Dear Diary

[Paisleegreen]

Bunny Rabbit-My sister in law is waiting for her father to pass on from ALZ'. He doesn't know anybody...and is quite helpless. Well, pretty much on Hospice right now and the family is worn out. It is very hard on them to see that he is still lingering. P

[Paisleegreen]

J-Glad to hear all the good news! I agree with R, don't let hubby take you away from your dream! P

[bunny rabbit]

Hi Everyone: Thank you for your kind words and tunes. I have just written an article that I am working on for publishing. I have suitcases filled with writing but have never yet been published. I have to get rid of the negative self-talk and what-if thinking and jump in and try. As the program teaches the only failure is in not trying. The article is called "Mining the Gold from Grief" and helps to give a reason for all the emotional pain I went through in the past year. I've also put up an ad in a local store to start a Women's Grief Support Group. I am throwing the idea out there and I'll let you know what happens. Blessings from Bunny

[tina martin]

Hi R, thank you for the trip to the mountains, the snow and pines. Could use some of those temps in the heat. We are sunnier here even with lots of snow.

Soon I'll need that Alzh. info for my own diminishing brain cells. What I try to do is wake some of the slackers who have refused to work in the past. Need all the help I can get now. Am reading a book about the plasticity of the brain.

Hope all is well with you........T

[bunny rabbit]

Well folks, I'm on yet another grief journey. My sister died in March, my father died last month, my son and his family just left for a third world country where they live permanently, I won't see my grandchildren for a year or even more and then the day they were leaving I got word that my best friend in all the world died. I just became numb with all the overwhelming grief of it all. It is too much!!!!

But here I am again writing away and surviving one minute, one hour at a time. I am trying to change my negative self-talk to positive: "Shona is out of her prison of suffering. She is so incredibly happy with her son, her 2 former husbands, her beloved Uncle Mac and so many more. She has a brand new body and healthy mind and memory. She ran the whole race till the amazing age of 88 and made the finish line. We are all going to die. This is life. Death is just a transition from one state to another. It's like coming from the safety of the womb into life and then going back full circle to death and another life beyond this one. It's okay to be sad and grieve. You'll feel better tomorrow and as the days go by." Thanks for reading this. Blessings from Bunny

[manofmusic]

Bunny Rabbit !

Thank you for writing that ! My dad passed away in March and mom was just diagnosed with non-hodgkins lymphoma. Dad was 85 when he passed and mom is 82. The dr said that the lymphoma was in the very first stage. It's in a small area. They are keeping an eye on it. It was such a small area that they didn't bother with radiation yet. She has an appt at the cancer clinic in November. I'm grateful for every day with her. I call her once a day and talk even for a few minutes. She lives alone and she does all of her cooking. She has a housekeeper come in once a week. She also helps bathe her once a week. Mom washes herself every morning in front of the sink, but for a major bath, it's with the helper. You are correct. No one knows when their time is up. We will all meet up again on the other side. I know that dad's looking out for me and mom because there has been way too many coincidences between us as far as thoughts and things go.

It can get too much but just realize that all grief is temporary. Eventually, the memories will turn into happy ones. You will get sad moments, but they will become manageable.

I go for walks every day and I eat right and drink plenty of water. All of that helps me out greatly.

Keep smiling !

[SoWhatif]

Bunny thanks for shareing your load. Thanks for showing and sharing the optimisim that life is so very valuable.
May your days lighten and bring some sunshine for the heart.
R

[bunny rabbit]

Thank you for replying manomusic and R. I appreciate it. Today at church I was praying and crying and saw in my mind so clearly my Dad, my sister and my friend all waving from the other side of a body of water. The next thing I knew all the people were singing the words "And then one day I'll cross the river, I'll fight life's final war with pain; And then as death gives way to vict'ry, I'll see the lights of glory and I'll know He lives..." It was so amazing the comfort and peace that came over me. God is so amazing. I'm so sorry your dad passed away. But may God comfort you too, with His peace, arms of love and a beautiful picture of heaven in your mind. Blessings from Bunny

[Loveslife]

That was a nice visual, Bunny. You sitting in church and seeing your family on the other side of a body of water, and then all of a sudden the church members were singing a hymn involving water. There are no accidents in life. Your family really was there and waving to you.
Nice to meet you, BTW. I'm loves life, or J.
Love,
J.

[Loveslife]

Dear Diary,
It's 3:22AM and I can't sleep. Sigh. I have so much on my mind, plus a snoring husband that I don't dare wake up.

I had an interesting email from Marilyn and it just sort of triggered thoughts way down inside of me. They keep trying to surface and I keep drowning them.

Do I apply for the fantastic position that was posted outside of HR, or do I wait? Jeff says GO FOR IT, and do it tomorrow.
Husband says I'm not qualified.

I am very, very qualified.

I just don't want to let down my supervisor, who spent a lot of time training me. She invested her time, and now I want to already switch to the perfect position that was just posted. I would love this job. It's in development and stewardship of the hospital foundation.

I'm very nervous to apply. Why? Because I would be vulnerable to rejection. OK. That's the worst that could happen.

It's a perfect fit for me.

I wish he would stop snoring. Sigh.

Goodnight diary,
Love,
J.