friend to talk to about life's struggles, someone to be their for me. I have gone through so much in my life. I know God can change things in the blink of an eye, but it's getting hard to hang in there. I'm growing weary and my depression has robbed me of many days and held me down when I need to get out in the world to break away from this isolation.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 8:20 am

Hey Glowbug57,
I wanted to ask you a very, very, important question. Do you have the program?? I really hope that you do. You know the program has helped me more than I could have ever imagined. I still go back to it when I'm going thru something that I feel like I need help with.
I can relate to you about the depression. It's sooo hard! I hate depression! I wish I could take it away from me and you and everyone who suffers with it. I think for me isolating myself makes it worse. It feels good at the time but it can actually make you feel even worse. I hope you have the program. It can help with giving you suggestions on things to do(for the depression). I don't know if that helped any at all but I just wanted you to know that someone cares because I have felt the way you have. Our lives may be different...our circumstances may be different but depression has no age limit, no gender, no race. It shows no compasssion on any of us. But you can beat it. Right now I'm having to fight it on a daily basis. I'm just thankful that I have the tools to fight it.
It sounds like you know what you need to do. You just need the skills/tools to help you pave the way.
Take care and God bless

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 11:23 am

Karen, thank you so much for caring, it really helps. I got the program about 8 or more years ago. I don't know how different the recent program would be, but you know I can go through the program, read all kind of self-help books and yeah while I'm hearing or reading about changing our way of thinking, it's all good. Then when I'm done with the program or book, I can't retain any of the tools I learned and I slip back into my old ways. Sometimes I think we need a recorder in our minds so we can replay what we need to help ourselves. It just never sinks into my subconscious where I can call on it if I need to.

My situation doesn't help either. I think a big part of my depression is because after all these years of praying, volunteering and trying different things, nothing has changed for me.

crowpainter · Post by **crowpainter** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 11:44 am

Advocate Hi I am new to this. I am working on helping my 16 year old son. I can relate to you the way you say you pray and nothing seems to change. I feel this way alot, but I realized that there are angels out there that do help. Sometimes by just offering a smile or giving advice. Its tuff but we need to keep on plugging in to God. As the Bible says " He will not forsake me" Sometimes it is just hard to think there will be change, but you need to stay strong and it will happen. I have been praying for my son for many years, sometimes it feels useless, but my love for him keeps me connected. Hang in there. God loves you....

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 12:14 pm

GOD LED YOU HERE TO MAKE FRIENDS AND GET WELL. EVERYONE THINKS THAT IF GOD DOES NOT SUPERNATURALLY HEAL THEM THAT IS HIS WAY OF SAYING NO. READ GALATIONS 6:9. DO NOT GROW WEARY OF DOING GOOD FOR AT THE PROPER TIME YOU WILL REAP A REWARD IF YOU DO NOT GIVE UP.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 12:22 pm

Originally posted by advocate:
Advocate Hi I am new to this. I am working on helping my 16 year old son. I can relate to you the way you say you pray and nothing seems to change. I feel this way alot, but I realized that there are angels out there that do help. Sometimes by just offering a smile or giving advice. Its tuff but we need to keep on plugging in to God. As the Bible says " He will not forsake me" Sometimes it is just hard to think there will be change, but you need to stay strong and it will happen. I have been praying for my son for many years, sometimes it feels useless, but my love for him keeps me connected. Hang in there. God loves you....

Advocate, you may be right. I have come across a few angels in my days. Thank you for reaching out. I hope you find the help you need for your son.

God Bless!

*D* · Post by ***D*** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 12:26 pm

Originally posted by DEB EMENHISER:
GOD LED YOU HERE TO MAKE FRIENDS AND GET WELL. EVERYONE THINKS THAT IF GOD DOES NOT SUPERNATURALLY HEAL THEM THAT IS HIS WAY OF SAYING NO. READ GALATIONS 6:9. DO NOT GROW WEARY OF DOING GOOD FOR AT THE PROPER TIME YOU WILL REAP A REWARD IF YOU DO NOT GIVE UP.

Thank you Deb, the Bible quote helps me put things into perspective. I may be down, but I will never give up!

hopehound · Post by **hopehound** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 12:29 pm

Glowbug I here you. I have isolated many times throughout my life because of my anxiety/depression. I am new at this program and am working on session 1. As with you I have experienced prayers that never seem to come to pass but not all of them. I am a believer and wanted to share that I am also reading a book by Joyce Meyers called battlefield of the mind as well as applying scripture. So much has been revealed the last week. This program is lining up with Joyce's teaching and scripture and has been filling in some spiritual blanks that I was blinded to. We have confidence that God does hear "our" prayers from the heart. We just have to find the escape route by faith. This program may be one of them. We have nothing to lose. I do feel your frustration! Give this thing a shot! I look forward to your posts!

stargazer · Post by **stargazer** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 12:44 pm

MHAZ I HAVE READ THE JOYCE MEYER BOOK BATTLEFIED OF THE MIND SO MANY TIMES I BROKE DOWN THE BACKING. IT IS GOODD!!!

Craw · Post by **Craw** » Mon Jan 19, 2009 1:12 pm

Hey Deb, your from my home town. Actually I lived in New Haven. Nice!