Back again

jennkatz · Post by **jennkatz** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 5:06 am

I had a breakdown 13 years ago, and got the tapes and got better. A year ago I had a setback, kind of got over that.
Now, after being in crisis mode for many years-dealing with and autistic child, and adhd, suddenly everything is going well, my body doesn't know how to deal.
I have also switched to working daylight as opposed to evenings. Nighttime has always been a problem, but when I'm working at night I'm too busy to think about it. Now the attacks are coming at night or when I have down time during the day.
I just want it to go away. I'm angry, sad, and frustrated.
I'm going to talk to my Dr. tomorrow about getting something more powerful than buspar to get my body back on track. I'm also waiting for the program to try to defeat this again.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 5:16 am

Hey jennkatz, Welcome

I'm sorry you are having to deal with a set back but you know you were able to overcome issues before and WILL AGAIN.

Everyone is here to help, anytime.

Wishing you the best.

Be Kind To Yourself & Try to think positive thoughts every hour of the day.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Sep 24, 2008 7:37 am

Hi there,
I have to admit that your post made me "what-if" about once I actually recover if it'll hit me big time again and I'll crash. However, I walked away from the computer and thought about what that would be like for me and what it must be like for you. I think, of course, you feel crushed. Yuck. We don't want this in our lives at all. But, everything you learned 13 years ago is still in a file folder in your brain. It will come back. You'll have to re-train the brain again and that sucks, but thank goodness you know it is possible! You mentioned a few biggies that would stress anyone out so keep a focus on the reality of the hard stuff you've been dealing with in life.
Life is hard. God is good though. This loop is for a reason. I believe you'll get through it successfully.
All the best!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Sep 25, 2008 1:21 pm

I think the difference this time is that there are more stresses in my life now, than when I had this before. I have had to deal with an bi-polar husband, and autistic child and one with rage problems that turned out to be ADHD. Now things are calming down, and my body is still on crisis mode. So don't worry about crashing. I just didn't keep up with what I learned.