Applying for job....

P&P · Post by **P&P** » Tue Jul 22, 2008 3:41 am

Hello

I've been working on my resume and have to get it done for today, seeing as a position I'm applying for, closes tomorrow. The thing is, as I'm writing my resume, I feel like an imposter. I don't know if this is just the anxiety speaking. I have a tought time having faith in myself. I've just graduated from University. I'm in need of a good full time job, so I'm applying for a position at one of the universities here. I'm feeling a bit underqualified for the job, my boyfriend who already works there, reassures me that I'm not. But I can't help but feel like I'm not all that smart or intelligent enough to work there. I did well in University, not great, but decent grades so I feel as if there's no reason to feel this way. I tend to obsess over the way I write and compare myself to others, thinking they write better than I do. It never feels good enough.

Sometimes I'm worried it's not self esteem based but that I'm actually not that smart. I REALLY struggled throughout elementary school. I remember being pulled out of class to read with the resource teacher and it made me feel so stupid, especially around all the other kids. Despite earning good grades in high school and doing well in University, I can't seem to shake the sense of not being very smart.

I also have a father who has some self esteem issues. Despite being very loving, he's always made me feel as if I wasn't that bright. I once told him I wanted to go into interior design and he said "do you think you can handle that?" It made me feel like my own dad doesn't even think I'm very smart. Whenever I get good grades at school, he seems kind happy but kind of surprised. Even though I know I'm capable.
Sorry, for venting so much. Once I start, I just can't stop!

Any advice as to how I can start believing in myself??
Thanks,
Jo

baby_g · Post by **baby_g** » Tue Jul 22, 2008 3:52 am

First and foremost, you DID do well in high school and well in University too! That's a huge accomplishment.

Wouldn't you say that if you put your mind to it, you can learn what you want? You've proven that already.

As far as the current job application, you know it's not just the experience that they want. Employers are looking for GOOD people. They want someone who is trainable if they don't have the skills, but they have a good work ethic, are honest and respect others.

You also don't know what the purpose of applying for this position is, in the end. You may get the job, or it could be a lesson to show that you don't want it, but that you know you could do it if you got it. That would help encourage you to go for something you're more enthusiastic about (if you aren't enthusiatic about this position)!

Best wishes to you in this endeavor. It'll be a great adventure no matter what the outcome.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 22, 2008 3:56 am

Jo...you GRADUATED from University...that's in itself is a huge accomplishment! It's a shame that we tend to remember/obsess on negatives when in fact we have SO many positives...and more than likely, had we not experienced the negatives, our positives may not have had an opportunity to transpire! Please be kind to yourself and believe that God gave you ALL the tools you need, in order to do the work that HE has in store for you! Hold your head high and be proud of yourself...you'll be a great addition to any company/organization luck enough to have you!
Best wishes!

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 22, 2008 4:43 am

Dear P&P I so glad I saw your post. Sometimes we think we're the only one who feels the way we do and then...
I read this post and I want to tell you you're not alone. I am going through the same doubts as you. I felt in some ways as if I could have written your post. Hopefully with this program you will begin to see your strengths and have more belief in yourself. I wish the same for myself and others struggling to discover their own self worth

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 22, 2008 5:20 am

You guys are awesome. Thanks for being here and being so supportive. P&P, go for it. Just interviewing will be good for you. Learn these skills now while you are so young. You will be glad you did.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 22, 2008 6:07 am

Wow! SCDon is right, you guys are amazing!! It's so nice to be able to come to a place and receive so much support and encouragment. It means the world to me! Just reading your responses makes me feel better. I will try my absolute best. Deep down I know I'm smart, it's just that sometimes I think or expectations of ourselves is SO great that we can never achieve that level of sucess (because it's impossible) and are disappointed in the end.
Smartestgirl, best of luck to you!! We'll both get through this