ANGER!
does anybody else while doing these exercises to keep us from panicing get mad and think to yourself WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THIS TO BE NORMAL! cuz i do. At night when i am tossing and turning and not sleeping i will turn on the relaxtion cd (which takes my mind off of my touble for a while but does not put me to sleep) get annoyed that you have to have a relaxation CD? I miss my independence i miss that feeling that i can handle anything life throws at me i miss my freedom. And to if your a christian do you ever think this would be so much easier if i didn't have to worry about God helping me and believe that he will comfort me I get mad because i feel like my prayers and praise fall from my lips to my feet never going any further then the air inbetween. so this morning when i got out of my bed my heart was pounding what if your not in Gods will, What if you go t hrough this and learn nothing, what if what if what if, so my solution is this I WILL TAKE CONTROL i will believe that i am causing myself this grief and that its not God its not satan is my own mind that is causing me to belive that God wants unreaasonable service from me and that i can't do it and that he will keep me like this till i obey i will choose to believe that i have a disorder and that I need to make it better i will pray as if i know he hears me and just hope for the best is that wrong? I cant sit around and wait anymore i can't live like this anymore! My poor family, my nieces and nephews, my coworkers, everybody is worried and i need to make it STOP. so has anybody ever felt this way before?
I used to feel this way all the time. " Why do I have to work so hard to overcome this when there are all these people out there who just live and don't worry about it?" It was like I started resenting people who didn't have any anxiety! I have finally just accepted 'what is' and stopped resisting, fighting and analyzing and focused not on 'why me?' but on 'what is' and what I need to do about it for myself. Everyone has their own unique issues and burdens and things they may need to overcome. Ours may just be anxiety and panic. Once you stop fighting it you may be able to get a handle on it. Just a suggestion from someone who has been panic and pretty much anxiety free since completing the program.
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Hi lael. I can understand your anger and frustration. I often get angry at myself as though I have a choice in the matter. I will be like, "why can't I just be normal? Why can't I just GO TO CLASS, GO TO WORK, DO WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO, and be a responsible adult???? What the F is my problem???"
Sometimes, our will is not enough to overcome a behavior or thought process and we do need divine intervention. On the other hand, we can't just be stagnant - we must move forward in the direction to which He has called us, and for you I believe it is being free of anxiety. Doing this program is just one tool to help you; God will reveal answers for you, and give you strength and patience if you ask. Just ask for patience. It is a process. One verse that helped my perspective on my difficulties is James 1:2, which says...
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
So trails are good because they refine us and God is usually trying to draw us closer to Him through these situations. This is an exciting time. So whatever you do, don't get angry at God, don't beat yourself up, but realize that, like Lucinda says, anxiety and depression truly are the enemy. God helps fight out battles for us. He will give you strength, courage, wisdom, and patience if you simply ask and believe. JAmes goes on to say in verses 5-6:
"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."
Maybe ask God what He's trying to tell you during this period of struggle. Usually he wants to teach us something through all this. I know it's hard to be patient, but just adopt the perspective that you will grow to be so much better than you were prior to going through this time of testing. This is your battle - OWN IT!
I hope that helps!!!
Sometimes, our will is not enough to overcome a behavior or thought process and we do need divine intervention. On the other hand, we can't just be stagnant - we must move forward in the direction to which He has called us, and for you I believe it is being free of anxiety. Doing this program is just one tool to help you; God will reveal answers for you, and give you strength and patience if you ask. Just ask for patience. It is a process. One verse that helped my perspective on my difficulties is James 1:2, which says...
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
So trails are good because they refine us and God is usually trying to draw us closer to Him through these situations. This is an exciting time. So whatever you do, don't get angry at God, don't beat yourself up, but realize that, like Lucinda says, anxiety and depression truly are the enemy. God helps fight out battles for us. He will give you strength, courage, wisdom, and patience if you simply ask and believe. JAmes goes on to say in verses 5-6:
"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."
Maybe ask God what He's trying to tell you during this period of struggle. Usually he wants to teach us something through all this. I know it's hard to be patient, but just adopt the perspective that you will grow to be so much better than you were prior to going through this time of testing. This is your battle - OWN IT!
I hope that helps!!!
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