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jinul1m64 · Post by **jinul1m64** » Sun Aug 31, 2008 7:37 am

Depersonalization has been toying with my mind yet once again. I know recognize it as an obsession that needs to be broken. It's just really hard because when you are derealized and depersonalized, you are overly aware about everything...including yourself and outside surroundings. You try to over analyze everything. For example my new obsession of over analyzing my thoughts are "that's so weird how I just thought that...isn't it so weird that I'm thinking like this right now...how am I actually seeing with my eyes." It's a really strange thing to try to explain but people who suffer from depersonalization/derealization should be able to relate. I think distraction is key in recovering though...I now realized that my constant checking for websites and forums about depersonalization has become quite destructive. It's gotten to the point where my every thought consists of something related to dp/dr. So from now on I will not look up any information pertaining to derealization/depersonalization.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 31, 2008 8:26 am

Honestly, I think thats a good idea! I think I will do the same with my crap. I obsess about what if i am depressed. So i look uo stuff on depression and medication for it and that just somehow makes me feel way way worse. so good for you!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 31, 2008 8:58 am

I suffer from this as well and i hate it the most, its scary and bizarre. I hope this program works!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 31, 2008 9:24 am

I had a bit of this at one time and I seemed to work of it so maybe I can speak to it. It may seem too easy or too simple but it seems the best thing to do when having the depersonlized feelings is just to keep telling yourself that it is anxiety. You are fine, you are real, the world around you is real....it is simply your brain playing tricks on you. As I understand it, when you have anxiety, panic, OCD, etc. which seems to come up out of the blue after years of being fine, you tell yourself things like "this can't be happening to me" or "I never used to be like this, I must be different". Tell yourself this enough and in some ways your brain is trying to protect you by trying to mess with your view of reality. Granted, I had a touch of it and not for long, I broke it fairly quickly by just realizing it was anxiety and getting the derealized thoughts out of my head when they'd pop up. Derealization isn't real, it doesn't mean you are crazy or sick or have a tumor....it is simply the conditioning you've installed in your brain and you need to break the conditioning.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 31, 2008 12:39 pm

I know this is a dumb question, but I don't know anything about depersonalization. I had seen it mentioned and thought it was something like drawing into yourself and maybe not connecting with others. Or maybe like not having sympathy or thinking things don't have anything to do with you.
The part on over-analyzing was something we just talked about the other night and how I seem to have to know exactly what's happening- hence the looking up everything on the computer about everything- not just medically. Right now, I'm doing tha twith politics. I assume I have to know everything to make the right decision, when in the grand scheme of things, it's just one vote- not going to make or break a candidate. But I would have assumed that depersonalization would be not thinking you can affect something or not letting it in your life. Can anyone shed light on the definition? I had intended to bring these things we talked about up to the therapist Tuesday. Maybe there's a name for what I do- yeah, I know, it's also obsessing

But I really want to move forward and break these habits.

aim1974 · Post by **aim1974** » Tue Sep 02, 2008 4:55 am

Oh no bevhembree. DP/DR is more than just drawing in. It is a seemingly uncontrollable feeling of being in a dream. Not feeling one with reality. You begin to question your own being, who you are, who the people are around you, are they real, are you real, etc. In my opinion it is the worse side effect of anxiety. There are several threads on this topic. The problem with DP/DR is that it feeds on obsessive thoughts. So like Jinul1m64 and Holly J said, the more you investigate, read, think about it, the worse it gets. I dealt with it for several months and it was terrible.

Bakedpears · Post by **Bakedpears** » Tue Sep 02, 2008 5:47 am

This topic is terrifying. Is there a trained professional anywhere on this forum that can address this issue and help to demystify it a bit? If so, please post asap.

Thanks in advance.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Sep 02, 2008 5:48 am

As a P.S. to my last past about depersonalization~ what can one do to try and get OUT of the rut/groove of this obsessive thinking?

Researching this on the net is just adding TO it.

Thanks!~

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Sep 02, 2008 6:09 am

We are here to talk to other about symptoms and other things of anxiety you might not have it but some of us do and i am one who does and talking about it does help but if there is a trained staff out there that can go in depth that would help

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Sep 02, 2008 7:21 am

There has been a lot of discussion on this topic. I've already suggested that they add a "Related Topics" section to the forum so people don't miss out on valuable discussions.

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Just know that this does come to pass. It is scary, but obsessive thinking is what fuels it. Stay active and try not to dwell on how you're feeling.

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