Starting again

IcanBbetter · Post by **IcanBbetter** » Mon Oct 20, 2008 1:33 am

( I can see that others starting in October have used the September space for posting too, so now I don't feel so bad about writing in the wrong month.)
So I have started this program before but only gotten through session 5. However, just that small amount helped more than anything else, or than any other antidepressant.
Things have kept me from the tapes, like my own attitude and being busy trying to get my bachelor's degree.
I should be proud of myself because I seriously didn't think I would graduate on time, but I did it! I graduated back in December last year, and earlier this year I got engaged! So I can see that I don't have to let depression and anxiety stand in my way.
But, I still have depression and anxiety holding up my life daily. I let people push me around, and I'm still stressed out and feel upset and feel as if I'm doing something wrong all the time. I feel this may put me at risk for losing my new job, which is very nice and I am lucky to have, but usually am scared to go on a daily basis; and I'm afraid my great supportive fiance will get tired of how I'm acting.
I just want better for myself! So I'm excited that this kind of tool is even here for me, and I look forward to getting to know others who understand and are going through the same thing.

Here's to getting better for all of us, and reaching our goals, I know I can, I know anyone with anxiety and depression can.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 20, 2008 5:38 am

Welcome back and belated congrats on your graduation and engagement. You should be proud of your self for restarting the program. It has so much to offer you. Good luck and God Bless.

Sara's Mom · Post by **Sara's Mom** » Mon Oct 20, 2008 6:30 am

Yes, I can relate, even the comment about be afraid of using the wrong month! Lordy, I had to laugh because I was doing the same thing. And being slow about starting and then feeling anxious because "Oh, I've had the program for 3 weeks and I'm only on week two and I am not doing exactly like they said because I have such a hard time setting time aside for myself. Oh, FYI
I am married and have two boys, one is a freshman in college and the other is in sixth grade. Lets keep up the encouragement to one another and keep doing the program even if we are in the wrong month forum! We are all in the right place and that's all that counts. Anxiety be gone! I me new motto. God bless you.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 20, 2008 7:02 am

Hey I read your story and what you are going through. Congrats on finishing school and getting married. You have accomplished something I want to one day. You are my shero. The same thing you are going through at work I have in the past and have put my foot down and don't let others boss me around. Sometimes I get too angry too fast and have really try to see things from their perspective, but I'm glad I have that defense mechanism within myself to speak up for myself. I would like to get to know others that are going through the same thing as me. I hope to hear from you soon. Bye and God Bless You

Originally posted by IcanBbetter:
( I can see that others starting in October have used the September space for posting too, so now I don't feel so bad about writing in the wrong month.)
So I have started this program before but only gotten through session 5. However, just that small amount helped more than anything else, or than any other antidepressant.
Things have kept me from the tapes, like my own attitude and being busy trying to get my bachelor's degree.
I should be proud of myself because I seriously didn't think I would graduate on time, but I did it! I graduated back in December last year, and earlier this year I got engaged! So I can see that I don't have to let depression and anxiety stand in my way.
But, I still have depression and anxiety holding up my life daily. I let people push me around, and I'm still stressed out and feel upset and feel as if I'm doing something wrong all the time. I feel this may put me at risk for losing my new job, which is very nice and I am lucky to have, but usually am scared to go on a daily basis; and I'm afraid my great supportive fiance will get tired of how I'm acting.
I just want better for myself! So I'm excited that this kind of tool is even here for me, and I look forward to getting to know others who understand and are going through the same thing.

Here's to getting better for all of us, and reaching our goals, I know I can, I know anyone with anxiety and depression can.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Oct 20, 2008 8:07 am

I can SOOOO relate to what you've said here. I, too, always think I am doing something wrong, even when people tell me how good of a job I am doing. I am a teacher (have been for ten years), and I always feel as if I am doing something that will not be able to reversed. I have worried thoughts all day, sometimes to the point of insomnia. I was so relieved to find this program and this forum that puts us all in touch with each other. I have only had the program for a week, but I can tell you that the first time I sat down with it, I felt instantly better. I hope to one day be able to deal with all the anxiety in my life and be able to really enjoy my life and my family to the fullest.

Originally posted by IcanBbetter:
( I can see that others starting in October have used the September space for posting too, so now I don't feel so bad about writing in the wrong month.)
So I have started this program before but only gotten through session 5. However, just that small amount helped more than anything else, or than any other antidepressant.
Things have kept me from the tapes, like my own attitude and being busy trying to get my bachelor's degree.
I should be proud of myself because I seriously didn't think I would graduate on time, but I did it! I graduated back in December last year, and earlier this year I got engaged! So I can see that I don't have to let depression and anxiety stand in my way.
But, I still have depression and anxiety holding up my life daily. I let people push me around, and I'm still stressed out and feel upset and feel as if I'm doing something wrong all the time. I feel this may put me at risk for losing my new job, which is very nice and I am lucky to have, but usually am scared to go on a daily basis; and I'm afraid my great supportive fiance will get tired of how I'm acting.
I just want better for myself! So I'm excited that this kind of tool is even here for me, and I look forward to getting to know others who understand and are going through the same thing.

Here's to getting better for all of us, and reaching our goals, I know I can, I know anyone with anxiety and depression can.

LUVG · Post by **LUVG** » Mon Oct 20, 2008 8:22 am

Congratulations on graduating and getting married.Hang in there be strong and don't let anything get you down.Much love.