Bouncing

Unknown2 · Post by **Unknown2** » Fri Nov 07, 2008 10:22 am

Hey Guys!

I am bouncing back and forth trying to get a grip on things. I have made a mess of things once again and no positive talk in the world is going to help me. I am holding on and asking for prayer. I tried to quit my job Wednesday. I was given time off but I can't stand to go back and face my co-workers. I have acted like a fool, and I am really in trouble. Once you do things that you can't take back, what do you do?

I wish I had something positive to say, but I don't. I am just holding on for dear life.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Nov 07, 2008 10:37 am

Unknown,
I am sorry you are having such a hard time. Take the time off you need and think about what happened. Was it really as bad as you think or is it more that you are embarrassed about what happened? If it's embarrassment we've all been there at some time or another. As far as not being able to take things back, is it possible to just apologize and move on? I will pray for you and you keep hanging on for dear life and pray too. Nothing bad lasts forever even when it seems like it will. If you leave this job, perhaps it is God closing one door to open another. Take care of yourself. You have a good support network out here.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Nov 07, 2008 10:56 am

Unknown2,
You're not alone, my dear. I was at a weekend retreat one time about 30 years ago eating lunch in the cafeteria. I made a fool out of myself and walked out. When I got outside I realized that I was STUCK at the retreat for the entire weekend. I was PANIC stricken. A tiny part of me wanted to grow wings and fly away. I was also hungry, as I'd left my lunch and we only ate when they cooked food for the group - no snacks. So, I did something that I've never done before or since. I made up an imaginary friend (I choose Jesus, but that part is irrelevant) and I literally had my imaginary friend walk me back and sat down at my lunch.
The morale of my story? Nobody cared. They carried on like nothing happened. It was a HUGE storm inside of me and a HUGE embarrasment, but they were carrying on with their lives. The emotion is what was overpowering me. It ended up having NOTHING to do with the others. It was all inside of ME.

You have two options. You can look for new employment or you can go back and face your co-workers. Or actually, there's another option. Is it possible you can just drop in, maybe even with some homebaked cookies to drop off in anticipation of the holidays? You can get the "social" part of it out of the way... and see how it feels. You aren't there to work. Just to say a quick "hi" and make an exit as soon as you need to. Then you could leave and see how you feel? It's a thought!

Let us know how this turns out, please!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Fri Nov 07, 2008 11:29 am

You tried to quit your job, and it sounds like you are a valuable person at your place of employment, since your resignation was not accepted (?) and you were given time off, instead. The replies you already have here are quite good, and I cannot offer better advice. I can offer a POV. When we do things we cannot take back (we ALL do these things, you know) the usual scenario is that most of the people who are witnesses are actually thinking Wow, I remember once when I did something like that. So, you see, people aren't judging you at that moment. They are usually internalizing how bad you are feeling, because they are recalling similar moments in their own history. We all want our lives to be perfect every day. None of us get that wish. Life is hard, and we all know that it is hard. When I do something really embarrassing, the first thing I do is acknowledge it, and apologize, if that is needed. Life goes on tomorrow, and people are more worried about their own embarrassing moments than your moments. I hope this turns out fine for you. Be strong. We are here if you need to talk more.

Faith_TX · Post by **Faith_TX** » Sat Nov 08, 2008 2:43 am

Dear Unknown,
You must really do a great job if they won't let you quit. If you like the job or need the job stop beating yourself up. I lost my cool at a competition and chewed out my trainer. I felt so guilty I agonized for days, I couldn't get him on the phone. I thought he fired me. I was so upset.
I thought about it day and night. When I got him on the phone he said "Aw shucks" I wasn't thinking about that at all, I have been yelled at a lot worse than that." I always apologized when I make a fool of myself. Maybe your co workers understand why you tried to quit. It's probably no big deal. Write down as many things as you can that you like about your job. Maybe that will help. Its probably no big deal.

marygold · Post by **marygold** » Sat Nov 08, 2008 3:46 am

Unknown2

Everyone does things they regret after. Going back to face your co-workers will show you how strong you are. Just take a deep breath before you go in, an realize that tomorrow will soon become a distant memory.

hopehound · Post by **hopehound** » Sat Nov 08, 2008 11:50 am

What I did did not happen yesterday. About 8 months into this job, my ego went wild. I was trashing folks and acting as if I was Ms. Goddess of the earth with all the answers. The only thing is is that I am a fool. I was acting an ass to cover up the fact that I was a train wreck waiting to happen. I shared some of my god awful insights with another co-worker that I am certain has spread the news. I look and feel like a piece of sh-- on a daily basis. This has been going on for about 3 months. Do I deserve it? Probably. This is not the first time this has happened, and I should have learned by now. Maybe I have something more psychotic going on. I know I need to address these things if I can have any kind of a future.

Thanks for all the great comments everyone. There are no positive thoughts that will get me out of this one.