I don't want to hurt anyone at all
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I'm so afraid all the time that something bad is going to happen in my future,
and sometimes when I am just watching t.v. or something I just get afraid of people...
idk I'm afraid they are monsters or something I don't really think that cause I think people are beautiful and God made them beautiful and I know I'm a person but sometimes I just get scared and I know I shouldn't be afraid of something like this and it is aweful and I'm afraid I'm going crazy because of it...but I am seriously afraid. I'm getting meds soon and hopefully they will work but does anyone have any positive advice? Does anyone know what I'm talking about? My counselor says it is from very low self esteem but I don't want to be afraid of people!!! That is so scary to be afraid of everyone...these scary episodes only last a few seconds but they are getting a little longer and I need help before it makes me start really being afraid of people all the time
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Please help and pray for me I pray all the time but I need as much prayers as I could get
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This is weird but sometimes I just get afraid of people in general PLEASE HELP!!!
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Okay so I have something to add. I don't know if I made this clear, but basically what I'm feeling is:
I can just look at someone and get a panic attack. Like sometimes people just give me panic attacks. I don't really think that I'm scared of what they think of me, or that they're out to get me. Sure, I worry about these things sometimes but the panic attacks I'm talking about right now are just random. I haven't been able to sleep cause I feel like I'm a bad person. I am seeking God a lot and I'm afraid I have a bad soul that is afraid of God's most amazing creation. I think I realized why I'm feeling this way though. I'm terrified I'm going to hurt someone or myself, and so maybe I'm just so used to being afraid of hurting someone that I don't have time to think of the hurting part and I just get afraid of people in general.
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And I feel really crappy right now cause I'm trying so hard to find all the good things about people and although I know people are amazing my brain just won't think or feel anything good. You know what I mean? Like when you're anxiety gets so confusing that you can't think of anything good. I'm usually a very sensitive person with a lot of emotions. When I see others sad, I feel their pain. Heck, sometimes I want to cry when I see a little kid holding a stuffed animal or something. I don't know why but I think it's just so precious. But at the moment, I'm trying so hard and I don't feel anything. The only thing I feel right now is an empty smothering sensation in my chest because I'm afraid I have a bad heart.
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Please help
I told the truth on everything, and I just want to know if you guys think I need serious help (I'm getting serious help anyways) but I mean if you guys think it's so bad that it's beyond anxiety. Sometimes I'm just afraid of my own self and I just want to run and hide and I feel doomed. And like I said I'm afraid that my soul is bad and that God doesn't love me or if it's my soul that is scared of everyone and if I'll just be a bad person in general that goes to hell :[ I love Jesus and God so much and sometimes I get blasphemous religious thoughts but I want God to love me and I want to be able to go to Heaven and not have a lost soul.
Thank you for reading<33
I can just look at someone and get a panic attack. Like sometimes people just give me panic attacks. I don't really think that I'm scared of what they think of me, or that they're out to get me. Sure, I worry about these things sometimes but the panic attacks I'm talking about right now are just random. I haven't been able to sleep cause I feel like I'm a bad person. I am seeking God a lot and I'm afraid I have a bad soul that is afraid of God's most amazing creation. I think I realized why I'm feeling this way though. I'm terrified I'm going to hurt someone or myself, and so maybe I'm just so used to being afraid of hurting someone that I don't have time to think of the hurting part and I just get afraid of people in general.
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And I feel really crappy right now cause I'm trying so hard to find all the good things about people and although I know people are amazing my brain just won't think or feel anything good. You know what I mean? Like when you're anxiety gets so confusing that you can't think of anything good. I'm usually a very sensitive person with a lot of emotions. When I see others sad, I feel their pain. Heck, sometimes I want to cry when I see a little kid holding a stuffed animal or something. I don't know why but I think it's just so precious. But at the moment, I'm trying so hard and I don't feel anything. The only thing I feel right now is an empty smothering sensation in my chest because I'm afraid I have a bad heart.
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Please help
I told the truth on everything, and I just want to know if you guys think I need serious help (I'm getting serious help anyways) but I mean if you guys think it's so bad that it's beyond anxiety. Sometimes I'm just afraid of my own self and I just want to run and hide and I feel doomed. And like I said I'm afraid that my soul is bad and that God doesn't love me or if it's my soul that is scared of everyone and if I'll just be a bad person in general that goes to hell :[ I love Jesus and God so much and sometimes I get blasphemous religious thoughts but I want God to love me and I want to be able to go to Heaven and not have a lost soul.
Thank you for reading<33
Calm down. Breathe. Our thoughts are not our actions. They do play a major part in how we feel, but trust in yourself. You are not a bad person. Be patient with yourself. Love yourself. God already does.
Try not to watch any violence on the tv. You'll learn about that in the program. What we put into our heads is what is going to be in there.
Good luck in the program. Trust in God, and trust in yourself. You are a good person.
I would recommend the book The Princess Within by Serita Ann Jakes.
Try not to watch any violence on the tv. You'll learn about that in the program. What we put into our heads is what is going to be in there.
Good luck in the program. Trust in God, and trust in yourself. You are a good person.
I would recommend the book The Princess Within by Serita Ann Jakes.
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Thanks so much
what is that book about?
and yeah I don't watch anything bad lol...
i was actually just watching a pantene pro-v commercial when i started freaking out
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its random I know...
it might be because i hate pantene pro-v because they animal test...
idk but thank you i still feel empty but i am trying my best to do everything i can
what is that book about?
and yeah I don't watch anything bad lol...
i was actually just watching a pantene pro-v commercial when i started freaking out
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its random I know...
it might be because i hate pantene pro-v because they animal test...
idk but thank you i still feel empty but i am trying my best to do everything i can
Wow, I have not been on here in a long time. Taylorhigbee, I know exactly how you feel about being scared of people and feeling like you don't have any emotion. I used to be so caring and so emotional. But then I experienced anxiety and panic attacks. And that turned into my scary thoughts. I have had many scary thoughts about hurting myself..pulling my hair out, death...you name it. I have had many scary thoughts about hurting other people. And I put myself into "future thinking" wondering if I will go crazy and actually go through with my thoughts. It made me scared to be around my fiance and my family. It made me scared to be around anyone because I thought that I was fooling everyone because inside I was really this evil person. I also got to the point where I couldn't feel anything. I used a sad tv show or a commercial that would make me cry. Or I would hear about something awful that happened and I would have so much sympathy. But it got to the point where I didn't feel anything. And this made me feel like a bad person. Like I didn't care. Like I had no heart. I also am a Christian and I pray and read my bible and I truly believe that God allows us to go through these things to understand that He is the one in control. I have had such a hard time giving it all up and allowing to take control. Realizing that He will never give us more than we can handle and that He has good things planned for us is a hard thing to accept in the midst of anxiety. I was really bad with it for a long time, but I am getting better now. Although this week has been hard because my fiance and I are going on our first vacation together this weekend. I have not gone on a vacation and been away from my "comfort zone" since I have been dealing with anxiety/OCD scary thoughts. Now all of a sudden I have been getting scary thoughts like what if I go crazy while I'm gone or I do something to hurt us? I know I would never do these things. My therapist told me that you have to be your best friend. You have to be your cheerleader. When these thoughts come to you, you have to tell yourself you ARE ok and you WON'T act on your thoughts. You have to tell yourself they ARE only thoughts. God is control. He knows your inner most thoughts. He knows you better than you know yourself. I used to think He was punishing me with this. But now I know He is using to teach me to rely on Him every minute of everyday and realize it is not only MY life. I hope this all makes sense. Sorry for the rambling. I hope it helped you a little. It was kind of theraputic for me to type this out. I hope you are doing better. God bless you.
Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God.
~~ Ronald Reagan
~~ Ronald Reagan
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Hi! I am new to the program and started week 2 today. I decided I need a little more help, the program is wonderful, but I decided to get one on one personal coaching(click on top of screen if you are curious)
where they design a program just for me to cater to my obsessive fears, depression, panic, and anxiety attacks. I have felt like I have been having a constant panic (anxiety)attack since March of this year and this is my 3rd "breakdown" in my life. I am not bouncing back as quick as I did the last time, it was hard the last time. I think with the personal coaching and program designed for me that I will get quicker results. This may be a good thing for you. I hate feeling afraid all the time and my obsessive fear is of losing my mind and being put away in a hospital. I have become too obsessed about it. At times when I feel normal and happy it doesn't feel normal. I can't get it to "stick" in normal. I pray for all of us every night. I am excited about my personal coaching and program. You may benefit quicker from that also! Gods blessings to us all. I believe God led me to this program.
where they design a program just for me to cater to my obsessive fears, depression, panic, and anxiety attacks. I have felt like I have been having a constant panic (anxiety)attack since March of this year and this is my 3rd "breakdown" in my life. I am not bouncing back as quick as I did the last time, it was hard the last time. I think with the personal coaching and program designed for me that I will get quicker results. This may be a good thing for you. I hate feeling afraid all the time and my obsessive fear is of losing my mind and being put away in a hospital. I have become too obsessed about it. At times when I feel normal and happy it doesn't feel normal. I can't get it to "stick" in normal. I pray for all of us every night. I am excited about my personal coaching and program. You may benefit quicker from that also! Gods blessings to us all. I believe God led me to this program.
Hi freind! 
I hate it when counselers say that.
"You sound like you have low self esteem"
Like they are talking down to you. Yeah like that really helps my self esteem
You want to know what self esteem really is?
Its when you don't see yourself for who you really are, you don't see all your potential, you don't see the confidence...etc
There's a difference between having and seeing.
I counselor thinks you have to gain your self esteem. wrong
it's already there you just have to see it.
it never goes anywhere
sure you can boost it even more, but that'll just give ya a big head
You just have to realize the things you love to do, and keep doing them.
You have to take risks and talk to people in order to see your socialable side.
You have to take plunges to find your potential. I can help you out if your unsure of the things you like to do. When you finaly get there, you'll look back on how you thought your future was going to be like and give a little giggle Best of luck, and i'm here whenever you need a freind
I hate it when counselers say that.
"You sound like you have low self esteem"
Like they are talking down to you. Yeah like that really helps my self esteem
You want to know what self esteem really is?
Its when you don't see yourself for who you really are, you don't see all your potential, you don't see the confidence...etc
There's a difference between having and seeing.
I counselor thinks you have to gain your self esteem. wrong
it's already there you just have to see it.
it never goes anywhere
sure you can boost it even more, but that'll just give ya a big head
You just have to realize the things you love to do, and keep doing them.
You have to take risks and talk to people in order to see your socialable side.
You have to take plunges to find your potential. I can help you out if your unsure of the things you like to do. When you finaly get there, you'll look back on how you thought your future was going to be like and give a little giggle
Best of luck, and i'm here whenever you need a freind