need to vent!
Hello everybody! Okay I am stressed to the max! Let me tell you about my life! I have 5 kids who are 10, 7 6, 5, 2 4 boys 1 girl. I work 40 hours a week at a community health center as a nurse/casemanager/aids counselor/ translator I can do it all not really. I am married to the man I have been with since i was 15 I am 27 by the way. I have a mom who has lupus and is sick she is only 43 she had me when she was 15. I could go on for hours but I guess I just need balance in my life I just want to run and hide sometimes its definitely hard! Oh and today is 6 years since the first panic attack and I still have them but not as bad. ok well I just wanted to vent. Id like to here some stories of how some of you have went through some hard times and made it! Hugs to all!
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Guest
Hi there!
Bless your heart!! I can't believe what you are accomplishing. It is amazing.
But I know you are just worn out!
I wish I could offer solution but right now I can't think. I will study about this and see if I can think of something that would help and be a comfort.
But there are others on here that can really
come up with some ideas to help you. I'm pretty sure that they will.
All I can do is pray for you.
You just sound pretty special to me.
God bless!
I'll say a prayer for your Mom also.
Hang in there until you can get some relief.
Mary Jane
Bless your heart!! I can't believe what you are accomplishing. It is amazing.
But I know you are just worn out!
I wish I could offer solution but right now I can't think. I will study about this and see if I can think of something that would help and be a comfort.
But there are others on here that can really
come up with some ideas to help you. I'm pretty sure that they will.
All I can do is pray for you.
You just sound pretty special to me.
God bless!
I'll say a prayer for your Mom also.
Hang in there until you can get some relief.
Mary Jane
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Guest
Well, I must say that your situation sounds familiar. I too have children, 2-boys ages 6 & 2 1/2 and a 3 month old baby girl. I met my husband at 17 and I am 29. I have been in the banking business since high school. My mom suffers from many illnesses including depression. As a woman we must take on many roles, mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, co-worker and it is sometimes hard to find a balance? I was known as "supermom" but right now that is not the case. I supper from anxiety & panic attacks along with depression. I was struggling with this for six months which lead to my termination, i had been with this company for 7-years and i still feel angry with myself at times for not finding the balance, i just want to be the person i once was with a smile at the end of the day. It has been a year later and i am still struggling with depression and anxiety, but i returned to school fulltime and will pursue my original career path. I have to see this positively, perhaps it is my opportunity to put myself first- somedays I believe and others it is just so hard to get out of bed... Having children is the most wonderful thing in the world, but they need me and depend on me and sometimes the "balance" is overwhelming. I just want to tell you are a good person, treat so yourself well. Try to understand your limits, I have a hard time saying no to others, and saying yes to myself and that's a start. I used to believe that i was alone, I realize now that I am not crazy and I am not the only one experiencing these symptoms. You and I will be okay... I just know..Like my therapist says- Be gentle with yourself, it is really true in every aspect!
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Thanks so much for your support guys! Just being able to come on here and vent helps a lot. I started working out again this week and trying to eat better because that helps a lot. At least I can have control of something! LOL! My kids are my life and I love them more than I thought I could love anyone. I'm going continue to work on helping myself and being gentle with myself. Thanks again!
I completly undestad how you feel I am just 27yrs old I have 6 kids 10,8,6,4,1,8mos 4 girls 2 boys I have been married three years, meet my husband at 16. I work full time as a waitress at cornwells turkeyville in the dinner threta. And I am going to school right now to. I just feel overwhlamed. just wanted to say I understand. But I look at it this way god gave us this because he know we could handle it or figure out how to! stay strong. we cando this.
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nursekr,
First let me give you these: (((HUGS))).
I know the feeling of wanting to run away.
I adore my wife and she is very, very rarely part of my problems but I have images of myself on a desert island alone, with books sitting under a palm tree.
I have just come out of a difficult time. I hate my job and decided this June to look for work. I have a background in sales and customer service. I opted for sales first, had my resume redone, and sent them out. I really liked 3 companies and was refused by all of them. (I think this is because of a 9 year gap since my last sales jobs.) I was very saddened by this. I was also distressed with the whole job seeking process. It seems companies, espeially my favorite from those 3, were more concerned about if I applied online or not. I did but I am in front of you with my resume and you are more worried about the online application
.
Another one of the 3 I had an interview with a manager and felt really, really good about. I had a background in their industry. I got refused
. This also depressed me.
I got alot of offers from industries/companies I wasn't interested in. I didn't want to go from one disliked job to another. Within the past month I started sending out the customer service resume, also redone professionally, and finally got a job offer just last night
. One of the main reasons I got it is because a former co-worker is at the company and pushed hard to get me on board. This goes back to the old saying "It's not what you know, but who you know." It is in behavioral health--which I have firsthand knowledge of. 
I got through it by praying and my faith. I also have some internal strength which helped. My wife was a major support system. I also clung to hope, and was persistent and resilient in sending out the resumes, following up, etc.
Hope that helps.
First let me give you these: (((HUGS))).
I know the feeling of wanting to run away.
I adore my wife and she is very, very rarely part of my problems but I have images of myself on a desert island alone, with books sitting under a palm tree.I have just come out of a difficult time. I hate my job and decided this June to look for work. I have a background in sales and customer service. I opted for sales first, had my resume redone, and sent them out. I really liked 3 companies and was refused by all of them. (I think this is because of a 9 year gap since my last sales jobs.) I was very saddened by this. I was also distressed with the whole job seeking process. It seems companies, espeially my favorite from those 3, were more concerned about if I applied online or not. I did but I am in front of you with my resume and you are more worried about the online application
. Another one of the 3 I had an interview with a manager and felt really, really good about. I had a background in their industry. I got refused
. This also depressed me. I got alot of offers from industries/companies I wasn't interested in. I didn't want to go from one disliked job to another. Within the past month I started sending out the customer service resume, also redone professionally, and finally got a job offer just last night
. One of the main reasons I got it is because a former co-worker is at the company and pushed hard to get me on board. This goes back to the old saying "It's not what you know, but who you know." It is in behavioral health--which I have firsthand knowledge of. I got through it by praying and my faith. I also have some internal strength which helped. My wife was a major support system. I also clung to hope, and was persistent and resilient in sending out the resumes, following up, etc.
Hope that helps.
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Guest
Oh My Goodness,
I really am SOOOOOOOOOO VERY PROUD OF ALL OF YOU.
I am amazed at how well you are all doing with the hectic lives you have each and every day. Not many could handle all this as well as you are. I'm one of those people...well think I am since I only had 2 children and will never know if I could have handled 5 or 6 of my own. I cared for other children in my home (7) some days from infant to 10 years old. BUT they all went home at night but for the 2 oldest (father was a fireman) so they would stay over night but still went home at some point.
You deserve awards for excellence, seiously!!!
My only advice is no matter how hard it is you do need some down time, somehow, sometime in a day. Easier said than done...Right!!
My hard times came from different venues and all but destroyed me. I got very sick in 1991, we had our own business and worked some days till midnight. Took work home with us to finish. I ran the business in every aspect, plus did a lot of the physical work, took care of my two teens, made meals, cleaned, did the laundry, wasn't sleeping most nights, my body had turned against me, I was getting sicker, falling asleep at work, developed several infections and was ordered bed rest for at least 2 weeks. Then the guilt of not being at work and not doing everything I always had done set in. I was so upset at myself and all the bad things happening to me from every direction including problems with some family members and financial difficulties, and just too many things to mention. The stresses and depression now had a good grip on me again. Our business had to be closed eventually and we were left unemployed. WOW what a kick in the butt..we were sinking faster and faster. My husband went to a welding school, did very well, eventualy got a good job, I ended up working as a Home Support Worker and I took every patient I could get. I loved my job, worked hard at it, had many 12 hour days...that was ok but mentally and physically took it's toll on me. I did this for 2 years and took night school courses and helped train new HSW with certain patients. I hurt my lower back, couldn't barely move for a week, had to work in the office instead of working my normal job, hated it, so much bad, negative energy in that office but spent a year doing all different jobs, switchboard, filing, posts, faxing and whatever had to be done. I was still getting more and more symptoms and was so tired and just didn't feel well overall. Well I finally after 6 years of feeling so rotten was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, IBS, RLS, and had Epstein Barr Virus. It was a relief to know I wasn't imagining all my physical problems. I had to slow everything down...hard for me to do. I stil have everything but after all the years and meds and now the program I feel I am making headway and hope to return to a productive daily life very soon. I am off all meds but the 1 for restless leg syndrome. I am doing the program, stopped eating bad carbs, no more cola's or sweets, 1 cup of coffee a day, taking some supplements, my pain is generally manageable, I'm sleeping at night..finally, look forward to the mornings...finally and am enjoying life to the fullest each day. I still have sessions to do but have taken a few days off to work on our 1860's farm house. That's some of my story...ok it's a novel..sorry!!
I just wish you all the BEST in your lives.
God Bless you all.
Be Kind To Yourselves,
Prayers to you all.
I really am SOOOOOOOOOO VERY PROUD OF ALL OF YOU.
I am amazed at how well you are all doing with the hectic lives you have each and every day. Not many could handle all this as well as you are. I'm one of those people...well think I am since I only had 2 children and will never know if I could have handled 5 or 6 of my own. I cared for other children in my home (7) some days from infant to 10 years old. BUT they all went home at night but for the 2 oldest (father was a fireman) so they would stay over night but still went home at some point.
You deserve awards for excellence, seiously!!!
My only advice is no matter how hard it is you do need some down time, somehow, sometime in a day. Easier said than done...Right!!
My hard times came from different venues and all but destroyed me. I got very sick in 1991, we had our own business and worked some days till midnight. Took work home with us to finish. I ran the business in every aspect, plus did a lot of the physical work, took care of my two teens, made meals, cleaned, did the laundry, wasn't sleeping most nights, my body had turned against me, I was getting sicker, falling asleep at work, developed several infections and was ordered bed rest for at least 2 weeks. Then the guilt of not being at work and not doing everything I always had done set in. I was so upset at myself and all the bad things happening to me from every direction including problems with some family members and financial difficulties, and just too many things to mention. The stresses and depression now had a good grip on me again. Our business had to be closed eventually and we were left unemployed. WOW what a kick in the butt..we were sinking faster and faster. My husband went to a welding school, did very well, eventualy got a good job, I ended up working as a Home Support Worker and I took every patient I could get. I loved my job, worked hard at it, had many 12 hour days...that was ok but mentally and physically took it's toll on me. I did this for 2 years and took night school courses and helped train new HSW with certain patients. I hurt my lower back, couldn't barely move for a week, had to work in the office instead of working my normal job, hated it, so much bad, negative energy in that office but spent a year doing all different jobs, switchboard, filing, posts, faxing and whatever had to be done. I was still getting more and more symptoms and was so tired and just didn't feel well overall. Well I finally after 6 years of feeling so rotten was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, IBS, RLS, and had Epstein Barr Virus. It was a relief to know I wasn't imagining all my physical problems. I had to slow everything down...hard for me to do. I stil have everything but after all the years and meds and now the program I feel I am making headway and hope to return to a productive daily life very soon. I am off all meds but the 1 for restless leg syndrome. I am doing the program, stopped eating bad carbs, no more cola's or sweets, 1 cup of coffee a day, taking some supplements, my pain is generally manageable, I'm sleeping at night..finally, look forward to the mornings...finally and am enjoying life to the fullest each day. I still have sessions to do but have taken a few days off to work on our 1860's farm house. That's some of my story...ok it's a novel..sorry!!
I just wish you all the BEST in your lives.
God Bless you all.
Be Kind To Yourselves,
Prayers to you all.