Why does God/Jesus let me suffer with harm OCD and not heal me?

Adonaisown · Post by **Adonaisown** » Mon Oct 13, 2008 10:23 am

Thank you so much for your words of encouragement. I will try to get the program. It sounds like it has really helped you all. I've always depended solely on the Lord and put my trust in Him but I've been having a crisis of faith lately. My reading of the bible has not been real consistent lately so I'm going to start reading it every day again. Zoe, I'm interested in the newsletter. My email is lorilynn@wi.rr.com. Thank you all for your prayers. I really, really need them! I'm still believing to be delivered from this horrible affliction. Thank you and may God bless each of you abundantly!

deedee00 · Post by **deedee00** » Mon Oct 13, 2008 12:01 pm

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momto3 · Post by **momto3** » Mon Oct 13, 2008 12:36 pm

ALways remember when we are weak it makes him strong-draw close to God -it is what he wants us to do so that he may take care of us.He wants us to depend on him! The tests of life are not to break you but to make you! In my positive thinking everyday book it says for Oct.12th "Fear is the most powerful of all thoughts with one exception, and that one exception is faith.When i am feeling lost or scared I pick up my Bible and just read wherever I turn to and God always allows me to read what I am needing and in one of my weakest moments I opened and he led my eyes to Romans chapter 3 and the title says "God can be depended on totally." I feel like he was telling me to depend on him stop depending on myself and others to get me through this but look for him-seek and ye shall find! May God give you peace in your times of need. ANGEL

Charlie Brown · Post by **Charlie Brown** » Sat Dec 13, 2008 4:04 pm

Adonaisown,

I was in this forum looking for spiritual/religious messages and came about your story. How are you doing?

I am sorry you are going through this. My friend went through the same thoughts about his wife four months after getting married. He is Christian as well and was able to overcome this horrible form of anxiety. Please know he never acted on his thoughts and neither will you.

I offer the link to another thread about these scary thoughts: <A HREF="http://bbs.stresscenter.com/eve/forums/ ... 4691056423" TARGET=_blank>http://bbs.stresscenter.com/eve/forums/ ... 1056423</A>.

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I hope these options help.

DEB EMENHISER · Post by **DEB EMENHISER** » Sun Dec 14, 2008 1:23 am

GOD IS NOT DOING ANYTHING TO YOU BUT SATAN IS. GOD LEAD YOU HERE FOR HELP SO THANK HIM. GOOD LUCK, DEB

Adonaisown · Post by **Adonaisown** » Sat Dec 27, 2008 12:00 am

When I initially wrote this I was mad at God because I had been praying earnestly for years for this pure-o form of OCD to go away. It is so awful to have such unbelievable love for someone and then get these horrific images/urges to do something awful to the very thing/person you so utterly love. I do believe that God/Jesus usually chooses to cure us of our diseases via the medical community. I don't understand this, but who am I to question The Almighty One?

I just ordered "Imp of the Mind". I'm not a big reader, so I'm really hoping this book is captivating so I stick with it.

Please continue to pray for me. I really appreciate the lovely and warm messages from the forum members. This is such a horrible form of OCD. I really the medical community would make it known more so when people suffering with this talk to people about it they don't want to run to the nearest hospital to get you a straight jacket.

My the Lord bless you all in a very special way. I've attached a picture of my beautiful son.

Thank you.

Believer08 · Post by **Believer08** » Sat Jan 03, 2009 2:07 pm

Matthew 4:23

And Jesus went about all Galilee, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing all manner of sickness and all manner of disease among the people.

Did you know Jesus is your healer? He is willing and able to heal your body of any kind of sickness or disease. Isn't it so good to know that the doctor's report or the medical report is not the last word? The last word is that no sickness or disease is stronger than the healing power that is in Christ Jesus!

It didn't matter to Jesus what was wrong with those people. Jesus healed them all. That means whatever was going on in their bodies or their minds had to leave because the anointing was stronger than the sickness. When word got around that Jesus was healing people, they brought sick people with every kind of sickness and disease imaginable. He healed them all.

But notice what happens when Jesus goes to his own hometown. Here we find out what will stop the anointing of God (Mark 6:1-6). Those that knew Him were offended. Why were they offended? They were offended because they knew who He was, or, at least, they thought they knew Him. Actually, all they knew was that He was the son of Mary, and they knew all his brothers and sisters; but they didn't really know Him.

If they really knew Him, they would have received from Him. But they were offended because they were looking at the man and not the anointing on the man. Are you listening to me? Their offense cost them their healing. Jesus said in verse four, "A prophet is not without honor, but in his own country, and among his own kin, and in his own house."

You see, the Holy Ghost is the One that does the healing, and He is the agent of healing. They didn't honor the anointing of the Holy Spirit, so Jesus was only able to heal a few sick folk.

Now everywhere else in Scripture, we read how Jesus healed all their sick. Well, what stopped the power of God from flowing through the whole crowd here? It was because of the unbelief of the people. Unbelief stopped the manifestation of the power of God, so He could only heal a few sick folk here and there.

But I have a word from God for you: healing belongs to you. Jesus was anointed to heal you and me.

Scripture References: Matthew 4:23-25; Luke 4:18; Acts 10:38

B.K.A.B

beepster · Post by **beepster** » Fri Jan 16, 2009 11:59 am

Adonaisown, I know exactly how you are feeling. Your post gave me chills when I first read it realizing that our sons were born on the same day. My son was born in 2002 and I remember when he was an infant worrying about doing horrible things to him/having images and at that time I was able to say it's just your ocd, but it still freaked me out. About four years ago I started on OCD medicine and recently had to stop because my depression was really bad and I had to go on an MAOI anti depressant and you can't take an SSRI with it. The depression came due to several health issues I was dealing with. I am a strong believer in God and one of my thoughts that I had since my son was born and still have is "What if he is Gay". He is 6 now and I have had the thought since he was an infant. It has really been bothering me since I stopped the OCD medication. If he picks something up that is pink or acts a certain way, the thought pops into my head and freaks me out. My Psy. Doctor wants me to say my son is gay out loud into a recorder for 20 minutes a day and then play it back for 20 minutes a day and write it for 20 minutes a day. 1 hour a day and apparently after a while I will be bored with the thought. I instantly felt sick about it. Then in church the pastor was talking how the devil is a deceiver, he is nothing but deception. So I started to tell myself that and realized that what satan was trying to freak me out about did not line up with the bible. In Matthew 6:27 it states "Do not worry or be anxious for nothing, for it does not add one unit of measure to your stature or your life span. So when I started comparing what I was worrying about and what the bible said, I realized I was being deceived by satan. I have not done what the doctor wanted me to nor will I. I feel like it is giving satan a way in again. My christian friend told me every time I have a thought like that to say my son is going to be a Godly man and it has worked. So maybe you can think of a positive when you have an image or thought. You will not hurt your son. The doctor once told me the fact that you worry about it means you would never do it. I hope this helps you and I am also hoping for some posts about what the doctor told me I needed to do. I feel like I am speaking something satan wants if I say that. Hope this makes sense and that it has helped you. You can always private message me if you would like. Please do not worry. I took Luvox for the OCD and it made all the thoughts go away, but since I had to quit they came back.

Take care.

guitarman109 · Post by **guitarman109** » Fri Jan 16, 2009 5:32 pm

There is a book called THE SCIENCE OF MIND by Ernest Holmes that has greatly helped me with my perspective of how and why things happen the way they do. It has helped almost every avenue of my life, including scary thoghts concerning my daughter. I highly recomend this book to ANYONE and EVERYONE.

r.michelle · Post by **r.michelle** » Sat Jan 17, 2009 6:14 pm

My freind...although I believe in satin...I also believe in the power of our own minds...sometimes we allow our own minds to control us and once we are in so deep we can not dig out or so it seems.

God is not allowing you to suffer...but perhaps is saying stand up and move...I have not given you a spirit of fear but of love and strenghth.

A LOT of people have those fears...I have six children and have had many crazy thoughts...none of which I ever acted on and I believe you will not either.

Please try to get the program...the first post had a great idea, the library...what about a church or reasource center. There has to be a way.

I wish you the best...I also will pray for you...keep posting as well you have a support system here. God Bless you child.