can someone tell me how depression makes you feel???

angela52884 · Post by **angela52884** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 4:44 am

Im not sure if I am depressed or not but I am definatly not my normal self!!! Usually I am outgoing and postive and a nice person. I am 5 months pregnant so I know some may be hormonal, but I just feel really down lately, I feel really negative, I feel like I dont care about much, I am procrasinating so much! I have no motivation, I have been kind of mean, sometimes I just start crying and I dont even know why, I do have some good things going for me right now but it almost seems like that doesnt matter!!! This anxiety has caused me to be so scared lately I fee like I am not myself!!! Everything seems like it takes too much strenght to do, some days I dont even get myself dressed and this is not me!!!!!!! The thing is that I dont really know what is bothering me???? Can anyone please help? I feel like Im gonna burst into tears just be writing this!!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 5:09 am

((((angela))))
We don't always know what is making us feel this way but I do know how hard it is and how horrible it feels. I have felt everything you described many, many times and didn't have a reason it seemed. It's tough to pull ourselves out of this hole when we are sooooo down but somehow we manage to dig our way out. I can feel your pain as though it is mine. I went through 6 days of this just over a week ago...this time due to a drug I was taking but other times just felt lifeless and so full of doom and gloom. If you can just somehow make yourself get dressed, do your hair and take baby steps to do anything that will give you a lift..it's hard but will help a lot. Put on the radio and that can be a huge mood lifter.
Don't beat yourself up for these feelings and please do not feel you are alone with all this, we understand!!
PM me anytime if you need to talk. I will always reply to anyone feeling down and help in any way I can.
Thinking of you and sending you hugs and prayers.
monty'smom

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 6:13 am

Hi angela. I think you're worried about the heart tests that you've been posting about. I've been through the same kind of thing about two years ago. I went to the hospital because I was lightheaded and was having headaches from the anxiety. They took my blood pressure and it was kind of high because I was so anxious. Well, they scared the crap out of me talking about all that could be wrong. I kept telling them that it was because I was so anxious but they insisted on EKGs a be stress tests and all that they could think of. They scared me so much in that hospital that every time they would put a np cuff on me my blood pressure would get high. Well, after all of the tests came back normal and they also noticed that when I was lying down relaxed, my blood pressure would go back to normal, they sent me home. Everything was fine but they had already done damage. For a long time I couldn't get my np taken without getting anxious where it would read high. Try to distract yourself by doing simething to get your mind off it .everything will be okay.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 6:22 am

Sorry for all of the mistakes. I'm on my iPhone and you have to type long posts fast or they won't go through.

I was trying to type bp cuff.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 6:33 am

Its ok I apprecitate your response!! I am practically in a panic attack just sitting in the waiting room waiting for my turn. When the nurse called me back and checked my b/p it was normal but my pulse was 150, its something about being scared about the blood pressure, my pulse just shoots up everytime!! Then it freaked me out b/c of the doctor freaking out. He though the machine was broke or something. My pulse will seriously go from 80 -150 in like a minute. I never used to be that way but its something I need to fix, I think that why I have the fear of the doctors because I know its going to be a problem everytime!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 6:40 am

A pharmacist once told the term "white coat syndrome". It's when you're so afraid of hospitals, doctors, and how they scare you, that your blood pressure goes up or your pulse goes up or you just get extremely anxious whenever you're at a hospital or see doctors. There's a lot of us on here like that because doctors can really scare you.