Dear Diary

[Loveslife]

Dear Diary,
I just completed the hardest work week of my life. Literally. I worked 5 midnight - 8am shifts and 2 day shifts. I am deliriously tired. BUT GUESS WHAT. My boss told me this morning as I was leaving that I did a great job. I told her that I would like to be considered for a part time position if one ever should come my way, as I know I have the least amount of seniority. A part time schedule would give me regular steady hours and a chance at earning benefits, as I am just a per diem now.

I am working my self so hard, because I am so driven, and want to advance. Luckily, I like my supervisor, and she likes me.

Sigh. I did it. I completed the hardest week ever. Now I have 4 days off, and two will be spent resting.

My husband wants me to quit but I want to see where this takes me. And besides, of course I have to prove myself to these women, and I might have to prove myself a little more then the others to show that I'm up for anything...

Wow. I feel elated, but too tired to do anything but sleep.

Hi to all.
Love,
Me.

[Loveslife]

PS to R.
The night shifts ARE sort of healing for me. How did you figure that out? You are just too cool for school. xo

[tina martin]

Dancing a jig, so happy for you. No quitting, of course. No dependency they want and we don't. You will get the part-time job and hours you want. Tell Dr. K, shrinks need job satisfaction too. Also tell To Kill a Mockingbird to let her know how wrong she was. She later made false accusations against me. So, BTW, did Miss Italy.

You've made it J, Love...........T

[Loveslife]

Thank you for your warm words of encouragement, Tina. You have been one of my main motivators, believe it or not.
I feel too ... searching... shy? to tell Dr. K. I don't know why, but I do. As for To Kill a Mockingbird, she still scares me to death and I have absolutely no contact with her. I'm sorry that Miss Italy made false accusations towards you. That disturbs me.
She friended me on Facebook, and I have tried to be supportive of her, and she has been kind to me, but I feel that I am missing a part of her picture, so to speak. I do remember her saying she is quick to fight, but then quick to make up, or something of that nature.
I think I will just keep a distance as best I can. I am still a chicken at heart, and don't like confrontation. And yes, Mockingbird scares me to death.
Anyway, thank you for always, always, always being there for me.
Love,
J.

[tina martin]

It still kills me that she had people bamboozled. Please give yourself credit where all credit is due. And I guess Dr. K might remember you because of the site run-in. So I'm being a touch vindictive to let him know his Mod was on the wrong side. Wish I had the courage to tell him myself. Oh well, saying it here is good enough.

Italy had nice traits but I'd tread carefully with her. For one thing you never quite know what she's saying and it's not a language matter. It's the thinking that can be a bit of a mystery. But she could joke and laugh.

I'm sprinkling this with gold stars for you. Thank you for sharing your adventure with us. Love.........T

[bunny rabbit]

Hi Everyone: I thought I'd jump in the discussion about Alziemer's because my Dad had it and he just died a month ago. When I wanted to join a grief group at the Alziemer's Society they told me my Dad had to die before I could join the group. I told this person, I've grieved the whole time my father was ill, by the time he dies it will be a huge relief. Well a month later I can say that. My mother's life at 92 is far, far easier and I have a better relationship with her. She lived with so much anger being the primary caregiver, it was amazing that murder didn't take my father's life instead of kidney failure. This is the long goodbye for sure. God gave me a beautiful song which I sang at his funeral called "You're Free". My Dad is free from a failing mind, free from the prison of his body, free from his angst and frustration and I am grateful to God the journey is now over. I wasn't nervous at all singing the song. It was as if my Dad's presence filled the sanctuary and I was singing it to him alone. My sister just died 4 months ago of cancer so it has been an extremely difficult year. This program has helped tremendously. Blessings from bunny

[Paisleegreen]

HI Bunny Rabbit, I'm glad that you were able to sing at your Father's funeral and that you felt his spirit near you. I'm sorry to hear about your sister's passing, I know that is hard.

I'm sorry that the Alz's group didn't accept you before your father's death, they probably felt there was a different type of group for Adult Children that take care of Elderly Parents. I went to one of those at one time. I hope that things will start going better for you now that there is some closure with your Father's passing. Paislee

[Paisleegreen]

Hi All, I'm back from my mini vacation in the mountains! It was great! I'll write more later...I did post about it on another thread to a person talking about stressing after a vacation. P

[SoWhatif]

Hi J, you go young Lady and do not let users use ya. Wishing you and your goals well.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XpA0oPR_EOQ

Welcome home P, Tina your amazing......
I am going to hide a voice recorder in my Mom,s house and see just who is f-ing with who.
I can melt into this music and it fits my feelings. Brings out the tea partier in me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlT7qUov3zw

There is a great article from Dr. K about dimentia and alzsucks. He implies with many cases are related directly to depression. I will dig it up and post it soon.

Hey Bunny Rabbit, welcome and sorry to hear goverment got in the way of your dads quality of life.

[SoWhatif]

Rabbit here is a tune for your Dad.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezuCEkcOV9E or John's version.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ezuCEkcOV9E