News flash ...I am really depressed.

Arat · Post by **Arat** » Fri Nov 14, 2008 2:10 pm

Hey, It hit me tonight and I know it has before but, I had no where to go before...I am so depressed... I grew up in home with 6 older brothers. I still feel like our love and life together is stuff movies are mad of! My dad worked 4 jobs sometime to feed and cloth us. We were tight and proud. Tragedy struck in 1983. My beautiful 26 yr old brother shot himself. He lived for 11 days. I prayed in that chapel and would have sold my soul to have him back. I was 22. I went on filled my time with a husband and kids. The day after christmas 1999 at the age of 49 my oldest brother died during surgey. I was 39. At 45 years old I was the caretaker of my brother Mike. He died at 52 years old from cancer. I am so sad and I carry it everyday. I have a wonderful husband and awesome kids and I am so sad. I know this is my burden. So sory to depress, just need to put it in writing.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Nov 14, 2008 2:25 pm

Arat, I am so sorry for your losses. I can't even imagine what you are going through. I will say a prayer for your suffering. May God be with you this day.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Nov 14, 2008 2:27 pm

(((((Arat)))))
Please never apologize for posting anything...we are all here in this to help each other through the sadness and You have much reason to feel sad my dear. I'm so very sorry for all the losses you have suffered and wish I could hug you for real but please know my heart and prayers are with you and you can Pm me if you ever want or need to just vent. I will always reply anytime.
All I can say is I understand how much it hurts to lose loved ones and time does help but when we are depressed it all comes back as if it just happened. You cry as much as you need to right now as I believe it helps to just let it all out and not try to fight it. Sending lots of hugs and healing prayers.

Best Wishes, God Bless.

Carolyn Dickman · Post by **Carolyn Dickman** » Fri Nov 14, 2008 2:30 pm

Hello!Don't be sorry.That's what were here for.To help each other through bad times.I'm so sorry to here about what you've been through.

I'll pray that God gives you strength and heals your broken heart.We are here for you.Take care and God bless you!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Nov 14, 2008 5:42 pm

This is what this place is for I think. Sadness and depression are tough nuts to crack. I don't have the answers but I hope we can all find the solutions together.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Nov 15, 2008 4:20 am

That goes to show that you never know what life is going to throw at you. It's a tough thing that many people go through. I don't know what to say except that I'm sorry for your losses. Make sure to be good to yourself and don't forget to treat yourself with respect.

~~~~~~~~I understand about indicision, but I don't care if I get behind. People livin' in competition, all I want is to have my peace of mind~~~~~~~~~

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Nov 16, 2008 12:52 am

Thank you very, very much for your kind replys! This program has began to force me to come to terms. The next moring after writing that I had a pretty big panic attack. Do doubt the fact that I spoke of the subject that has been pushed down in the pit of my stomach...My eyes are open a little wider today and for the sake of me, my husband, kids, my brothers here on earth and my brothers in heavan & great people like you I will get through this and still. I am glad for the many, many, many blessings that I have. P.S prayers are awesome! Thanks....from the bottom of my heart.