Questions and comments
Made it through session 2 today. This is one program I hope to really finish. I have a trail of learning programs, taking in knowledge of many things, but quiting before the last line of project is complete. It is a weakness. I procrastinate. Then when something else different and interesting comes along, I find myself involved and set aside the project I should have completed for my own sanity. No wonder I have had anxiety attacks or panic attacks, and many many other freaky things going on in my life. Hopefully everyone will keep me on tract this go around. Thanks for listening.
Try not to view it simply just as a program to finish. Rather, view this as a MINDSET/LIFESTYLE change for which you are making. Think of it as this: you are a pupil in COLLEGE. The college is StressCenter.com & your MAJOR is mental/emotional wellness/healing/recovery & most important, YOU WANTING TO "FEEL BETTER". Let your "wanting to feel better" be your inspiration = your daily inspiration. Let your mind be a sponge to all the information (most importantly this PROGRAM) that IS out there. MAKE RECOVERY YOUR PRIORITY.Do this program - follow it as instructed. You have questions? Write them dwn & research them - gosh, there are books & books @ library's & bookstores & the internet - write notes.
Recovery fr anxiety disorder/panic attacks/depression are completely & totally 100% possible. However, you want recovery - then you the sufferer has to earn it in sweat + time + hardwork + consistency + willingness to face/feel/shed all the negative behaviors/pain + homework + journaling + research + lifestyle changes (mentally & emotionally & physically & spiritually). Just when you think you've given/done enough, recovery DEMANDS you give more. It is hard work - but the rewards are so worth it. Allow yourself to EVOLVE into a much heatlhier person UTILIZING the wealth of information on anxiety disorder that IS out there - using it on a daily basis. You can sure do other things - Lucinda says in the program, "we all have the same 24 hrs in a day" - so how do you choose to spend it? Allot some time, on a scheduled/daily basis to do your homework - program work. It is hard, but it is also up to you the SUFFERER to make it your priority.
When I was at my worst w/ anxiety disorder/panic attacks/ptsd 4 yrs ago - it was horrible, lol. Yes, I can laugh now - cause I ain't affraid anymore. I was so severe in every way you could possibly fathom, I was 2 steps away fr being put in a psych hospital + I was forced to not be physically capable of working + I required therapy fr a psychiatrist + medication: anxiety med 3x's per day + 2 sleep aids to combat the severe sleep deprivation I was experiencing(averaging only 1-2 hrs of sleep per every 24 hrs). I was officially diagnosed w/ anxiety disorder + panic attacks + ptsd (fr 3 diff things). You can't get any worse than I was 4 yrs ago.
I was living w/ constant fear beyond anything I could imagine. I was home alone majority of the time, while everyone I knew worked: husband + inlaws/our family + friends, etc. In addition, everyone we know is married w/ children - so life gets busy. While everyone was out there living - going out & about, I was in a terrible state - for which I was pissed off, lol. No, I was never agoraphobic - my circumstance just forced me to not be able to work - hence, isolation a lot. I was quite lonely. So much so, my heart hurt. Yes, my husband was supportive - bless his soul. However, if recovery were to me mine, then it was I WHO HAD TO CLAIM IT. It was I who needed to realize I needed help & seek that help out & follow it through. It was I who had to realize change was desperately needed & set out to learn HOW (via journaling I initiated + research: reading like 16 books + Lucinda's program + loaddddddddds of homework). You see, it was I who was in this terrible state. It wasn't my husband or our family or our friends - it was me - it was me feeling all those things. It was me who wanted to feel better. So, as a result, it was I who needed to make it happen - no excuses. I was like a horse w/ blinders on. Sure, in the beginning, I was clueless - but I searched things out. I kept up w/ it, conistently. Pls remember, CONSISTENCY ='S RESULTS.
Was it hard - harder than anything in my entire life. I had issues to face & emotions to feel & events to re-live that most don't in a lifetime (no exageration @ all). These things weren't some movie or book - they were real & I lived them all. Once I did, though, I was ready to face myself & change those parts of me that desperately needed changing. That is when I purchased her program & started it the 1st time in NOV 2006. Remember, I was home alone majority of the time - I desperately wanted other things, EVERYTHING & ANYTHING outside of anxiety disorder + recovery + crying + shedding of emotional pain/baggage - I wanted all those things. To be honest, as previously mentioned, I was & got pissed off that I was in this situation. The fact was, I was in that situation. I was being given a 2nd chance (though I didn't see it as such back then). I was being given the chance to evole/grow/change/heal things that had been burdening me all my life - I just didn't know it - anxiety disorder allowed me to see it. I made a declaration to myself - a committment if you will - I too will be out there doing all those things & living life. For now, however, my job & life mission was recovery. Recovery is slow & very methodical. It affords one the ability to aborb change & evolve -shedding of old skin & changing of behaviors to that it does become a LIFESTYLE/MINDSET change. It took us a long time to create these negative behaviors - changing them won't happen over-nite.
You are off to a fantastic start. Pat yourself on the back - for real . You are here on this forum reaching out - that means you've already acknowledged to yourself that you want to feel better & change - you're doing it. Be patient w/ yourself - extra compassionate + loving + kind. PLs, most importantly, MAKE RECOVERY YOUR #1 PRIORITY. I am 1 of many who has recovered. Do the program everyday, a little bit @ a time. Make recovery & this program a part of your life - make it an ASSUMED part of your life.
All my best wishes for recovery & emotional freedom to you.
Your friend,
LENORE
Recovery fr anxiety disorder/panic attacks/depression are completely & totally 100% possible. However, you want recovery - then you the sufferer has to earn it in sweat + time + hardwork + consistency + willingness to face/feel/shed all the negative behaviors/pain + homework + journaling + research + lifestyle changes (mentally & emotionally & physically & spiritually). Just when you think you've given/done enough, recovery DEMANDS you give more. It is hard work - but the rewards are so worth it. Allow yourself to EVOLVE into a much heatlhier person UTILIZING the wealth of information on anxiety disorder that IS out there - using it on a daily basis. You can sure do other things - Lucinda says in the program, "we all have the same 24 hrs in a day" - so how do you choose to spend it? Allot some time, on a scheduled/daily basis to do your homework - program work. It is hard, but it is also up to you the SUFFERER to make it your priority.
When I was at my worst w/ anxiety disorder/panic attacks/ptsd 4 yrs ago - it was horrible, lol. Yes, I can laugh now - cause I ain't affraid anymore. I was so severe in every way you could possibly fathom, I was 2 steps away fr being put in a psych hospital + I was forced to not be physically capable of working + I required therapy fr a psychiatrist + medication: anxiety med 3x's per day + 2 sleep aids to combat the severe sleep deprivation I was experiencing(averaging only 1-2 hrs of sleep per every 24 hrs). I was officially diagnosed w/ anxiety disorder + panic attacks + ptsd (fr 3 diff things). You can't get any worse than I was 4 yrs ago.
I was living w/ constant fear beyond anything I could imagine. I was home alone majority of the time, while everyone I knew worked: husband + inlaws/our family + friends, etc. In addition, everyone we know is married w/ children - so life gets busy. While everyone was out there living - going out & about, I was in a terrible state - for which I was pissed off, lol. No, I was never agoraphobic - my circumstance just forced me to not be able to work - hence, isolation a lot. I was quite lonely. So much so, my heart hurt. Yes, my husband was supportive - bless his soul. However, if recovery were to me mine, then it was I WHO HAD TO CLAIM IT. It was I who needed to realize I needed help & seek that help out & follow it through. It was I who had to realize change was desperately needed & set out to learn HOW (via journaling I initiated + research: reading like 16 books + Lucinda's program + loaddddddddds of homework). You see, it was I who was in this terrible state. It wasn't my husband or our family or our friends - it was me - it was me feeling all those things. It was me who wanted to feel better. So, as a result, it was I who needed to make it happen - no excuses. I was like a horse w/ blinders on. Sure, in the beginning, I was clueless - but I searched things out. I kept up w/ it, conistently. Pls remember, CONSISTENCY ='S RESULTS.
Was it hard - harder than anything in my entire life. I had issues to face & emotions to feel & events to re-live that most don't in a lifetime (no exageration @ all). These things weren't some movie or book - they were real & I lived them all. Once I did, though, I was ready to face myself & change those parts of me that desperately needed changing. That is when I purchased her program & started it the 1st time in NOV 2006. Remember, I was home alone majority of the time - I desperately wanted other things, EVERYTHING & ANYTHING outside of anxiety disorder + recovery + crying + shedding of emotional pain/baggage - I wanted all those things. To be honest, as previously mentioned, I was & got pissed off that I was in this situation. The fact was, I was in that situation. I was being given a 2nd chance (though I didn't see it as such back then). I was being given the chance to evole/grow/change/heal things that had been burdening me all my life - I just didn't know it - anxiety disorder allowed me to see it. I made a declaration to myself - a committment if you will - I too will be out there doing all those things & living life. For now, however, my job & life mission was recovery. Recovery is slow & very methodical. It affords one the ability to aborb change & evolve -shedding of old skin & changing of behaviors to that it does become a LIFESTYLE/MINDSET change. It took us a long time to create these negative behaviors - changing them won't happen over-nite.
You are off to a fantastic start. Pat yourself on the back - for real . You are here on this forum reaching out - that means you've already acknowledged to yourself that you want to feel better & change - you're doing it. Be patient w/ yourself - extra compassionate + loving + kind. PLs, most importantly, MAKE RECOVERY YOUR #1 PRIORITY. I am 1 of many who has recovered. Do the program everyday, a little bit @ a time. Make recovery & this program a part of your life - make it an ASSUMED part of your life.
All my best wishes for recovery & emotional freedom to you.
Your friend,
LENORE
ANGELS CAN FLY BECAUSE THEY TAKE THEMSELVES LIGHTLY
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Lenore I just love your posts. They are so inspirational. I have recently restarted the program and found myself feeling down becasue I fed myself alot of BS negativity. Your post was just what I needed. I am going to print it up so that I can pull it out when I am feeling funky. Thank you. Take care and God Bless.