Dear J, I am sorry you are suffering but this is why I never have and most likely never will have anythintg to do with FB. I realize I am out of sync with the bulk of the world. The only good thing I can say about FB is that it provides jobs.
The best way is to rise above it. Show them that you are pleased with yourself and your life, and all you've accomplished. No-one can take that away from you. Is this some sort of popularity contest? That is how I see FB. They will lose interest and you can have some peace. Dr. W would be much better. I'm trying.....Love, T
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I am sorry for their issues J. It is THEIR issues you must maintain that. J you are a positive example even if they are currently ignorant to it. Time will prove your innocence, Your H is approving their actions or he would have or be defuseing it. It would appear that he is not. They are trying to make you the badguy when it is their issues of imaturity and ignorance of the sickness that is prevalent. Sorry about my spelling. It plays right into the stress your under and why the dreams are as you have had. Congrats on your nomination and that can be a example of just how positive you really are. I wish I new a way for you to confront them. Do the best you can to not feed their frenzy as they will only attempt to turn it onto you.
When I am angry I usually take along walk or get away from the agitant before I break something. Please do not aknowlege the arrows flying your way. Raise the shield and deflect them, I know you can.....
Would be a good time for some of that yogi maybe.
Write down the angers and leave them on the papper. Don't carry them with you.
I am not sure where P lives but I hope she didn't get caught up in the storms yesterday.
How can I give you some stability to carry? Here is a hug
There is an old saying that when the going gets tuff the tuff get going. You J are walking the walk and are alone in it as your loved ones are wollowing in their quagmire and trying to pull you in so they can save themselves. Keep the life boat pointed to your destination, it may be out of site and seem so far away, be assured it is there and awaiting your arrival. Bless you for fighting the fight. Anger is a choice we make in reflex. You are the Alpha I hope the pack is smart enough to follow, they must follow by choice or they are not part of the pack and cause disruption. Calm and assertive is the answer your looking for, you have it and MUST not react with feelings only with facts and do not discuss any other way.
When I am angry I usually take along walk or get away from the agitant before I break something. Please do not aknowlege the arrows flying your way. Raise the shield and deflect them, I know you can.....
Would be a good time for some of that yogi maybe.
Write down the angers and leave them on the papper. Don't carry them with you.
I am not sure where P lives but I hope she didn't get caught up in the storms yesterday.
How can I give you some stability to carry? Here is a hug
There is an old saying that when the going gets tuff the tuff get going. You J are walking the walk and are alone in it as your loved ones are wollowing in their quagmire and trying to pull you in so they can save themselves. Keep the life boat pointed to your destination, it may be out of site and seem so far away, be assured it is there and awaiting your arrival. Bless you for fighting the fight. Anger is a choice we make in reflex. You are the Alpha I hope the pack is smart enough to follow, they must follow by choice or they are not part of the pack and cause disruption. Calm and assertive is the answer your looking for, you have it and MUST not react with feelings only with facts and do not discuss any other way.Re: Dear Diary
Maybe we can align a time when we 4 could get into a mini chat here. I think that would be soothing and healing in nature.
Tina dear how is Colo. I have been missing sharing. I am going thru feelings and emotions I have not dealt with for years.
It is so good to be off the AD meds and at the same time realizing the real me. What a disaster.
Be back later tonight, have a great day all.
Tina dear how is Colo. I have been missing sharing. I am going thru feelings and emotions I have not dealt with for years.
It is so good to be off the AD meds and at the same time realizing the real me. What a disaster.
Be back later tonight, have a great day all.
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tina martin
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Good to hear from you, R. I think we are giving J the same message: take the high road and don't be dragged down in any way. The tornado disasters are horrifying. Feel guilty with our beautiful weather. Robbies are busy courting, soon they'll go househunting. Good Grief. I see them every day and blow them kisses. They look at me.
Hope all is well with you. No disasters for you. You are on your way to live as perhaps never before. Honestly, that is what these 3 years have done for me. I wish the same for you and J and Paislee. She is away for a few days being daring and courageous. Good for her. Bye for now.
Hope all is well with you. No disasters for you. You are on your way to live as perhaps never before. Honestly, that is what these 3 years have done for me. I wish the same for you and J and Paislee. She is away for a few days being daring and courageous. Good for her. Bye for now.
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Dear Diary,
Wow. It is so nice to hear from R. again, and his advise is spot on.
Diary, I have great news and bad news. I will start with the great news. We (Janet and I) finished cleaning out the storage unit yesterday. She will be finalizing throwing random boxes into recycling and moving the last items into her home. So far I've made (with her cut) a nice bit of money, but nothing compared to what I paid for everything. I try not to look at it that way, though.
The bad news...I've ruptured a disc. I'm sure of it. I have been flat on my back since yesterday lying on a heating pad. Thank goodness for the heating pad. Tomorrow I will try to get in to see my doctor, but in the mean time I have never been in so much pain in my back and neck.
More bad news..I work tomorrow night. The state I am in now, there is no way that I will be able to go to work, and I am supposed to call my supervisor and give her plenty of time to find a replacement for me because I work alone. What to do diary?
Do I call now? Do I wait until this evening? Do I wait until tomorrow after I've gone to the doctor?
I don't want her to think I am unreliable.
OK..some good news...
I am now officially on the board of the woman's auxiliary committee as the recording secretary. I was nominated and elected.
Wow. I feel so honored.
I think I will leave this entry on the good news, rather then the bad news.
Love,
Me.
Oh, PS
Claudia said something SO INTERESTING to me. I told her about my dream where there was no sunshine and then there was lots of sun etc.
I also told her all about Easter Dinner, and the mind games that were being played, etc.
Claudia said, J., do you notice how many times you have used the word sun in your dream? I thought she was referring to sun vs darkness and told her that. She said, no J., I am referring to sun vs son.
Freudian .......... weird.
I'm going to take R., advise and rise above it all. I just am.
Wow. It is so nice to hear from R. again, and his advise is spot on.
Diary, I have great news and bad news. I will start with the great news. We (Janet and I) finished cleaning out the storage unit yesterday. She will be finalizing throwing random boxes into recycling and moving the last items into her home. So far I've made (with her cut) a nice bit of money, but nothing compared to what I paid for everything. I try not to look at it that way, though.
The bad news...I've ruptured a disc. I'm sure of it. I have been flat on my back since yesterday lying on a heating pad. Thank goodness for the heating pad. Tomorrow I will try to get in to see my doctor, but in the mean time I have never been in so much pain in my back and neck.
More bad news..I work tomorrow night. The state I am in now, there is no way that I will be able to go to work, and I am supposed to call my supervisor and give her plenty of time to find a replacement for me because I work alone. What to do diary?
Do I call now? Do I wait until this evening? Do I wait until tomorrow after I've gone to the doctor?
I don't want her to think I am unreliable.
OK..some good news...
I am now officially on the board of the woman's auxiliary committee as the recording secretary. I was nominated and elected.
Wow. I feel so honored.
I think I will leave this entry on the good news, rather then the bad news.
Love,
Me.
Oh, PS
Claudia said something SO INTERESTING to me. I told her about my dream where there was no sunshine and then there was lots of sun etc.
I also told her all about Easter Dinner, and the mind games that were being played, etc.
Claudia said, J., do you notice how many times you have used the word sun in your dream? I thought she was referring to sun vs darkness and told her that. She said, no J., I am referring to sun vs son.
Freudian .......... weird.
I'm going to take R., advise and rise above it all. I just am.
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tina martin
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So sorry you are suffering such pain. My guess is it may be a collection of stress gathered in the spine. You are too young for disc problems. So there is my diagnosis. Sure hope doctor concurs. Love..........T
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Thanks Tina. I'm not that young. I'm 52. Although my step kids tell me I'm immature, I assure you I am NOT YOUNG, and I might have a slipped or ruptured disc. Whatever that means.
Good news though. The 3rd storage unit is completely empty. I will now start working on selling some furniture....
I feel lighter already.
Take Care,
Love,
J.
PS
Thank you for your empathy. It means a lot.
Good news though. The 3rd storage unit is completely empty. I will now start working on selling some furniture....
I feel lighter already.
Take Care,
Love,
J.
PS
Thank you for your empathy. It means a lot.
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Paisleegreen
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HI all, I'm back! I've had a terrific time and no anxiety. I was with great and caring people, fun atmosphere and great gathering of women. Beautiful places to be at where there were waterfalls and streams and beautiful landscaping. I didn't want to come home because it was so wonderful. Many cheerful and happy women wanting to learn more of how they can serve their community and improve their lives. It was an awesome experience and I was able to develop friendships and also was able to comfort those that mourn or are suffering from their own trials in life. Truly inspirational speakers
J, I'm sorry you had to experience those things on face book. I got a comment back from a light hearted posting from one of my sons, and I hid it. I wasn't sure how to take it, because it seemed rather sarcastic, then the next thing I know, I'm baby sitting his children while his wife and him go gallivanting.But I had a good time with my Grandchildren.
Anyway, I applaud you on your completion of work done on your storage units. A great task to accomplish that I will have to attack myself, but the units are in my house. Ugh. Take Care! Time for bed...I had to redo a new password w/ aol to get on here, so that was a little frustrating as I don't know what caused this request. Maybe it was because of Bin Laden, I don't know. Sweet Dreams! Paislee
J, I'm sorry you had to experience those things on face book. I got a comment back from a light hearted posting from one of my sons, and I hid it. I wasn't sure how to take it, because it seemed rather sarcastic, then the next thing I know, I'm baby sitting his children while his wife and him go gallivanting.But I had a good time with my Grandchildren.
Anyway, I applaud you on your completion of work done on your storage units. A great task to accomplish that I will have to attack myself, but the units are in my house. Ugh. Take Care! Time for bed...I had to redo a new password w/ aol to get on here, so that was a little frustrating as I don't know what caused this request. Maybe it was because of Bin Laden, I don't know. Sweet Dreams! Paislee
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PAISLEE, I AM SO SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!
I knew you would have a lovely experience and I knew you would be sorry to leave once you were settled in and comfortable.
Oh this is such wonderful news for you. Look how much you accomplished. You made new friends. I am so happy for you that I am smiling from ear to ear. It is 4:21 am here and I am lying here with the heating pad on my back, but your news just is so wonderful that I wanted to let you know immediately how happy I am for you.
More Later,
J.
I knew you would have a lovely experience and I knew you would be sorry to leave once you were settled in and comfortable.
Oh this is such wonderful news for you. Look how much you accomplished. You made new friends. I am so happy for you that I am smiling from ear to ear. It is 4:21 am here and I am lying here with the heating pad on my back, but your news just is so wonderful that I wanted to let you know immediately how happy I am for you.
More Later,
J.
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tina martin
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Wonderful news, P. I had mixed thoughts about your trip but managed to keep them to myself since it is me (shades of agorophobia) who could not function out of my comfort zone. Makes me realize what a loner I was all my life. Also need to get rid of things, but there is nothing of value that I know of. Everything can be given away or dumped. When daughter visits in June I'll clue her in. When we go to the bookstore I'll bring more in than I take out. Feel very good dispensing with everything in this fashion right here.
J, I hope you get good news today re your spine. Then we can talk about care of the spine which is key in yoga. It was one of the surprising things about yoga: made me aware of the spine.
J, I hope you get good news today re your spine. Then we can talk about care of the spine which is key in yoga. It was one of the surprising things about yoga: made me aware of the spine.