It has come back :( Having a relapse.

celeron · Post by **celeron** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 3:17 am

I was doing so well, I've not been on here in quite a while and I baffled as to how or why my depression and anxiety have came back. What a difference a week can make, This time last week I was on top of the world, Out shopping, looking forward to Christmas, fast forward 1 week I am anxious even sitting in the house, I am depressed and really on the virge of tears for no reason.

I know I am depressed and not just having an off day because since the 26th i've not been able to sleep, thats a sure sign for me. You get over maybe about 1am, and you long for the clock to come to a reasonable hour so you can get up, in my case 6am is acceptable.

I don't know how this happened, I had a really good christmas with my family, it just set in on the 26th, and if I cast my mind back to last year it was the same. I am thinking its something to do with Christmas being over.

I just really don't know what to do, I have no energy to do anything. And to be honest I have no interest in doing anything, all motivation has gone.

HELP

brandie · Post by **brandie** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 3:32 am

I know how you feel. I am going through the same thing. I was doing so much better until this past week. I don't want to do anything. Its hard getting off the coach. I just chalk it up to a little set back. We will just have to take the steps to get back into it. Hang in there it will get better. Think postive. Good luck.

Posa · Post by **Posa** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 3:38 am

Just take a deep breath. Maybe all that hustle and bustle has caught up with you. It can be that Christmas is over and it may be the realization that a New Year is coming and for me, that stinks, because I look back and say..."what the heck have I accomplished". Usually, it isn't much but I can say this time that I am making my happiness a first priority. It's okay to be down right now. Did anything happen that you can think of over the holiday, even the most silly things can bother me and I don't even realize it. Once I figure that out it usually helps me, slowly get back on track. I say you get back and fight this. You can do this!

John61 · Post by **John61** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 3:45 am

Wow, I'm having the same issue. I was fine leading up to Christmas but the 26th was a little off but the 27th I had a small panic attack and didn't handle it too well. Really just fealing down today.

Maybe there's a conection here.

celeron · Post by **celeron** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 4:06 am

I don't know what happened, Maybe because there is nothing to look forward to now only another year of drudgery

KDlady · Post by **KDlady** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 4:47 am

It's called a setback. You WILL have them. You CAN'T recover without having them. Do you very best to let it float on by; all the crappy feelings that go along with it. The disappointment, discouragement, furstration that it's "back". We must get through these batches to know there's no harm and nothing to fear. The ONLY reason any of us get stuck in a setback is because we dwell on how crappy it feels. Make yourself get into your day as best you can WHILE feeling lousy.

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 5:11 am

I had that happen a couple months ago. I was "convinced" that this was it. . . I was back where I was. . .it was just as bad if not worse than ever. Then you know what happened? I rested up and let myself lay around for a couple days and the all the sudden I felt lifted out of it. Yes, I had the sleeping problems and eating problems too. But, it was so much easier to get out of that funk with the tools. So, then a few weeks later when I had another bad day I was able to tell myself "remember how you felt like it was the end of the world last time and after a week you were fine? This is probably the same thing."

Don't let yourself believe the lies your "boo voice" is trying to tell you.

The other thing is that even though I've been doing GREAT, I'm feeling off the last couple days too. All that rushing around and all the parties, etc. Plus, the goal of Christmas and all that you have to get done. . . once it's over, it feels almost like a vacuum to me. I'm not sure what to do with myself. So, I am just taking it easy today, and I'll find new things to fill my day. I do better when I stay busy and limit the time I allow myself to sit around thinking about what's going on in my head. That chatter just gets louder and more annoying the more I focus on it. If I'm doing fun things with my friends and family I don't have time for it, which is why I (and probably you too) did so great during the holiday.

You'll be OK. You know you've done this before, and this time you have all the tools to get through it quicker. Keep us posted.

newrunner · Post by **newrunner** » Mon Dec 29, 2008 10:55 am

It sounds like everyone ate too many cookies and rushed around to too many activities and is now having the let-down of having to clean up the mess and get rid of the tree and school starting again and blah blah blah.

Today is it's own day. Live it to the fullest. Say a prayer of thanks if/when you wake up tomorrow and repeat.

I remember in one session that Caroline says that just because the morning stinks doesn't mean the afternoon will. So-- just because today might stink doesn't mean tonight will. Have faith in yourself, in God, in the skills that you know and make wise choices in your activities and thoughts.

My prayers are with you all for a better day tomorrow.