whoa...I'm really, really spiraling out of control and I don't know why. My mood has deeply plummeted ever since I came back from the storage facility yesterday.
I'm doing everything I can to lift myself out of this horrible place. This is depression at it's worst. I thought I was all better.
I will force myself to go and accomplish what I need to do today, and Julie wants me to go over to her place tonight. I don't know if I will be able to hide my depression from her.
This is bad.
Typing this is a first good step. There is another website that I MUST stay away from, because I'm fairly certain that I can't handle that site. There are just too many suicidal people there, and I became suicidal after revisiting the site. I'm fine, but I must stay away from there.
My skin hurts.
And I have been doing so well. I feel so bad that I cancelled my therapy this morning and took the phone off the hook.
