I need to know it will get better

Amy21 · Post by **Amy21** » Wed Aug 13, 2008 1:10 pm

My depression is the worst it has ever been, particularly the physical symptoms. I have the numb forehead feeling most of the day and can barely have enough energy to get through the day. I am just about finished with day three of the first week. I am very proud of what I have accomplished so far, but right now I just need to hear that these symptoms will go away. I am o tired of feeling tired.

Chai · Post by **Chai** » Wed Aug 13, 2008 1:35 pm

Amy,
I am so happy you are doing the program. It has truly been a Godsend for me. I am so very thankful for it. Anxiety and Depression simply drain you. This is so common to feel this way. I have had all the symptoms I believe a person can think of, but I am doing very well now, thanks to God and this program. Keep working the program and I truly believe you will be amazed at your progress. Don't give up, this program was the answer for me. You can do this, and better days are ahead for you. I wish you the very best and I know peace and contentment are just around the corner. It does take time and committment but it is worth every effort you put into this program.
Your Friend
Angla

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 13, 2008 2:32 pm

I agree with Angla. I'm not 100% but i'm much much better than before the program. I haven't had a panic attack in about 4 years now thanks to the program. I've found my stress level to significantly decrease along with those scary anxiety feelings.

If it makes you feel better I could actually explain on a physiological level how the program helps you.

Mike

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 13, 2008 2:47 pm

I can so relate to where you are coming from. I am in week two and the first week was a little rough. I guess I got a good look at myself and
what I was doing with my thoughts. Just knowing we are not alone makes things better. You should be proud of yorself in making the decision to learn how to help yourself. Keep it up and stay positive. Pauroa58

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Aug 14, 2008 2:50 am

My first week on this program, I felt like I was navigating the Mississippi River in a canoe without paddles ... upstream. First listen to the first CD, I knew it would help. I didn't know it would help this much. I am on Session 8. While on the program I have had a few serious setbacks, one was the loss of my favorite beloved pet. That week the DVD's and Relaxation CD were my lifesaver. When I hit a rough spot, or have a dilemma, I post a question in my peer group or the community. You can always send private messages to people you find more helpful to you. Hang in, we're all looking for the paddles to this canoe.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Aug 14, 2008 6:31 am

Thank you all!
it was really meaningful to me that you shared your stories. I have been having a really bad day today and reading your responses helped. I am finding myself wanting to be more assertive, but am finding it is coming out as anger. Maybe for the first time I am not trying to bottle up when I am mad? Last week, I lit into a poor Dunkin Donuts worker because it took me 15 minutes to get a bagel and it was still wrong. I might me just being hard on myself because for once in my life I stood up for myself and shared my feels and am now feeling guilty about it. I had the same kind of experience today at work when my helpfulness was returned with comments that I shouldn't have stepped in. I was so angry at the way they said it and felt like I never wanted to be helpful again. After reading your responses, I decided to go out to lunch instead of eating what I brought so I could get away and read while I ate and it made me feel a lot better. Thank you. i will definitely come back here to help others as well as seek help when I need it. I really want to do well with this probgram because every step I take I feel more and more hope.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Aug 14, 2008 7:04 am

Amy,

You WILL get through this. You WILL make peace with yourself. You WILL live a happy life. You MUST want it! You must not accept any excuses, only RESULTS!!!!

Be strong and focused for happier days! you'll be ok, I swear!!! Ask yourself how u want to live? because its all up to you. I know it hurts so bad to be positive and put in effort and you have no motivation AT ALL, i swear i know how u feel.. you think its going to go away on its own, thats what I did for so long. but it only got so much worse! So look at it right in the face and take it dowwnnnnn!!!

God speed!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Aug 14, 2008 7:14 am

It will get better if you stay with the program. I am in week 8 of the program and I am doing really really good. I still have not-so-good days but they are never as bad as they were before. I am able to talk to myself when I feel bad and bring myself out of it relatively quickly. Sometimes I need to go back and listen to earlier CD's, but overall I feel so much better. I figure I will be listening to these CD's for years to come.

had enough · Post by **had enough** » Thu Aug 14, 2008 12:42 pm

Thank you for your kind words. Its like what I keep hearing with the program, I didn't acquire these conditions overnight, it is going to take a while to learn the coping skills and use them effectively so I feel a significant difference. Sometimes I just get bogged down by my physical symptoms. The tiredness is the worse. Thank you for helping me to hang in there. I wish I could do the program in a bubble so I don't have to feel overwhelmed balancing it with the rest of my life, but if I didn't have the real life to practice on along the way, I'm the coping skills wouldn't mean much.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sat Aug 16, 2008 10:16 am

I wanted to comment on being assertive...sometimes when we first try we do go overboard...especially if we aren't used to not letting ourselves bottle stuff up. Yes it happened and you feel bad about it...so you can use this next time to motivate yourself to change your response. But realize that no ammount of guilt is ever going to solve a problem and you could always go back and appologize if it bothers you too much.

It does get easier...especially if you're using the relaxation cd everyday.

Mike