Male nurse with anxiety and panic

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Oct 18, 2008 3:23 pm

Phil,

Hang in there, we can do this. I have the same fear, I fight this almost every morning. I hate going to work, and it's not the job or the people, it's my fear of failure having done something wrong. It's doubt and fear, just feelings. There is nothing there that will kill us. This to will pass, don't run from the panic, you must face it remember :what if" SO what if, is it realyy life or death? NO, than it's not that big a deal.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Oct 18, 2008 3:44 pm

Phil, You are going to make it. Baby steps minute by minute but you are going to make it. Think about how you are going to get better and how you are excited about getting that crazy fear out of you life. Everyday is a new day to learn something new about how you are going to get better. Listen to a lot of preaching on tv or tapes that talk about fear.
Joyce Meyers has an excellent book "Battlefield of the Mind" or Beth Moore gettting out of the pit. Beth Moore suffered from fear and anxiety and look at her now she is an awesome speaker helping people like us.
Get up and turn the tv on before you get out of bed and listen to preachings. That helped me face the day. That and reading my bible memorizing bible verses on Fear.
Let that devil know that you are going to take control of your mind and he is not welcomed.

GEt thee behind me satan and say it out loud and believe it. He is attacking you because there is something he is trying to stop you from doing.
I am sorry I sound like I am preaching now but I know what you are feeling but I also know that God is there with you and just keeping claiming VICTORY over this. Talk nothing but positive things. Think positive things I know it is hard but do it more and more every day.
Phil you can do it, it will take time but keep going. Listen to the relaxtion tapes if you can try to tape it and listen to it at work that really helped me. I work in the library at a high school and when the kids use to go in there all day long and noise would just get me. I wanted to be alone. I would listen to the relaxtion tape on the computer with my headphones and it would relax me for awhile.
I was taking lorazapam that is the only thing that use to help me. .05
It is addictive but nothing else would work. The other meds would make me more anxious.
I am off of the lorazapam but I was on it for a year. The doctor didn't want me on that but he didn't have a choice it was my body. He really wanted me on Zolfot or meds like that.
Okay I will stop for now sorry I just know how you are feeling and I want so bad to help you and let you know you are going to make it. In Jesus name we pray

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Oct 18, 2008 4:09 pm

Yes, you will make. I know the pain, the discouragment, the wanting to give up...but, I promise you, you will feel better. As I have said in other posts,,,if you work this program even when you dont want to you will get better. I am a different person then I was 8 weeks ago due soley to God, this program, and the coaching program. I will be praying for you. You have the strength,,,one minute at a time. Keep that relaxation tape handy,,,listen to it as much as you can...and get working it. Exercise, eating well, etc. helped me tremendously. Keep leaning on us...We are here for you....

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 19, 2008 12:54 am

Phil,

Not sure if you will get this or not.1st thing is nursing homes are the hardest environments to work in as for getting along with you coworkers,your right everyone is stressed out,but that's across the board for nursing anyway in all area's of nursing,"Stress".On a positive note,your a new RN, so they are not going to expect Miracles from you.2nd I understand how anticipation of going to work builds up all day long as well.

What has helped me in the past is visualization of what your priorities at work are.It's not making small talk with your coworkers,it's your patient's.I've been a nurse for over 20 years so --- What you do is visualize your focus and I do mean focus at work,it's not getting fired it's your patient's,not making everyone one happy patient's or coworkers.It's getting report,assessments as best you can and really all they care about is getting the meds out,getting your notes done.So "Focus" Report assessments,meds,notes,it may be meds 1st though as well as doctors orders.Other then that,families and the other communication is part of the job ,but keep it secondary.Keep an attitude of ,"I'm always learning".Don't be afraid to ask questions.Another thing is to forget the ego's around you,lots of head trips in nursing.Control your area of focus and don't let anyone or anything compromise your priority list of focus.There are lots of things you can't control,give them up,but you can control your list,it may vary in priority at times ,but stay to your focal priority.It also helps as you visualize yourself doing things in the order that you would like to think of what's primary and what's secondary.If you do that you will find that many things fall in the secondary category.It may as was stated above help to look around while working this present job,that will also give you some hope.If you ever want to talk more just PM me.

Sincerely,Sit

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 19, 2008 2:17 am

Dear Phil,
I just read your message and please know that I too am praying for you. I am also a Christian. I think any of us with panic disorder have been where you are and we are all at different stages. I am in week three of the program and already notice a difference in my attitude and the way I respond to anxiety and scary thoughts. Don't stop doing the program! I still have a long way to go but I actually drove on the freeway without freaking out. I have also felt that in the past I cried out to God and he didn't here me but in reality I know He has been with me every step of the way, otherwise I would not have survived. You will make it and God promised to never leave or forsake us. One of the verses I pray daily is "I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delievered me from all my fears." Psalm 34:4. In the midst of the panic attack it is hard to keep things in perspective but this program is teaching me that my thoughts are what causes my fear and I have to look at what is really bothering me to get to the root of the anxiety. I work for a hospice so I deal with death all of the time and there are situations that I am really afraid but I tell God if He wants me to do his work, He must give me the strength and peace of mind to do it and he hasn't failed yet. Keep praying and doing the program. I will continue to pray for you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 19, 2008 3:03 am

Believe me, I do know the bombardment of the nursing home and all a nurse is responsible for. WHat I do every mornig on my wayt to work is "Plead the blood" of Jesus over my mind, soul, body and spirit and over the nursing center that I work. Ipray that God goes before me and makes all the crooked places strait and cause the day to go smoothly and quickly. I have been praying this for some time now and it works! I make a point to do this every day on the way to work. In a place like this you have to or you will be bombarded every day. You should also pray that God will give you favor with those in authority and all those you work with and the patients. Then cast all your cares on the Lord cause he does care for you. He wants us to have a happy, peaceful, joyful and abundant life. Try this. Write the prayer down and pray it over yourself every day and let me know what happens!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Oct 19, 2008 5:18 am

"Plead the blood" of Jesus over my mind, soul, body and spirit and over the nursing center that I work. Ipray that God goes before me and makes all the crooked places strait and cause the day to go smoothly and quickly. I have been praying this for some time now and it works! I make a point to do this every day on the way to work. In a place like this you have to or you will be bombarded every day. You should also pray that God will give you favor with those in authority and all those you work with and the patients. Then cast all your cares on the Lord cause he does care for you. He wants us to have a happy, peaceful, joyful and abundant life. Try this. Write the prayer down and pray it over yourself every day and let me know what happens!

I'll try that and see !!! Thnx

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 27, 2008 1:03 am

I am on week 3 of the program, and so far very little in the way of positive results. I am overcome by anxiety when it comes to thinking about my job, which always seems to be hanging over my head, and the thought that my oldest boy is going away to college next year. Positive self talk looked promising, but the lesson is too vauge. I am looking for some positive self dialog, but it escapes me. I am miserable. I continue to pray and pray, and read my Bible. My Shrink gave me a new med for anxiety, but it takes 3-4 weeks to be fully effective. When I feel bad, sad, anxious, I can rarely pinpoint the exact reason for it, and when I do, I have no possitive self talk to break those evil thoughts. Thank you all for being there for me. Thank you for your prayers. My circumstances are getting the better of me. I am lonely, depressed, sad and anxious. My habit of beating myself up is a comfort zone that I can't seem to break out of. I want to be happy. Please Lord, help me.

rose_thorn98 · Post by **rose_thorn98** » Tue Oct 28, 2008 2:49 am

i hate to hear of your distress but i have to say...i am in the same boat as you are. I have suffered from this for years and years, with the past 3 years being very bad. I have anxiety every minute of every day. Panic attack once every 2 days or so. it's a constant battle for me. I am always worried, scared, and feel alone. I don't know what the answers are.. i am only in week one, and though, it's comforting to know, I'm not the only one, i still don't know how to shut this off in my crazy head.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Nov 04, 2008 4:53 am

I am now in week 4 of the program and very frustrated. I cannot seem to get a handle on positive thinking. The anxiety is worse than ever, probably because I'm concentrating on it so much. I'm on very high doses of anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds and they're barely taking the edge off. I'm praying, reading, doing the program, taking my meds...when will this subside? I know none of what causes my anxiety will kill me, but believe me, I am far from worried about dying. I've even prayed that God will take me. I'm at the end of my rope.