Yesterday I was looking at a description of "Pure O" OCD. It sounds so much like me!
I'm really excited because now I can redirect a little bit and hopefully make more progress. I just finished another anxiety program and it helped me a lot but it focused on facing your fears such as driving, elevators, whatever. Well, I've never really been one to avoid things like that. I have had a problem with a few things such as the heat and being afraid of meds, but my main problem is these constant ruminations.
I called my old CBT counselor and I'm going to talk to him again about this new thought and see what he thinks. I know there are specific techniques to help with pure O OCD. Maybe I can finally feel "all the way" better. I'm so much better than I was but not exactly where I want to be.
This past week has been tough. It's my PMS week and I got some stuff stuck in my head and have been driving myself crazy (and hubby) about it. If I can learn to ignore those thoughts or break the cycle of circular thinking, I'd feel so much better. It's the constant back and forth in my head that causes the panic attacks. Usually it's something to do with "am I crazy" and trying to figure out why I might or might not be. . . this last round had to do with playing a video game too much. It sounds silly but it really caused problems for me.
Anyway, not playing the game right now but still realizing that there's something I need to work on.
I'm feeling hopeful about this.
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