Conquer and defeat!
I can't believe how far I went and now feel as if I have lost my edge. The past two months have been awesome, but lately I seem on edge, have some racy thoughts again, but now know how to fight them off per se in order to avoid the big blow out, I am just frustrated cause I caught myself with a few what if comments in my head this evening after a nice walk (about 2miles).
Just frustrated, I had some confident posts from recent success, but feel as if I have (so far) taking one step backwards.
I know this may be normal, but I am frustrated by it. I had just regained my confidence, but feel it fading, not sure what happen.
I am starting to put some events together, but my wife thinks it is something else. Maybe these events (family relationships) are playing a role, but, in order to find out I would have to go back to being "in down time" with a relative.
It's definitely complicated and I wonder how much a role it plays. Being this person is my mother, I am in a bit of a tight corner if I do say so myself.
It is a long story, but when my big recovery started we had gone dark in conversation for one reason or another. Recently we have begun speaking more and I wonder if it may have anything to do with it.
I definitely want to be on the upside again. Maybe it is simply the stress of next week the wife going back to work and the kids going back to school. It's about to get hectic again.
Oh well, just had to vent and see if anyone can relate.
Thanks......
Frustrated
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