Proud of Myself

Mindi · Post by **Mindi** » Sun Aug 03, 2008 2:35 am

I don't have much time this morning as I am getting ready to go to church. But I had an EXTREMELLY WONDERFUL breakthrough last night. Ever since I had kids thunderstorms have given me high, high anxiety when they happen in the middle of the night. Last night I had insomina so I was awake in the living room just praying. The rain came, the thunder started. the lighting flickered, and the electricty kept going on and off. I felt my heart start pounding, my jaw get tighter and tighter, and I became hotter and hotter. When I realized what was going on, I stopped, took a deep breath and told myself it is ONLY anexity. Nothing is going to happen. The Lord is going to keep me and my family safe. I decided to just lean on Him and continue to pray. I decided to let the rain be my "relaxation CD" for the night. I started to relax and I guess I fell asleep because I don't know when the rain ended. When I would have a "what if" thought I would counteract it with another "what if". What if I make it through this and can actually be proud of myself for it? What if I just relax and enjoy what God has given me? It worked!! I am just SO excited and proud of myself. I just had to share!!!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 03, 2008 4:13 am

Congratulations, Mindi:
That is real progress! Very good.
I'm very happy for you.
Mary Jane

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Sun Aug 03, 2008 6:42 am

Congratulations! from me too you.

Keep going in the right direction and best of luck.

Errol

merrymelodies · Post by **merrymelodies** » Mon Aug 04, 2008 5:22 am

How very cool, Mindi! Isn't it interesting (and POWERFUL) what changing your perspective will do? Your experience reminded me of the storm where the apostles are out in a boat begging for Christ's help... similarly, you, too, were crying out for help; and guess, what, He was there for you, and in a way you NEVER expected!

<span class="ev_code_PURPLE">A heartfelt congrats to you and thanks to God!</span>
Emily

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Aug 04, 2008 9:44 am

So apparently this storm was a pretty bad storm. We had several people out from church yesterday morning because there were trees (big oak trees)in the road, and power outages everywhere. When I found this out I was THAT much more proud of myself for making it through. Also yesterday I had to call a meeting for the women in the church in regards to some baby showers that were coming up. Since I am in charge of them I had to do the meeting...and that was SO VERY hard! During the closing prayer in worship my heart was POUNDING!! But I just took a deep breath and went on with it. By the end of the meeting I was EXTREMLLY hot (which isn't too out of the oridnary...lol) and my mouth was SO dry...lol. But I did it!

fischee · Post by **fischee** » Mon Aug 04, 2008 10:30 am

Good for you. And your experience shows us how we can turn things around while we are inn the middle of high anxiety. I have found too, when I can turn things over to God's care and replace positive, calming thoughts with negative, self blaming ones--that I too can turn my attitude and feelings to be more calm. The challenge for me continues to be doing this when I'm in the middle of high anxiety. Next time I'll remember your experience. Thanks.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Aug 04, 2008 11:54 am

That is so awesome, Mindi! What an awesome God we serve, and what a incredible testimony to his provision! Keep on asking ...

Darb

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Mon Aug 04, 2008 12:30 pm

awesome! way to go! I too was startled by the thunderstorm this morning! A little anxious - but I told myself the same thing...it's just anxiety!

Yay GOD! Yay us!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Wed Aug 13, 2008 4:30 am

That's absolutely wonderful. Going through this program was a long struggle for me. I got so depressed that i wanted to die, i felt life had no meaning at all to me. I've watched myself come out o f that dark hole that i thought i was stuck in. Ive been going to church faithfully, i last month i got baptized, i have got so much better. My life has changed drastically, because of the grace of god and my determination to defeat this. Words can't describe how overlyjoyed with how things are going right now. I am just so happy and very grateful. God bless you!!