New and well on my way....

JeannieW · Post by **JeannieW** » Wed Jul 23, 2008 11:58 pm

Hey everyone, I have started the program 3 weeks ago and somewhat new here! I think this is the greatest...between the program and this discussion community, I am well on my way to a better life! My husband said to me the other day 'If this is you 3 weeks into the program, I cannot wait to see you at 15 weeks!'
Reading up on everything that everyone has and is going through is such a huge help! From the driving to women's monthly issues to going to church...just all of it...I too have gone through the same! I thought I was completely losing my mind and going insane until I found this website...I thought my mind was slowly deteriorating and whatever it was that was would surely be the death of me...but Wrong...that was just all part of that 'Negative Talk' stuff....I will be better, I already see some changes in me...

Onward, upward....smiling!!!

Jeannie

rose_thorn98 · Post by **rose_thorn98** » Thu Jul 24, 2008 2:43 am

Welcome Jeannie. I'm so glad to see your positive attitude already. You have a jumpstart from that point alone. Isn't it great, the website, the program, knowing you're not alone. That was and still is my biggest help. KNowing there are always people here who can relate with my anxieties/dep is such a help. I'm proud of you Jeeannie, keep up the good work. In good times or bad, remember, we're here for you.

missgsr · Post by **missgsr** » Thu Jul 24, 2008 3:19 am

Jeannie that is so great you have taken a step to the program. I don't know what I would do with the support of this website, it's a huge help! It is even better that your husband is so supportive. It's hard because a lot of peoples spouses don't understand this hell we go through. I hope your doing well!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jul 31, 2008 9:06 am

Thanx ladies!
I had a doctor apt yesterday for a check-up and my doctor told me that because I was doing soooo much better, I can stop taking my anxiety meds twice per day and just take them when needed (no more than twice per day). So last night, I did not take any meds...all night I had Awful dreams, I woke up at 3am and couldn't get back to sleep...finally I did and I got up feeling sleepy, but GREAT!
Well, that was short-lived! I battled to stay in control of my anxiety all morning and I thought I was doing really good when out of nowhere I just let go of the fight and had a major panic attack! I went for my meds and I was trembling so bad, trying to pour a glass of water...but I did it...but only took a half pill, instead of whole...and within 20 minutes I was back to normal and no anxiety at all for the rest of the day!
I did not realize exactly what my anxiety meds were doing until I stopped....I still have a long way to go...but I AM better than before I got the program! At least now I know what it is and not so afraid of the unknown!
Hey...panic attacks are good right? Practise with controlling them!!
**Smiles**

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Thu Jul 31, 2008 10:53 am

I imagine that your drugs are both an emotional crutch and something that changes your body chemistry. I'm surprised your doctor said to quit them sudddenly. planned weaning seems more prudent.

Sure, practice makes perfect. I hope you find a comfortable way to stay off the meds.