I am happy to say that I for the past couple of weeks my anxiety has been low. I have been able to do most of the things that I was at once not able to do. On the other hand my depression is at an all time low. Not in the way I want to kill myself but I am just not happy, no energy, and I feel like I do things just to pass the time until the day ends and not because I enjoy them.
My boyfriend and I were watching tv the other day and he asked my why I never hang out with any friends. I guess the answer is I don't really have any. It is so sad and I feel like a loser. I do have friends at work and stuff, but none that I hang out with. My best friend and I were inseperable from first grade until we graduated high school. We still talk but she lives in another state. I felt comfortable with her, she new all about my OCD and anxiety.
I do hang out with people occasionally, but I always feel uncomfortable because they still like to party and get wasted every night, and I have passed that phase. It makes me feel so bad because if I am not at work or hanging out with my boyfriend I am almost always by myself. Does anyone else feel this way??
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Hi Anna,
No I don't feel the same way but I have in the past.
It is uderstandable that you prefer time by yourself, this is time to work on you. Don't focus on what others think this will only give you more problems to entertain in your head.
I have times where I feel I don't connect with people ,or friends I find I have out grown. It doesn't bother me, I have the same best friend since grade 2 and also 5 sisters and this is pretty much who I spend time with.
Keep thinking positive and know that it will get better.
No I don't feel the same way but I have in the past.
It is uderstandable that you prefer time by yourself, this is time to work on you. Don't focus on what others think this will only give you more problems to entertain in your head.
I have times where I feel I don't connect with people ,or friends I find I have out grown. It doesn't bother me, I have the same best friend since grade 2 and also 5 sisters and this is pretty much who I spend time with.
Keep thinking positive and know that it will get better.
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Hi Anna. I just want you to know that I know where you're coming from. I've been very depressed these past few weeks. I have no energy. No motivation. I feel like there's nothing to look forward to and desperately try to find things to pass the time, to tire me out so I can just go to sleep and not think about anything. Then I wake up and it's the same cycle. When I do work up the energy to go outside, it's a terrible ordeal. I'm convinced that everyone is looking at me, that they think I look awful, ugly, that they notice that I'm freaking out about it. I can't wait to go back indoors. But once I do, again, I become down and sluggish and want to cry because I feel stuck and frustrated. For now, I'm just trying real hard to think positively, to remind myself that I need to respect myself and my body by being more active. That I'm a likable person. That I CAN be confident. That I don't look as awful as I think I do and that people aren't out to judge me. That this phase will pass. It works 80% of the time. 
Our worst enemy is always our own thoughts, but we can choose to be assertive and make our thoughts our best weapon. I hope the best for your situation and that you find comfort in knowing that there are others out there like you and me, struggling, fighting, succeeding.
Giselle
Our worst enemy is always our own thoughts, but we can choose to be assertive and make our thoughts our best weapon. I hope the best for your situation and that you find comfort in knowing that there are others out there like you and me, struggling, fighting, succeeding.Giselle
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rose_thorn98
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Hi Anna,
I know how you feel, to the point where it could have been me writing that post. My anxiety has also been low lately, but I have had no interest in being around friends. Ive even taken time off work because I just dont feel like I could do my job feeling like this.
I guess all we can do is work on ourselves during this "downtime" and hope that it will pass, and I am sure it will when the time is right. The hard part is making the committment to work on feeling better. My days have consisted of waking up, watching tv, going on the computer, eating, sleeping and only going out when I absolutely have to. I know that I cant keep doing this, it isnt healthy. But I need to make that committment to myself, before I wind up worse off than I already am. I just feel like I have no physical drive to do so.
I used to be a big partier, and it seems like all my friends want to do is party. I have quit drinking completely and I dont want to be around people who are partying. But I know eventually I will have to. I hear exercising can really make you feel better mentally ( i just havent gotten up off the couch to actually do it) and writing down how you feel can really take a load off your mind. I guess its something we both need to work on.
I know I want to have a healthy social life again and I am sure you want that as well. We just need to work on ourselves a bit more before that can happen. If you want you can PM me and we can givee eachother some support. I knoww I need it anywayss.
jadee
I know how you feel, to the point where it could have been me writing that post. My anxiety has also been low lately, but I have had no interest in being around friends. Ive even taken time off work because I just dont feel like I could do my job feeling like this.
I guess all we can do is work on ourselves during this "downtime" and hope that it will pass, and I am sure it will when the time is right. The hard part is making the committment to work on feeling better. My days have consisted of waking up, watching tv, going on the computer, eating, sleeping and only going out when I absolutely have to. I know that I cant keep doing this, it isnt healthy. But I need to make that committment to myself, before I wind up worse off than I already am. I just feel like I have no physical drive to do so.
I used to be a big partier, and it seems like all my friends want to do is party. I have quit drinking completely and I dont want to be around people who are partying. But I know eventually I will have to. I hear exercising can really make you feel better mentally ( i just havent gotten up off the couch to actually do it) and writing down how you feel can really take a load off your mind. I guess its something we both need to work on.
I know I want to have a healthy social life again and I am sure you want that as well. We just need to work on ourselves a bit more before that can happen. If you want you can PM me and we can givee eachother some support. I knoww I need it anywayss.
jadee
~The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.
Martin Luther King, Jr~
Martin Luther King, Jr~
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Hey Anna,
Yes, I do know how you feel. I was exactly where you are for a number of years actually. My advice is to not dwell on it. I know this program is working for me, and it will work for you as well. You have friends that you work with and you have your boyfriend. If your interests are different from your friends at work, then naturally you are not going to spend alot of time together outside the workplace environment. And right now it sounds like your body doesn't have a ton of extra energy for going out and meeting new people. No big deal. Stay on the program. Really stay committed to it. When the time is right, you WILL feel your energy coming back. You will notice that you can be that funny, witty person you once were. And when that happens, new people and new friends will appear.
I often think, 'What could I accomplish if I didn't have this anxiety. Or what can I get donein my life if I didn't feel so down or depressed.' My answer is usually: "Anything I want to!"
That is my motivation for staying committed to this program. Good for you that you have outgrown the partying thing. It sounds like you are ready for a more mature enironment. When your anxiety and depression is in check, you will find it and it will find you! Hang in there!
Yes, I do know how you feel. I was exactly where you are for a number of years actually. My advice is to not dwell on it. I know this program is working for me, and it will work for you as well. You have friends that you work with and you have your boyfriend. If your interests are different from your friends at work, then naturally you are not going to spend alot of time together outside the workplace environment. And right now it sounds like your body doesn't have a ton of extra energy for going out and meeting new people. No big deal. Stay on the program. Really stay committed to it. When the time is right, you WILL feel your energy coming back. You will notice that you can be that funny, witty person you once were. And when that happens, new people and new friends will appear.
I often think, 'What could I accomplish if I didn't have this anxiety. Or what can I get donein my life if I didn't feel so down or depressed.' My answer is usually: "Anything I want to!"
That is my motivation for staying committed to this program. Good for you that you have outgrown the partying thing. It sounds like you are ready for a more mature enironment. When your anxiety and depression is in check, you will find it and it will find you! Hang in there!