:p I am feeling silly/happy/humbled/greatful/celebratory.Cute thing: this morning, I was so excited it was my birthday, I got up @ 5am, lol - its true, honest, ahaahahahha(I have off fr work this week too). Now, I can really say I feel like 40 going on 5, ahahahhah. Seriously, I am greatful I haven't lost that side of me - the child w/in. I am greatful I wanna celebrate this fabulous day, opposed to mourning turning older. That was very very important to me. There's no room for mourning, when you're as blessed as I am. I am as giddy as a grade school kid today, waking up CHRISTMAS MORNING - that is a gift w/in itself.
I woke up b/4 the roosters this morning(hubby & puppy stayed in bed). So, I put on a cup of coffee. Yes, I still have my 1 cup per day. As I was drinking the 1st sips of it, I was praying - giving my thanks to our God. I do this every morning & every nite b/4 falling asleep. I decided to write my 40TH BDAY GRATITUDE LIST. I put on some music(remember, 5am or not, even b/4 having that coffee, I was excited like a 5 yr old, lol) & got to writing. Some alone time, me w/ me.
My list composed of apprx 10 different things. They included my sincerest gratitude & humbledness @: my recovery: being given the means to get help, the help itself, & the "character - my character" to see recovery through. My recovery dictated I face many things, the past & myself. During this journey, I've come to realize how very different things could have been for me - both w/ the childhood experiences I've had & the severity of my anxiety disorder & the recovery process itself. All facts assumed, I truely feel devinely blessed & driven. There was some serious devine intervention going on. I am very greatful for the SUPPORT I've had during these past 3 1/2 yrs - my journey. Particularly, my hubby, psychiatrist, & friends - esp y'all here @ StressCenter.com. Yes, it was I who needed to do the work necessary - but no man or WOMAN
- is an island alone. I am no different. <span class="ev_code_RED">So, to you StressCenter.com GUYS & GALS, FRIENDS, - TO YOU I SAY "THKS A BUNCH".</span>So, my BDAY GIFT is realizing how truly blessed I am. Fortunately, I am greatful for many many things.
Here's to celebrating, not mourning - ^^^^^^^5.
Your Friend,
LENORE
