i just wanted to share, i couldn't contain my smiles anymore, and i know you all understand what i am going through.already...
i have already done session five, but i realize it is something that has to go on way beyond the session itself. honestly i didn't think i could do it. i was always afraid to exercise since it made my heart race. but as in my last post, i did it. i was scared, but i pushed through. the program is working well, and i hadn't had a panic attack in about three weeks, plus i hadn't had to take any xanax...until today. i didn't take any xanax, yay me! but i was in the tanning bed, and all of a sudden old thoughts started to cloud my mind, and a second later, i got a horrible chest pain, enough to make me push the tanning bed lid flying open and i jolted myself onto the floor. i tried to breathe and in another moment the pain went away. i sat there for a second, waiting for the panic and pain to return, but it didn't...and then i just burt into tears. tears of frustration, that i had failed somehow. it had no warning, i didn't expect it, and i just cried as if i was letting out every negative emotion contained in my body. i went home and knew i had planned on working out today, but because of earlier i was horrified, my left arm got tight and numb, and i didn't know what to do. i didn't let the panic set in, i kept saying, it will pass, and God is watching over me. then i marched my tush downstairs and i worked out til i couldn't take it anymore, and i LOVED it. no fear. today i am proud of myself in spite of my minor relapse. i can do this i just wanted to share, i couldn't contain my smiles anymore, and i know you all understand what i am going through.
i just wanted to share, i couldn't contain my smiles anymore, and i know you all understand what i am going through.-
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Yay for you!!! That is SO WONDERFUL!! I know when I had a huge breakthrough with my anxiety it was all I could do to contain my smiles!! Even though I don't know you personally I am SO PROUD of you!!! That is just such a wonderful feeling!! And you also didn't let your set back set you back...lol. The other day I had a huge set back...and let it set me back....BIG TIME! I'm through it now but props for you for dealing with the attack at the moment, and then going on about your day!! YAY!!!