I " tried " this program like 10 - 15 years ago.I say " tried " because I have ADD and started the program and only went part-way through it ( ADD symptom - starting things and not finishing them
). Anyway, I have had treatment resistant depression and general anxiety disorder all my life especially in social situations.No medication or therapy has ever helped me for any significant length of time.So,it's been trial and error with the meds but really just error. Well,I'm gonna try again.Only this time I'm gonna really commit myself to MAKING it work for me this time.But I know I can't do it by myself.But I believe I am on my own to do whatever I need to do to get better and take my life back.I am depressed and anxious all the time with frequent mood swings.And if there's a moment when I'm not anxious,my mind will,against my best efforts, search for something to feel/be anxious about.I do have some hope in this program.I am trying to believe I can really get to a place where I can actually feel good about myself and feel comfortable around people.Depression has just enveloped me and, coupled with fear and doubt all my life, it's been so hard to accomplish anything or to be consistent with any efforts to make permanent changes in my life.Happiness seems like such a foreign concept to me.I often wonder if life for me will ever be the way it seems to be for other people. Hope somebody can relate and has some helpful feedback.
It can be very hard to find that "balance" I recall especially my 1st time in the program. It seemed in every session after a week I felt I had to move on to the next. After each session I was never "happy" with my progress. I know I had progressed, but it was never as far as I "thought" I should. I'm sure that probably had something to do with me not completing it.... This time I try to not even think about it at all. As far as where I am where I should be etc. If I feel I need to listen to a session a few extra times before I move on, why not? who is it really gonna hurt if I do?