2 Big Steps - One Scary Result (kind of)

[Kenny98]

So after 3 months (literally) of making doctors appointments and not going, today I finally went. Pretty big step.

Got Lexapro and Xanax. Xanax is the only drug I've ever been given (for anxiety) and I'm comfortable with it. But an SSRI...I've been prescribed Prozac, Celexa and Paxil and never taken any of them. I was scared.

Well tonight, I just grabbed a can of sprite, popped open the bottle of Lexapro and swallowed one without even thinking twice. Big step number 2. BTW, I was certain that any SSRI would make me insane but it's been 4 hours and I feel great so far.

At the doctor, the nurse told me that I have a very high heart rate. I explained to her that I have panic disorder and I'm freaking out about the being at the doctor (my exact words). The doctor then tells me I need to have blood (no biggie for me) and an EKG. She straps me up with the EKG and tells me that my heart rate is irregular and the "resting" period is abnormal.

I'm like 99% sure that my heart "issue" was just me panicking. I mean REALLY, our hearts do crazy things when we panic. We all know that.

I guess it's better to be safe than sorry but I'm not really worried about it at all.

Just wanted to share my story!

[bklynbee]

Wow...this is really great news! I do the same thing all the time make doctors appointments and then dont go, so I know what a big deal this is for you. I also am petrified to take meds, my doc wants me to try zoloft but i am so scared to take it. I waste more money on filling prescriptions that i never take. I also go through the same thing at the docs office with the rapid heart beat and the ekg being abnormal. The first time I saw my doc I was freaking out and when they did they ekg my doc thought I was having a heart attack and sent me to the er...you want to talk about scared. The hospital ran tests and everything came back normal but my doc wanted to be safe than sorry. To this day the ekgs stll come out abnormal and my doc just compares it to the first one and tells me its the same and that is what is normal for me. I wish you all the luck with your meds and I really hope it works for you...hopefully one day I will get the courage up to take mine. Keep us updated!

[Nanner823]

Congratulations Kenny98

I am proud of you That is two big steps. Keep your head up and yes let us know how you are doing when ever you could

[Kenny98]

Well here's a quick update. Took my meds for the first time last night and I have to say (like usual) I worried for no reason at all.

Sure, I'm a bit tired, a bit "out of it" at times and have a hard time concentrating, but it's the first day and those things will go away.

I haven't seen any improvement in my emotions but again, it's the first day and I wasn't expecting to see any change yet.

Instead of demanding a drug that I think will work for me (Xanax), I just took what the doctor gave me and I'm feeling pretty good about it as of right now.