I first went through the program in 2005, at the time I was having a lot of issues, agoraphobia, panic attacks and lots of general anxiety, I think it was all brought on by unemployment and the sitting around the house, depression that it brought, I went through the program, got a job and my life improved 100%.
So in January this year after going back to work after the holidays I was laid of, work closed and all of us made redundant. At the time it was a relief, I really hated my boss, he was such a horrible man and there was so much office politics at play I was glad to get out. I was no sooner made redundant until another firm bought our company, They hired everyone back except me, my boss got demoted and took my job, while I hated the place it was the point of the thing, everyone took back bar me. Its been on my mind 24/7 until I am now at the point once again where I get anxious if I leave the house, I am full of resentment and slowly but surly my anxiety is coming back.
So here I am back on the board, I really need to go through the program again but I don't seem to have the motivation, If anyone else would like to go through it with me and kinda help each other out it would be greatly appreciated, 12 weeks seems like a hell of a long time, I know I did it before but some how it seems easier just to stay stuck than do anything about it.
Old timer back on board
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Iwillbebetter
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Re: Old timer back on board
I could see how that would be bothersome, being the only one not hired back. I am only in session 7 so I'm not sure on the advise to give other than, being stuck where you are is NOT the answer. It may seem easier, but really is it?? I think learning to live free of our thoughts and feelings is worth the work and in the end will turn out to be the "easier" options. Think of how much we actually go threw staying where we are?!?! if we don't do the work, it won't change/go away! Although I am at session 7 I would be happy to help support you along your way!! You are worth the work it takes to be free!!!
"Only rainbows after rain, the sun will always come again, and it's a cirlce, circling around again it comes around again...."
Re: Old timer back on board
I would love to go through the program with a partner!