worried about doing well

ellkay · Post by **ellkay** » Tue Jul 15, 2008 2:27 am

I have a history of panic attacks and anxiety. I haven't been on medication for about a year now and am doing pretty well. I have my days where I spend half the day reading all of the old material to bring me back to reality. However, my "newest" anxiety is this....... my husband and I have never made a lot of money but we can't complain. Well the last year both of our jobs have totally kicked off - we are both doing so well and making great money. For some reason I am worried about doing so well. I feel like something bad is going to happen - so I am afraid to be happy about it and enjoy it. Is this normal for some one with anxiety and panic. I feel scared for some reason - I just don't understand....

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 15, 2008 2:44 am

Elkay I can relate to some of your concerns. It's my negative thinking oh no, somethings going to happen, we'' lose our jobs, our tenants may move out, what if we cn't afford the mortgages, what if we spend more that we can afford, what if the cost of gas/groceries etc. It's like the negative takes off. My anxiety makes me feel like I'm not worthy. But I am worthy. My husband and I work hard. We are responsible with our monies and we live within our means. It's just all the negative junk we spend our time dwelling on instead of the present moment. Tell yourself it's just thoughts. Spend 15 mintues being action oriented and writing out a plan to counter your worries. Write out a +affirmation that you can read until you have it memorized to counter the negative thought. I find this most helpful. Take care and God Bless.

Guest · Post by **Guest** » Tue Jul 15, 2008 2:45 am

This is what my sister and I refer to as "waiting for the other shoe to drop", you feel like there has to be some "bad' around the corner, because you are doing too well.
I have this same fear. Hit me at 40, because I am healthy, have a great husband, family and friends, job, etc. Now I wonder "when" is my something bad coming and how will I handle it?

This is totally normal for anxiety, the way I choose to combat it is to wake up everyday and be thankful in my own way to God for giving me my blessings. Live today for today. Be in this moment, not in the past nor the future.

Hope this helps some, it is always comforting to know you aren't the only feeling this way.

LUVG · Post by **LUVG** » Tue Jul 15, 2008 2:54 am

It is extremely helpful to know that I am not the only one that has the same feelings. Thank you for responding to me - it does help me.

I tend to worry that my thoughts are "visions" that they might happen to me if I think about them so then I worry terribly about what I am thinking about. Does that make sense?